Chapter 35: Talking to myself from the bottom of my heart
Maybe a minute had passed, maybe hundreds of years had passed, and I don't know how long I had spent in this darkness, until one day, the humming of machinery sounded in my ears, and I struggled to open my eyes.
Slowly sitting up straight, I still hadn't figured out what was going on. A pain came from the depths of my soul, and I subconsciously covered my head with my hand and shook my head gently. The pain doesn't feel much, it's a bit like being beaten with a stick by someone else. After about two or three minutes, I felt a little more comfortable before I stood up.
"Are you awake? J7。 A very familiar voice came from not far ahead, I was stunned for a moment, then looked up, and the scene in front of me made my consciousness blank for an instant.
Not far in front of me, a man put down the parts in his hand and turned to look at me, a kind smile that I don't even know if it was the first time I've seen it.
No, it can't be, I've already resurrected Cher! I've already touched the crystal! Why, it's impossible!
Ignoring the man's cries, I hurried to the window and looked out. The endless blue sky, the white sea of clouds reflecting the sunlight, and the roar of steam from the flying ships, and the sound of the gears turning in the body......
Suddenly, there was a shaking, and I staggered two or three steps and sat down, and I looked down to see that it was clearly the sleeping pod that had been used to spend the night, and the decorations around me...... Once again, I went back to the day before I arrived in Tisball.
"Haha, J7, it looks like your balance system needs to be perfected a little more." Ode continued to fiddle with the parts on the table.
"Okay Xiaode, don't make fun of J7, it's going to be sad too......"
At this point, no matter what they said, I couldn't listen to it, the gears of my whole body seemed to stop at this moment, and my soul seemed to be frozen, completely condensed.
I couldn't think about anything, I couldn't do anything, I just froze in the sleep pod.
Why...... If my wish was a joke from the beginning, then don't give me hope! Don't make me desperate for this! I threw everything away! Whether it's anyone else, or myself, I don't want anything! I just want to bring Cher back to life! Isn't that much suffering plus my life enough! Whatever you want, I'll give it to you! Answer me! Answer me!
I couldn't speak, I couldn't cry, I could only roar silently in the depths of my heart like this. I'm really scarred and exhausted, but even so, do you want to rub salt in my wounds and continue to torture me?
What did I do wrong, is it wrong to treat me like this, to fight to the death for the sake of my lover...... Please, kill me...... Give me a relief and let me go to heaven to see my Cher......
I really want to cry, I want to cry out loud, I can't vent this pain in my heart, I want to save my lover, I try my best, but in the end it's just in vain, just keep adding new scars to myself. It is better to die than to die, and if you die, you may be pure, and you don't have to think about anything.
I'm really tired, so tired...... I told myself again and again that I couldn't run away from it, but what did I get in the end? In addition to the growing pain of longing, there is only boundless pain! I've had enough, really enough......
My legs trembled, as if I couldn't even control my body, and I stood up and walked to the hatch of the flying ship. At such a height, if you jump down, you will undoubtedly be crushed. I don't have to worry about whether I will be resurrected again, my soul has become very weak, and I can clearly feel this, and if I die again, I am afraid that I will be able to close my eyes forever.
Holding the hatch with both hands and pulling it to the side, a strong wind blew in from the open hatch in an instant, and many light things in the cabin were blown all over the house. Under the surprised gazes of Oude and Ouya, my body was about to fall forward.
There are no superfluous thoughts at this moment, just constantly recalling everything in my heart about the past with Cher, her voice and smile, we go from the shyness at the beginning of our acquaintance, to the love when we are in love, and then to the reluctance when we are separated...... Every time I recall it, it will make my love for her a little deeper and more unforgettable.
Cher, in the next life, please be my wife, I can't save you, I'm sorry, I will love you forever.
I closed my eyes, and my body was about to fall off the flying ship, about to be freed from the pain. At that moment, a petite figure quickly rushed up and pounced on me with both feet off the ground when I was still a meter away. Seeing that I was about to jump off the flying ship, the first reaction was not Ou De, but the weak Ou Ya, and what I didn't expect was that she actually pounced directly.
Ouya's hands wrapped around my waist, but apparently she pounced a little too hard, and instead of stopping me, she followed me and fell out of the cabin.
After seeing Ouya's movements, my eyes were full of confusion, if I just let my body fall, this kind-hearted girl would die with me. Thinking back to what I had done to her before, every time I cruelly ignored her pleas, every time I allowed those cruel realities to pollute her soul, but even so, at this time, it was still this girl who rushed forward to save me, which made my heart a little unbearable.
For Cher's, I can sacrifice everything, even for such a kind girl. Even in the end, I became numb, and Howe did not hesitate to divide others, using living people as shields...... My heart has been twisted and dyed black from a blank sheet of paper.
……
"Cher."
"What's wrong?"
"Guess what I like about you?"
"Uh, eyes?"
"That's not right."
"Mouth?"
"That's not right."
"Could it be...... Perverted! ”
“…… I love everything about you. ”
"Humph! So guess what I like about you? ”
"Where?"
"I like your kindness."
"It seems that I like you a little more, but I like all of you."
"What, obviously I like you more!"
……
Speaking of which, Cher's favorite thing about me seems to be kindness, and I don't know when this favorite trait of hers was buried deep in the desert of Tisball.
Because the flying ship has an automatic protection system, it has already slowed down automatically the moment the hatch opens, but at this time, most of my body has flown out of the cabin, and Ouya is holding me tightly. There are two vertical handles in the position of the ship's hatches, which are installed to facilitate stepping on the higher ship floor. I grabbed the handle on the left side with one hand, and clamped Ouya with the other to prevent her from accidentally falling off me.
Although the ship had held up, the strong wind still caused my whole body to sway from side to side at such a high altitude. To prevent slipping, my left arm wrapped Ouya's waist a little tighter. She seemed to be trembling, afraid, yes, even an adult male would be terrified if he was hung in the air at a height of 10,000 meters, let alone such a petite girl.
Oude held on to the hatch, anxious, and reached out several times to pull Ouya up, but our position was too low for him to reach. There is no way to go on like this, I grabbed the handle with my right hand, and drove my whole body to sway with force, Ouya felt my movements and cried out in fright.
The swing grew louder and larger, and soon it shook to a sufficient height. Ode seemed to know what I was going to do, and he hurriedly took a few steps back. I saw the moment and threw my body towards the hatch with all my strength with my right hand, and at the same time protected Ouya in my arms with my left hand, rolling on the cabin floor several times before sliding to the wall and stopping.
"Xiaoya!" Ou De hurriedly ran over and snatched Ou Ya from my arms, "Xiao Ya, how are you, are you injured!" ”
Ouya shook her head lightly, and wiped the tears that were still rolling in her eyes with her sleeve, "I'm fine, it's just that my heart is beating a little fast." ”
"That's good, if you don't get hurt." Hearing that Ouya was okay, Oude let out a long sigh of relief, and then looked at me with angry eyes.
"J7, are you crazy! When I made you, I didn't give you an order to kill yourself! If you want to die, I won't stop you, don't drag Ouya into the water! Looks like you're broken and should be scrapped! With that, Ode turned his head and grabbed a sharp screwdriver from the workbench and tried to remove my battery.
"No way!" Seeing this, Ouya hurriedly stopped in front of me, her cute face full of stubbornness, "You are not allowed to hurt J7!" It's our family, and it protected me just now! What problems can be fixed, but there is only one J7! ”
"You almost died! Can you think about it for me, you know how scared I am of losing you! Ouya, why don't you understand! Oude seemed to be really angry, and his face flushed.
"Get out of the way, this robot is broken, I'll make another one!" Oude reached out and pulled Ouya aside, and was about to do something to me.
"Oude! If you hurt J7, I'll ignore you again! Ouya shouted loudly, and there was obviously a cry in her tone.
"You!" Ouya's words were very effective, and Oude stopped after hearing it.
"Brother, although I don't know what happened to J7, but it just protected me, it's enough to know this, I pounced on it, don't be embarrassed about it."
Oude was silent, and about twenty seconds passed before he sighed helplessly, "Okay, then you promise me that you will not be so reckless in the future." ”
"Okay, I promise you, hee-hee." Ouya smiled with a mouthful of white jade teeth.
I really don't know how to react, so I wanted it to end like this...... Hey, forget it, it's better than letting this kind and lovely girl follow me to die, so just endure it for a while......
After what happened just now, I calmed down a little, and now that I think about it, there are many things that make me wonder.