It was only a week in Deer City, and then An'an and Regeneration were going to leave.

"An'an, come in!" Father Ann stood at the door of his room and wanted to call An An in to talk.

"What?" An An knew her father's intentions, but just pretended not to know, and reappeared on the side with a blank face.

"Hurry up!" Father Ann continued to urge.

"No, I'm going to tidy things up." An An knew her father too well, knew what he was going to say, and knew her temper, since she was leaving, she didn't want to end up unhappy. As soon as she thought of him entering her room to inquire about the family background of the regeneration, she also said that she would not regret marrying herself so soon? even insisted that she come to Lucheng to find a good family, she knew that he would not explain anything good, and she still had lingering feelings about what happened that night.

He was so wishful thinking that he wanted to help her decide her affairs, and An An was so desperate to reject it. In the end, the two of them did not give up, and Ann's father said to An An: "I want to see you buy a house in Rock City before I agree to your marriage!" ”

"We are obviously in Lake City, why should we go to Rock City to buy a house, besides, we don't have money to buy any house now, if we have money, we will naturally buy it!" Anshore doesn't hide it either.

"If you can't afford a house, why should you get married?"

"And what did you give my mom when you got married?"

"Is that how your mother taught you?"

"Anyway, I'll definitely get married this year, you can go if you want."

"Won't I talk like I get married? I'm your dad! ”

"All of them are here with you, and we are here to get you married at that time."

"It's not that I don't want to go, but how do you let me go? You have to come to Lucheng to hold a banquet, I can do it. ”

"I don't have any friends or anything in Lucheng, what are you doing here?"

"You bastard, isn't Grandma Uncle your relative? You don't want your loved ones anymore. ”

"Why are you so tired of talking to you? Grandma: Are they in Deer City? Obviously in the countryside far away to die. ”

"Are you now only a relative on your mother's side, and you don't want any relatives here."

"Say whatever you want."

"What do you mean I can say whatever I want? What is your attitude? ”

"What's wrong with me? Is it worse than your attitude? You didn't talk to me properly, did you? ”

"You're your dad!" Father An raised his eyes and shouted, "When I was a child, even if your grandfather beat me with a stick, I didn't dare to say anything. You're terrible, you've turned the sky upside down! ”

"That's what you're educating the next generation right now, right? Am I going to hit my child with a stick in the future? An'an was completely enraged by her father, gritting her teeth and frowning.

"See for yourself what the hell you look like?"

"I really don't want to say it. You say you're dad all day long, what's wrong with daddy? Isn't Dad unreasonable?"

"Do you believe that I trampled you to death?" Father Ann was also enraged.

"That's right! See? Every time you trample me to death and pinch me to death, can you speak a little more viciously? My friend's dad doesn't have one like you. ”

"What's wrong with me? Am I treating you badly? ”

"Where did you treat me? I used to beat me and slap me at every turn for very small things, and I remember it. ”

"You're going to rebel against the sky now, and you're still holding a grudge!"

"Can you do it, why can't I remember?" An'an burst into tears as he spoke, his body twitching with great anger and grievance.

Although Father An was forced to calm down, his attitude was obviously much softer, "Dad knows that he has a bad temper, but I can't help it, can't you bear it?" ”

"I bear it? Then who will put up with me? Do you think I don't want to go home? Do I dare to come back? You're so angry when you come back, you talk like a knife, I'm going crazy after being with you for a long time, you know? ”

Father Ann was silent and didn't speak, this time he didn't continue yelling at An An as before.

An'an's tears poured out like a broken embankment, at which moment she felt so desperate, she didn't care that the sofa in the living room was still lying on the regeneration, she and her father were like enemies, some words could never be said clearly, she was wondering if her father was unreasonable or she was just a person without parents. Not being able to communicate is like an abyss, which makes people frightening and helpless.

That night, I had insomnia again, An An had insomnia, and An's father also had insomnia.

When leaving, Ann's father sent An Shore and Regeneration to the airport, all the way to the place where the subway station exited.

"Dad, go back, let's just go in by ourselves!" An'an and Regeneration crossed the turnstile and turned to him.

"Okay, then I won't send it!" Father Ann stood still.

An'an walked some distance and looked back only to find that her father was still there, so he waved at him, and he waved too. An'an's nose was sour, and he threw his head high. Regeneration took her hand and said, "We'll have time to see him again!" ”

An'an didn't respond to regeneration, not wanting him to see his reddened eyes. Until he sat on the plane, An Shore took the initiative to say, "Regeneration, don't you hate my father?" ”

"Don't hate it!"

"My dad is so cold to you!"

"I heard everything you said in the room, and I didn't fall asleep."

"Woke you up, didn't you?"

"No, I haven't slept."

"It was three o'clock in the morning, and I didn't know if he was crazy or I was crazy. I'm really tired with him. ”

"Maybe because you haven't been home, he's depressed."

"But do I dare to go home? You've also seen that they quarrel at every turn, and they can't live together at all. Don't take those words to heart when he says. ”

"It's okay, I don't care. Actually, your dad just has a bad temper, and he regrets it a little bit, didn't you find out? ”

"Regrets?"

"Yes, he must not have a good time without your mother."

"I don't see that he regrets it, I just think he really can't communicate, and I think I'm destined to get along with him. I thought he would give me a little bit of face when you came, but not at all. ”

"No way, dad is dad after all!"

"Yes, that's why I'm helpless."

"Don't think about it too much, anyway, you don't take anything he says to heart, it's not good for you. Whatever he says, you just treat it as air. ”

"I can't do it, I'm by him every time."

"Didn't you hear him say that?"

"What?"

"He said that every time he sees people buying chickens and ducks during the Chinese New Year, he thinks of you, but you don't come back!"

"It's really annoying to say something inexplicable, if that's the case, why does he torture me like this every time he comes back."

"He can't control his temper."

"Sometimes I really don't understand how my mom was with him for so many years."

"They haven't been together all the time, didn't you say they often live apart?"

"Yes. I used to think that I was very pitiful when I was a child, my parents were not around, unlike other children who were loved and loved, but the more I grew up, the more lucky I felt. If I really live with them all the time, I'm afraid I'll go crazy. ”

"Actually, this world is fair, what you didn't get before will get it in the future, because I will give it to you. It really affected you as a child, you know? In fact, in the past few years with you, I have gradually found that many times you are a very pessimistic person, but at the same time you are very optimistic and positive. You are a very hard worker, fortunately you still have moments of optimism, otherwise your pessimism really doesn't know where it will take you. ”

"Is there one?" An An looked at Regeneration, in fact, even if Regeneration didn't say it, she could feel it herself, because it wasn't the first time someone had said this about her.

When she was in elementary school, a teacher once asked her, "Was your childhood unhappy?" Why does your article about childhood look so sad? At that time, she didn't realize it, but she just thought that the teacher was wrong.

Later, when she went to junior high school, her Chinese teacher also said to her, "An'an, your ability to control words is very good, but your writing is too sad, are you sad in your personality or do you deliberately want this style when writing articles?" At that time, An'an didn't even think about it and said, "To write an article." ”

The Chinese teacher smiled, "Is this a worry about giving new words?" ”

An An also smiled, but the smile was so reluctant in the teacher's eyes.

When I was a child, every time I cried secretly, I would run to the bathroom to wash my face, and then smile in the mirror, always telling myself that I would be very happy in the future, An'an thought that she was a positive and optimistic person, but when she said this, she really realized that maybe there was really a pessimism in her heart that she didn't realize.

"I can feel that every time you cry, it's not someone else's kind of crying to vent your emotions, you really feel sad in your heart, all crying."

"Really?" An'an bit his lower lip, not knowing what to say.

"All you just cry every time and don't make a sound, but the body is honest and you have convulsions every time."

"I've been crying like this since I was a child."

"Yes, because you are depressed, you are suppressing yourself even when you cry."

"Are you scared?" An Ann squeezed out a forced smile.

"I'm not afraid, I'm afraid that this will not be good for you, you take everything too seriously, in fact, there are some things that you can not take so seriously, don't care so much."

"I know, I'll try to refrain from it in the future."

"Just let it go a little bit, it's really not a big deal. Don't think about the questions you can't figure out, anyway, there are people waiting to ask you for answers. ”

"Well, you're right."

"Don't overthink it anyway. Some things are not your responsibility, do what you should do and don't wronged yourself. ”

An'an rested his head on Regene's shoulder, "Thank you for telling me this!" ”