"I don't dislike you."

"But I hate myself." He frowned and shook his head: "Why is this happening? Why? You should have belonged to Ruikang in the first place, how did you marry me? I really don't understand why God is playing such a trick on the three of us. ”

Ruojun didn't know what to say, the matter had come to this, she could only keep thinking about her promise to Ruikang, Ryan poured her a glass of wine, and said, "Come on, have another drink, from now on you are no longer my wife, go back early, so as not to worry Ruikang." He tried to stay as calm as possible, but his reddened eyes and choked voice betrayed the grief in his heart.

He touched Ruojun's glass with the wine glass, and drank it all when he looked up, she held the small wine glass tightly with both hands, trembling a little, lowered her head, looked at the wine in the glass, tears dripped down her eyelashes in the glass, causing a ripple, she slowly brought the wine glass to her lips, frowned, and drank it all.

The spicy liquor gradually turned into a bitterness in her mouth and flowed into her heart, and she felt sad and sad. Is it all over? Speaking of which, she should feel happy and relieved, Ryan wrote the "Divorce Consent Form", Mrs. Zhou nodded her noble head, and the future of her and Ruikang gradually became brighter, but she felt that there was a boulder pressing down on her heart.

Seeing that Ryan was enduring her grief, she couldn't remain indifferent, she opened her mouth slightly, and then shouted: "Ryan ......" Before the words fell, Ryan suddenly stood up with a crutch, staggered away, and said loudly: "Don't, don't say anything to comfort me." Don't worry if I'm going to die, let's go. ”

She was even more sad, why should she hurt an innocent person? A person who loves himself?

She also stood up and stepped forward, still wanting to say something to him, but her mind was in turmoil, and she could not find anything proper, proper, and deserved, after all, she owed him. She looked at him, but he turned his face sideways, but his hand holding the cane was shaking, and his body was shaking slightly.

Kindness and soft-heartedness are sometimes also a fatal weakness, although her mind keeps recalling Ruikang's instructions, but she can't leave Ryan so cruelly, after she leaves, he will continue to eat or drink, sit and wait for death, her departure is tantamount to killing him.

"Ahem." He sighed, "You shouldn't have come back." ”

"I ...... I haven't forgotten you...... I ......"

"Ruojun!" He stopped her, and she was stunned.

"Don't have mercy on me, have mercy on me. There are some things, some words, let's bury them in our hearts. He said, turning his head to look at her, yes she shouldn't have come back, but he also made a mistake, he shouldn't have turned his head to look at her, she was less than two fists away from him, too close, too close, her delicate face with pear blossoms and rain, so beautiful, so beautiful.

This is his wife, there are ripples in his heart, why is he pretending to be a saint, why is he giving her to another man, she obviously doesn't want to leave.

He looked at her face and remembered the two poems in "Song of Long Hatred": "Hibiscus is like a willow like an eyebrow, how not to ......cry about it" After she left, he could only look at the flowers and plants to miss her face, he smelled the faint aroma of her body, and suddenly felt that the blood in his body was surging, and there seemed to be many small flames in his lower abdomen, he threw away the crutches, pulled her into his arms, and hugged her tightly: "Ruojun, Ruojun...... I love you, I love you......" He closed his eyes, his fiery lips rubbing against her face, tears sliding down his face to hers.

She was moved by his deep confession, her mind was groggy, but she kept churning with emotion, desire, maybe it was Ruikang who taught her to know the man's body in the morning, her ignorant love, the world of desire was gradually opened, Ryan's kiss and hug made her feel very hot, as if there was a fire constantly heating her blood.

And the affection for Ryan in the depths of her heart was suddenly unearthed by him. The two kissed, somehow rolled onto the bed, he kissed her face, her lips, her neck, instinctively caressed her soft body, Ruojun's whole body was hot, hot, feeling like he was going to boil, took the initiative to hold his face, kissed him, she couldn't see who he was, her head was only full of love, desire, she didn't understand why she couldn't control her desire to be close to him, hope, felt strange in her heart, but her brain couldn't work, she just wanted him, who was he? Ryan? Ruikang? She couldn't tell the difference.

Ruojun's initiative made Ryan even more desired. Fire. Burn. Body, he could no longer restrain the primal impulse in his heart, trembling, hurriedly untying her and his own clothes, she felt his desire, desire, and couldn't cater to him...... This is a cave house candle that is a year late......

That night, the wind and snow became violent, the wind swept the goose feather-like snowflakes, flying inside and outside the city of Beiping, the whistling wind passed through the horizontal alleys, making a cry-like sorrow, every household closed the door and closed the window, waiting for the wind and snow to pass. Only one man stood in the courtyard of the Zhou family, letting out a wail like a beast struggling before dying...... His screams of pain, despair, and madness echoed through the sky...... Then he disappeared, into the snowy night......

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It wasn't until Xu Manlin broke into the hall of the Zhou family that the people of the Zhou family knew that Zhou Ruikang had taken a leave of absence, and his job at the publishing house had also resigned, so he suddenly disappeared in the eyes of everyone who knew him, no one knew where he was, no one knew where he went, just like a coin thrown into the sea, disappearing silently into the tide.

Everyone in the Zhou family was shocked, anxious and sad, but Mei Ruojun was extremely unusual, when everyone surrounded Xu Manlin, who was anxious and kept talking, she just stood in the corner and looked out the window in a daze, and his desperate wail and Mrs. Zhou's cold voice still echoed in her ears:

"Ruikang, your eldest brother and sister-in-law have already completed the house, if you break in now, it is undoubtedly inappropriate."

"No, I don't believe it, I don't believe it!"

"She was originally a woman who was not dedicated to her feelings and did not abide by women's morals......"

"How can you say that about her? You know that the person in her heart is me! ”

"Really? Then how could she come back to Zhou's house, talk to Ryan about wine, and spend candles in the cave room? ”

"I don't know, so I'm going to ask her!"

"Ruikang, the state has national laws, and the family has family rules, how can you trespass into your eldest brother and sister-in-law's bedroom at will?"

……

She knew that he would definitely run away from home again, and this time he would go farther and more thoroughly, and maybe even say goodbye, so Xu Manlin brought the news, she was not surprised at all, slowly walked out of the hall, she wandered aimlessly in the yard, and unconsciously she walked to the lotus pond again, and walked up to a big stone with some shaking, looking at the water in the pool with thin ice, and her thoughts were numerous.

Mrs. Zhou won, she won, she planned all this with her own hands, she achieved her goal, she and Ruikang were completely over, she was so naïve to believe her, Ruikang naturally didn't see the note he left him, just after Mrs. Zhou and herself left the small attic, Yanxi had already gone upstairs to take the note and tear it up and throw it into the trash.

And the sumptuous wine and food on the table, of course, was also carefully prepared by Mrs. Zhou, and there were enough "Hehuan San" in the wine and dishes.

She won, so beautifully, so thoroughly.

Ruojun showed an unshaven sneer at the corner of her mouth, yes, how ridiculous, she would actually believe that Mrs. Zhou would agree to be with Ruikang, and she would actually believe that Mrs. Zhou would prepare a breakup banquet for her and Ryan.

She felt so painful that she might as well close her eyes and jump headlong into the icy water, and she was about to lean forward when suddenly four small hands grabbed her dress tightly.

"Sister Ruojun!" Shu Zhi hugged her leg tightly, and Xun Mei also tightly pulled Ruojun's skirt.

Yes! Shu Zhi, Xun Mei, these two poor children, they were brought back by Ruikang, and they were also gifts from Ruikang to her, and she promised him to take good care of them. She turned and walked down from the rock, crouched down, and took them both in her arms.

"Sister Ruojun, don't you want us anymore?" Xun Mei cried: "Daddy is gone, home is gone, Brother Ruikang is gone, don't you want us too?" ”

"Oh, no, no, no, my sister won't want you." Ruojun also cried, she already had a deep relationship with them, just like her own brother and sister.

"Sister, my brother has a surprise for you, don't be sad." Xun Mei wiped her tears and pulled Shu Zhi, Meng Shuzhi glanced at her, scratched her head, and took out a piece of paper from her padded jacket and gave it to her.

Ruojun opened it and saw that it was a transcript with a full score written on it, Shu Zhi shrunk his neck and said, "This is the result of the first exam." ”

"Shu Zhi, you are really amazing!" Ruojun looked at him comfortingly and stroked his face.

"Sister Ruojun, even if Brother Ruikang leaves, you don't have to be afraid, Xunmei and I will definitely be very obedient in the future, we will love you and protect you. Why don't you come to this lotus pond again? Shu Zhi said.

"Okay, my sister promises you that I will be with you more in the future." Ruojun smiled.

"Mei-Ruo-kun?"

Ruojun and the three looked up, Xu Manlin was wearing a sky blue, a high-end coat with white fox fur trimmed with collar and cuffs, a white fox fur soft hat on her head, and a pair of high leather boots, and walked over enchantingly.

"Miss Xu." Mei Ruojun shouted politely.

Xu Manlin looked at Shu Zhi, the corners of her mouth raised, and she said with an arrogant smile: "Oh? Brother Ruikang is gone, will your Ruojun sister be scared? ”

"Don't listen to kids' nonsense." Ruojun hurriedly said.

"Of course, but children are also the least lying. Because their acting skills are not good enough. Xu Manlin glanced at Mei Ruojun from the corner of her eye.

"I don't know what you mean."

"It's nothing, I just want to tell you that I'm here today to tell the second elder of the Zhou family not to worry, I will find Ruikang's whereabouts soon. Including all his secrets. As he spoke, he glared at Ruojun.

"Hmm." She nodded. I could hear something in Xu Manlin's words, but I didn't know what she was alluding to.

Xu Manlin stopped talking, glanced at the three of them with slanted eyes, and turned around and left the back garden.