Half-asleep, I heard Yu Dan's voice, which sounded like she had come back from shopping. Zhang Mu sat aside and looked at Yu Dan and then said, "Sister, he woke up just now, and after saying two words, he fell asleep again." Yu Dan smiled: "Just wake up, Brother Zhang, since he wakes up, you can go back and rest, I'll just guard it here." ”

Zhang Mu thought for a while, then slowly stood up, walked out of the ward gently, and closed the door of the ward when he went out. Yu Dan poured a little hot water from the kettle, then dipped a towel in a little water, slowly walked to my bed, picked up my hand, and began to wipe it carefully.

While wiping it, he said to himself: "Li Hao, I don't know if you are awake or unconscious now, I'll just treat you as a coma, I have always had something to say to you in my heart, but I don't dare to say it." I'm going to take this opportunity and I won't be able to hear you, so I'll tell you something. ”

Yu Dan carefully wiped my hands, with helplessness and memories in his tone: "Do you know? When I knew you when I was a child, I knew that you were actually a good person, and I still remember that when I was in school, the teachers and classmates in the class didn't like you, but I knew from the beginning that you didn't have a bad heart, you just liked to play.

That night, when you told me that you were looking for me to save people, I believed that it was you who brought me to another world, and also let me know that there are really ghosts in the world. I still remember when you were short and held a charm in your hand to face the mother and son.

Although I was scared, but looking at the firmness on your childish face, I don't know why I just felt very relieved, maybe from that time, at the age of fourteen or fifteen years old, I had your shadow in my heart. Yu Dan put down my hand, picked up the other hand, and still wiped it carefully.

"Later, after graduation, I lost your message, although I always have your phone number in my phone, but I haven't even sent you a text message and haven't called you, maybe I don't know what feelings are at that time. Or maybe it's because the little girl has a thin skin. Speaking of this, Yu Dan smiled and slowly continued to speak with memories on his face.

"You may not know that there have been many nights when I have edited text messages to send to you, but I have written them and deleted them, deleted them and written them, and I have never told you. I've changed a lot of phones and phone numbers, but I've never forgotten your phone number in my mind. ”

Yu Dan finished wiping my hands and began to wipe my neck again, and continued to mumble to himself: "When I was in school, I would also read some books on metaphysics and the like in my free time, although I knew that many of these things were fake, but I still wanted to try to understand the other world you know."

After I went to college, I knew before I fell into a coma that I should have encountered something strange, but the purpose of asking someone to call you was not to ask you to save me, but to be able to see you when I was awake, and I was afraid that if I couldn't see you, I wouldn't have a chance in the future. ”

There was a little sadness in Yu Dan's voice, I had never experienced that feeling, but I knew that when life and death were on the line, the figure in my heart was like Cen Si in the past, just like the claw that faced the red stiffness that night.

"I didn't expect that your phone would really work, and you would arrive at my hospital that night, and when I woke up, I saw you sweating profusely and weak, and I felt unspeakable distress in my heart. You know what? Actually, the guy you call chewing gum is pretty good to me.

But because I always have a figure in my heart, I still haven't promised him after all. I know the scene where you fought for me that night, I don't know why, even if you are facing so many dangers and so many unbelievable things, because you are by your side, I don't even feel afraid, do you say you are very strange? Yu Dan smiled, his face filled with a happy smile.

"Although that night was very dangerous, but seeing you desperately feel sorry for me at the same time with a little happiness in my heart, at least the figure in my heart, many years later, is still sheltering me from the wind and rain, for a girl, this is enough." Yu Dan finished wiping my neck and gently wiped my face again.

"Later, I heard that you have a girlfriend, you know? That night, I cried and laughed! I cry because the boy I like belongs to someone else, and I laugh because you found a girl who is good to you and can take care of you all the time, and I'm happy for you.

That night I was drunk for the first time in my life, I drank a lot of alcohol, I was always faint after just a little drink, I drank a lot that night, but I was always sober. It's just that my heart is drunk, very drunk, and I even want to tell you through the strength of the wine that I like you.

It's just that I finally endured it, and I watched you from a long distance from you, hoping that you could be happy. A warm tear fell gently on my face.

No one remembers the clear water, and the beautiful woman has two lines of tears.

"In the days to come, I also thought about wanting to find a boyfriend, but people should always have something they want to stick to."

Yu Dan's voice was very soft, but it was extremely heavy to hear it in my ears. "In the days that followed, I didn't go out of my way to inquire about you, until that day Zhang Mu called me, in which he told me that Cen Si died, and in order to save you, he died in front of you.

You lie in bed and don't eat or drink, he wants me to persuade you, but I didn't go to see you, I know the feeling in your heart, and I also know that you are a person who can't let go of your feelings, unless you come out by yourself, otherwise everyone will help you, Li Hao, I understand you, I know your heart, and I know your feelings.

In those days, I went to a temple every day to burn incense and pray for you, although I know that you are a disciple of Taoism, but I still hope that the Buddha can bless you and come out as soon as possible. After wiping my face, Yu Dan sat down beside me gently, and then grabbed my hand tightly.

"You disappeared for a year, I have been worried about you, but I have never looked for you, I know that I can't find you, more I want you to be alone for a while. After graduating, I came to Chongqing, and one day Zhang Mu told me that you opened a small bar in Chongqing, and the whole person seemed to have changed.

In fact, I have always been in contact with Zhang Mu, and I have known some of your things over the years, but I have never told you, when you are good, I look at you in the crowd, and when you are happy, I silently bless you in the back, be happy for you, and be sad for you.

But when you are sad, when your life is at a low point, even when you are betrayed and separated, I will support you by your side. I won't bother you when you don't need me, and when you're uncomfortable, I'll be the first to be by your side and accompany you through those difficult years. ”

Yu Dan's voice was very good, and every sentence hit my heart. "You know what? I go to you every day, just to see you and talk to you a few words, but I never express the feelings in my heart. That night you followed the corpse golem away, and I had a bad feeling in my heart.

But I didn't stop you, I know you have your choice, you have your own reasons for everything, all I can do is wait quietly for you to come back. It's just that the moment you had an accident, I panicked for no reason, and the cup in my hand fell to the ground.

But I still resisted the urge to go to you, because I can't help you at all after I go except to distract you, all I can do is wait for you quietly, in case something happens to you, I will take care of you, in case you unfortunately die, I will keep you in my heart for the rest of my life.

I've waited for so many years, and I've endured it for so many years, and today I don't want to bury these in my heart, I'm afraid that one day you will die, but I have never told you that I like you, you say that I am very thankful! Today I told you everything from my heart.

I am actually very happy to see you slowly come out of that incident and become the same person you used to be, so maybe it's time for me to choose again, I don't dare to tell you that I like you when you're sober, so I can only choose to continue to escape.

Li Hao, I think about it, when you wake up, I will go back to my hometown, I won't let you get entangled, and I won't let you feel that you owe me anything, just treat me as an ordinary friend, don't think too much, I just want you to have a happy life in the future, that's enough. ”

Two tears gently dripped on my hands, the tears were very cold, and this coolness was cold on my heart through the skin. I can feel the sadness and reluctance contained in these two tears.

My eyes moved, but I still didn't want to wake up, I was afraid that I wouldn't know how to face the girl in front of me when I woke up, this infatuated girl, this girl who had waited for nearly ten years but never told me. In the past, even if I encountered tricky demons and monsters. I have never flinched, I have never taken a step back.

It's just that today, in the face of a helpless girl, I chose to escape, I don't know how to choose, I don't know how to face it, and I don't know how to open my mouth to Yu Dan.

That year, under the locust tree, the yin and yang turbid wine was intoxicating; That year, in the city of Guiyang, Shaohua ended up with different paper figures; That year, in the mountain city, the spring and autumn were full of beautiful women; That year, on the barren mountains, the flowing water traced back to the heart into a cage.

It's just that the fallen flowers drift away with the water, and the beauty is bitter for ten years.