- Dreams can fly into the sky, because dreams are lighter than air.

And life can't fly, life, it's too heavy, so heavy that we can't carry it in the end——(1 )

Will the world be the same when you wake up?

When I opened my eyes, the sun was already bright, and the rich golden sunlight was thickly spread on the desk of the window, and my window was facing south, and from the window I could see the bustling street. Sometimes I hate the people coming and going on that street, because it makes the street look like it's alive, and life is an absolute thing, and the street shouldn't have life.

Prop up and look at the alarm clock at the head of the bed, at 8:46, "Get up!" "Tell myself softly that even though it's summer vacation, I don't want to stay in bed anymore. Sit up, barefoot on the smooth wooden floor, cool from the soles of your feet into your body, I like wood the most, with a warm ivory color and a cool moonlight-like touch, how the trees have lived to leave such a wonderful experience.

I walked to the window and reached out to clasp the window, trying to pull it open, but no matter how hard I tried, the window didn't move, maybe it was stuck. I was about to leave, and the moment I turned around, I caught a glimpse of the street outside the window through the glass, and the sight of the street made my mouth open wide in horror.

All the pedestrians on the street had their eyes closed, but they walked in a hurry, and no one bumped into anyone. I blinked and looked again, and I noticed that not only the pedestrians, but also the shops on the roadside, and the cars on the road, everyone in the street had their eyes closed as if they were sleepwalking, and their movements were as precise as they could see.

I began to suspect that I was dazzled and that it was time to go to the bathroom to wash my face and sober up. I walked to the bathroom, and as I passed through the hall, I encountered something even more incredible.

There was a wall in the hall that was a whole mirror, and I walked quickly through it, barefoot, without making a sound. However, there seems to be something missing besides sound. I stood as if I was imprisoned in this deadly silence, and it took me a long time to lift my feet and take a step back. Sure enough, yes, there was one thing missing, and my fear was overwhelming.

In the mirror, the sofa, the coffee table, and all the belongings in the hall were reflected, but no, me. I moved from side to side, and took a few steps closer to the mirror, but there was no image of me in the mirror.

I knew fear was attacking me, but I couldn't fight back, fear, it first bound me, and then bit by little it stole my strength, my consciousness. Until, the click of the door lock drove it away. I looked in the mirror because I still couldn't take my eyes off it. Inside the mirror, the door opened behind me, and my mom and dad walked in, too, with their eyes closed.

They're in the mirror, I'm not there.

They didn't talk, but walked into my room with their eyes closed and in a palpable gesture of affirmation. I watched in amazement as my dad pulled out stacks of books from the shelves and tied them with rope, while my mom was packing up the small items, and she put my perfume, brushes, paints, cell phone, and knick-knobs into a bag along with the unfinished drawings on the drawing board, their faces sad and their faces full of tears.

（2 ）

What's wrong with this world and the people of this world?

I rushed into the room, grabbed my mother's arms, and called out to her. She looked at me suspiciously, as if she was looking at me with her eyes closed, her eyelids moved slightly, and I looked at her in surprise, Mom, open your eyes and look at me! But my mother turned her face away, but her eyes were still closed. I almost broke down, this morning was a nightmare.

"Dad!" Mom calls Daddy.

"What's the matter?" Dad turned to look at Mom and said yes, his eyes didn't open, he just faced Mom's direction accurately.

"I seem to hear Xiaohu calling me." It's not like it's like Mom, I'm really calling you!

"Oops! You miss her so much. ”

"No, I really heard Xiaohu's voice calling me!" Mom, I'm really calling you!

"Impossible! Xiaohu, alas, Xiaohu she won't call you anymore, you know. ”

"I know, I know." Mom muttered softly.

"Don't overthink it."

"Let's have one, so I can feel more at ease."

"You're always superstitious, alas, well, it's up to you to make you feel at ease."

Mom and Dad said and left, I chased to the living room, shouted at Mom and Dad, Mom's footsteps paused, "I said, I seem to hear the sound of the lake again." But they finally didn't look back at me and walked out the door.

The door closed in front of me, and I sat on the ground in despair, something like this was too much to believe. I sat motionless on the floor of the living room, the coldness of the floor breaking into my skin and my blood feeling cold. The door of the room was ajar, and a ray of sunlight came in, and the dust was illuminated by the sunlight, and it was as if I could see time rushing away. A thought burst into my mind.

（3 ）

Am I no longer in this plane?

The ray of sunlight left a golden line on the floor in front of me, which gradually widened and faded, and I knew that the sun had sunk in the west, and the stars were painting the sky. Time passed, but I never dared to look back to see if I had come back in the mirror.

It's night, is it night I can see myself in the mirror, I tentatively turned around, in the mirror, there was still no me.

"Click", I jumped up from the ground in fright.

The door opened, and it was Mom, still sleepwalking. He was followed by a man dressed in the funny yellow robes worn by Taoist priests, chanting something with his head bowed. "Please go out first." Mom whispered back, and the man closed the door.

Then the stranger looked back and said, "Oh my God! I screamed in my heart, his eyes were open, and he was looking at me intently.

He took a step closer to me, and I timidly took a step back.

"Don't be afraid, I'm a medium, so I can see you." He said as he began to take off his robe.

"You, what are you doing here? Are you a Taoist priest? ”

"Your mother invited me here, I'm not a Taoist, but if I don't pretend to be a Taoist, no one believes that I opened my eyes."

"Sky Eye?"

"How else would I see you?"

"I, what's wrong with me?"

"You don't know yet? This is the first time that I have encountered something that is still in the dark. You're dead. ”

（4 ）

The reason for the strange thing is this earth-shattering "I'm 'dead'"?

He pulled out a notebook from his purse, each page had my name, a photograph, and so on, and he flipped to the last page, which contained my name, my mother's contact information, and a copy of my death certificate.

My head was about to burst open, and the death certificate, my death certificate, the hard stamps were stamped on it, splitting my name in two.

The cause of death is unknown, there are no wounds on the body surface, there are no toxins in the body, and it is estimated that the heart beat suddenly stopped.

"How can a sudden halt in a heartbeat? I fell asleep and woke up to see the whole world crazy, you know, only you with your eyes open! ”

"This is the eye of the sky. Others don't have their eyes open, so they can't see you, and they seem to you to have their eyes closed. ”

"What a thing!"

"You don't believe it, do you?"

"Of course I don't believe it!"

"Look," he pointed to the mirror, "you can't see yourself, do you?" ”

"Yes," I was a little gloomy, and frankly, I believed that I might be dead, but it was ridiculous. "But why did I die suddenly?"

"I don't know about this, I'm just a medium. It's just that you must have dreamed last night, right? ”

Yes, I dreamed.

（5 ）

Could it be that it wasn't a dream but the process of my death?

Yesterday, well, if that's true, it was the night before.

This house is shared with my good friend Ah Chen, because our homes are too far away from the school. Two rooms per person, sharing the living room, kitchen and washroom. We are teachers in the same elementary school, she teaches music and I teach art, we both have a second career, Ah Chen and her boyfriend Muzi co-opened a gallery, Muzi is my college classmate, and I paint some paintings in my spare time and put them on consignment in their gallery.

Ah Chen didn't come back very late the night before, and after midnight I didn't wait for her anymore and went to bed alone. I woke up in the early hours of the morning, went to the kitchen to drink water, and saw Ah Chen sitting alone in the living room drinking, not beer, but red wine, and her shoes were taken off one by one, and the door was not even closed.

"Xiaohu, come and drink with me." Ah Chen greeted me coyly.

"Ah Chen, you're drunk."

"Drink with me!"

"I'll go out for a walk with you."

I helped Ah Chen out and closed the door. Walking aimlessly, Ah Chen dragged the bottleneck of a bottle of red wine, and I tugged on Ah Chen's arm.

Under the lonely street lamp, there is a couple kissing at night, which makes our snuggling walk quite ambiguous. The couple spotted us and walked away. I laughed, cute little lover, but Ah Chen fell on my chest and cried.

I desperately pressed her violently undulating shoulders, her tears wet my clothes, and murmured indistinctly: "Xiaohu, Xiaohu, what should I do Xiaohu, Muzi doesn't want me anymore......" I didn't know how to comfort such a Ah Chen, so I could only gently pat her shoulder and comb her long hair with my fingers speechlessly. Ah Chen kept talking, she said: "I once dreamed of being with Muzi forever, but Muzi said, 'If the dream can be realized in my lifetime, then the dream after realization will not become a dream', Xiaohu, I can't be with Muzi forever if I die?" ”

We just hugged on the side of the street until dawn, doing nothing but hugging, hugging has the power of warmth. I said, "Ah Chen, let's go home." ”

"Not good! Let's go to the beach...... Good no good? Small lake, we go to the seaside. ”

We lay on the beach, looking at the sparse coconut leaves above, the starless sky on the leaves crying, pure black, bottomless. The sand was fine and soft, and the sand had some dead shells on it, stinging us. The waves swept up my long white cotton skirt and went all the way to my chest, and the long skirt swelled and tightened, and then the waves swept away, and my skirt stuck to my body and restrained me.

Then it rained, and it slowly got dark. This is not a beach, and no one comes when it rains. Ah Chen was crying, just tears, not crying, tears flowed out of his closed eyes, down his temples to his ears, dripping into the sand, and away with the waves. I was watching her, and the rain was getting heavier, and the rain and her tears were shaking on her eyelashes.

It's night again. "Ah Chen, let's go back." Ah Chen was silent, and let me pull her up, carry her home, and put her on the bed to cover the quilt. Then I dragged my tired body and climbed into bed and fell asleep.

（6 ）

Can I be sure it was really just a dream?

He listened to me quietly, smiled, and said, "You said it was a dream, do you mean that you didn't get up at all, didn't see Ah Chen, didn't go out with her, everything was a dream?" ”

"I, I think, yes."

"Your roommate also died the day before yesterday, the cause of death was alcohol poisoning, and the time of death was in the afternoon."

What about me? Why can I see ghosts?

"I'll try to explain it to you."

My soul left my body the night before yesterday, and for some reason this happened, but I met Ah Chen, who is also a soul. Yesterday morning my mom called, no one answered, no one answered the phone, so my mom rushed to my rented house, opened the door with the spare key and came in to find me lying on the bed, no breathing, no heartbeat.

"Ridiculous, isn't it?" I really don't want to believe that I died so inexplicably, as if I never existed.

"What's wrong with you waking up in the morning other than finding that people have their eyes closed?"

"There's no me in the mirror! Also, you can't pull the window. ”

"By the way, that's because you don't have a body."

"But if you can see me, so can I, why don't I have a body?"

"It's a matter of presence."

"Presence?"

"The soul disappears when it leaves the body, slowly disappearing. At first, the sense of presence is very strong, for example, if you go to open the window, even though the window is still closed, you will feel that you have opened the window, because you have the idea of opening the window, you will tell yourself that you have opened the window, and whether the window is open or not is completely your own feeling. A soul with a strong sense of presence will make strong hints to itself, and it will feel that everything is the same as when it was alive. ”

"So I'm almost gone?"

"Yes, now you can suggest to yourself that you can't see your hands anymore."

I tried to think about it and really noticed that the hand became translucent.

（7 ）

So did I really exist in this world?

I think I'm about to cease to exist. He asked me, "Would you like to talk to your mother through me?" It's my profession. ”

"No, just tell her there are no ghosts in this house, and I'm going to disappear anyway. My mom was superstitious and told her she would be here every day waiting for me. ”

"Okay."

"Me, can I fly?"

"Yes, every soul can, it's just that the body restricts their freedom. Imagine yourself flying. ”

So I flew lightly, circled the room a few times, and flew out of the window. It turns out that only when life does not exist can the soul be free.

I flew to the moon and clearly felt myself dying little by little.

At the last moment, it occurred to me that, perhaps, this world is illusory, and it is only after death that it is real. Everyone can't be sure that they really existed, that they existed, because they never died.

If dreams can be realized in their lifetime, then the dreams after they are realized will not be dreams.

Dreams can fly into the sky, because dreams are lighter than air, and life cannot fly, life, it is too heavy, so heavy that we can't carry it in the end. It was the life of this body that imprisoned the dreams inside the shell, and now that I have no life, I have finally become a dream lighter than air.