She was stunned, her breathing was not even, his lips had already kissed, his hands tightly wrapped her in his arms, kissing and caressing her passionately, making her whole body hot, and the tip of his tongue burrowed into her mouth and provoked her.

The more she struggled, the more passionate he became, and his hands had already swam over her several times, and her bumpy figure clung to his strong male body like a dry fire, and suddenly it burst into flames.

At this moment, there is no longer a brother and sister between her and him, there is no longer an age gap, they are just two bodies full of vitality, man and woman, desire, burning between them.

His breathing was rapid and low, she wanted to speak to stop him, but he pressed her against the wall, his lips kept kissing hers, she couldn't speak, his hands were on her chest, his waist rubbed back and forth, the strong reaction of his body, kept teasing her lust.

He plucked the hairpin from her head with one hand, let her hair fall down, turned off the light, and he picked her up and put her on the bed.

"No, Shu ......." She took advantage of the slightest gap and hurriedly spoke, trying to get her reason back, but her lips were immediately sealed by his kiss.

She likes his kisses and caresses, he is handsome and beautiful, tall and sturdy, not losing Ruikang or Ding Xiaohui, if there is no age gap, no sister and brother, no shadow of Ruikang and Ding Xiaohui, she may fall in love with him and marry him, but there is no if in the world, they just have an age difference, there is a brother and sister, and the shadow of Ruikang and Ding Xiaohui is like a brand on her heart.

He unbuttoned her blouse, her feminine beauty shook him beyond measure, leaned over to kiss her softness, her whole body trembled, she kept gasping, her body longing, longing for his further possession, but her mind kept resisting.

"You don't want my heart, you want my body, I want you to be happy, I can give you happiness......" he whispered in her ear, pouring into her mind like ecstasy soup.

Broad chest, strong arms, smooth skin, warm body temperature, for a long time, really long, she almost forgot what a man's body was like, she needed, she needed it, involuntarily hugged his broad back, kissed him back, and slowly met him.

Her flesh longed to be united with him, and he felt it, and he was encouraged, and his hand kept running down her lower abdomen, trying to remove her trousers.

But her thoughts, her heart, her mind were all about Ruikang's appearance, and she hated herself very much, hated that she couldn't forget him, hated herself for not being able to let go of the past, hated herself for not being able to accept or refuse temptation.

In the end, she still couldn't accept it, grabbed Shu Zhi's hand, pushed him away with all her might, sat up from the bed suddenly, and quickly buttoned her shirt with trembling hands, and shrank by the side of the bed. He didn't force her anymore, just sighed in frustration, leaned back on the bed, hung his head, and was silent.

Ruojun turned on the lamp on the table, let the light help her come to her senses, looked around, the small attic, still full of memories, the curtains she made with her own hands, the wardrobe repaired by Ruikang, more than ten years have passed in a blink of an eye, she sighed, distant memories are like dusty diaries, maybe it would be better not to open them.

Looking back at Shu Zhi, who was disappointed and lonely, she felt very guilty, she knew that she had hurt his self-esteem.

"I'm sorry." She said softly.

He closed his eyes and shook his head, slid down, resting on the pillow, turning sideways with his back to her.

The two of them sat like this, one lay down, silent, I don't know how long it took, Shu Zhi said leisurely:

"I now understand why he left the Zhou family to live in school."

"Shu Zhi......" Her heart trembled, and she looked back at his broad back.

"I'm going to apply for boarding tomorrow. I would be looking for a job."

"No, you'll miss your studies."

"No, I'll schedule it. I can't stay here, I have to leave. His tone barely fluctuated, and it was distressingly depressed.

Shu Zhi ...... "She didn't know what to say.

"Brother Ryan is gone, he is gone, Brother Ding is also gone, the men who love you are leaving you one by one, haven't you ever thought about why?"

Ruojun's heart shook violently, her head seemed to be knocked by someone, she turned to look at his back in surprise, it turned out that her little Shu Zhi not only grew up in appearance, but also grew in his heart, he was not superficial, nor naïve, he underestimated him.

"All four of us love you dearly, and none of us want to leave you, but you can't keep any of you in the end. You don't understand men, you don't understand. You've never gotten to know us well. ”

"Yes, I don't understand......" she sighed, remembering that Ding Xiaohui had also said that she didn't understand men and didn't know how to cherish.

"Back then, you jumped into the lotus pond of the Zhou family, I saw with my own eyes that he lost his soul for you, and wanted to live and die with you, but in the end you chose to follow Brother Ryan, and did not fly away with him, later, Brother Ding saved you who were going to hang yourself, in order to fulfill you, risked your life, accompanied you to Chongqing, but you broke Brother Ding's heart for him, and made Brother Ding desperate, now, I have a deep love for you, but you are willing to be married, disappeared for more than seven years, and rejected me thousands of miles away. Ruojun, do you know what you are doing and what you are losing? ”

He turned abruptly and sat up, his dark eyes fixed on her, trying to see into the depths of her heart.

"Ruojun, tell me, if I end up with my departure, will you be sad?"

She looked into his eyes, for a long time, nodded, she knew that she would definitely be sad, Shu Zhi, someone who was so close to her, if he left, she would definitely be sad and sad, but she was not sure if her sadness was because of the loss of a loved one or the loss of a lover.

He pulled her onto the bed, hugged her into his arms, kissed her hair, and sighed, "Okay, okay, I won't force you, I'll move out tomorrow so that I won't harass you anymore." However, you should think carefully about what I said, don't treat me as your brother, I am not your brother, I am the man who loves you. ”

She asked in a daze, "Do you really love me?" ”

"Of course." He wondered if she had such a question, "We have been dependent on each other for so many years, can't you understand the slightest thing?" ”

She raised her head and looked at him seriously, he also looked at her, their eyes were facing each other, they exchanged the emotions in their hearts, her thoughts kept churning, life always had to move forward, Ruikang was already in the past, his marriage was a foregone conclusion, and it was destined that there would be no more stories between them. Especially when she knew about Hu Xiaofen's existence, she was even more discouraged.

I lost Ruian, Ruikang, Ding Xiaohui, do you want to lose Shu Zhi? He may be her last hope in this life.

His eyes are black and shiny, like two brilliant black gems, with thick sword eyebrows, straight nose bridge, and angular and full lips, he is really good-looking, his handsome and wild, a domineering atmosphere, and Ruikang's sunny handsomeness, Ding Xiaohui's calm and elegant beauty is different, his appearance and personality have uninhibited, arrogant, unyielding, and even some savage qualities.

So he will not be as upright and idealistic as Ruikang, nor will he think of Ding Xiaohui's gentle sophistication, if Zhou Ruikang is a volcano and Ding Xiaohui is a wind, then Meng Shuzhi is an out-and-out flood.

She looked at him, a kind of hope rose in her heart, and a trace of expectation ignited in her eyes, after all, people's thirst for life and happiness are endless, Mei Ruojun is not pedantic, she has a positive yearning for life, hesitated for a few minutes, she was shy, hesitant, and said softly: "Wait for you to graduate......"

"Wait until I graduate?" He didn't understand what she was going to say, but he had a vague sense that she wanted to say something important.

Ruojun bit his lower lip, snorted, and said in a very subtle voice: "When you graduate, if you haven't met the girl you like when you fall...... I, we ......"

"How are we?" He asked impatiently.

She raised her eyelashes slightly and said hesitantly, "...... Maybe...... You can ......"

"What can be? Say it quickly, say it quickly. He felt like a prisoner waiting for his sentence to be pronounced, and she was about to die.

“…… Marry me......" After she said these two words, her face was feverish, her cheeks were red, and she lowered her head.

He didn't react for a while, he was stunned for a long time before he understood, and he was overjoyed and straightened her up, hooked her chin with one hand, and let her look at himself: "Ruojun, what did you say?" Say it again. ”

"Don't. I didn't hear it, so I didn't say it. She regretted it a little, tugging at the corner of her clothes, wanting to retract what she had just said, but how could he allow her to take it back, haha laughed: "I heard, I heard." Are you really willing to marry me? His excited arms circled her waist and took her waist into his arms.

She hurriedly pushed him away and explained, "No, I'm talking about two years later, in these two years, you have to study hard and actively find the right girl you like." ”

He thought to himself, this Ruojun is really stupid, with her words, even if he stuffs it into his girl, he won't ask for it, how can he still look for it, but in order to appease her heart, he nodded again and again: "Okay, okay, I promise, I promise, but you must also promise me, don't go back." ”

Her face flushed with shame, she nodded "um", and said, "If you fail an exam, this agreement will be canceled." ”

"Hehe, this doesn't bother me, I have excellent grades this time, you're destined to marry me."

Ruojun was dizzy by him, although she promised to marry him in two years, but she just wanted to take a slow time and let her think about it well, two years, can change many people and many things, maybe he met the woman he likes within two years, maybe he changed his mind within two years, who knows?

"Okay, okay, I have to go down quickly, otherwise Mrs. Chen will be suspicious." She turned around and coiled her hair with ten fingers for combing, inserted the hairpin, and was about to get up, but he pulled it down again.

He doesn't care what Mrs. Chen, Mrs. Li, he is now happy like a bird flying in the blue sky, encircling her from behind.

"But I'm still going to move to school, on the one hand, I want to improve my grades this semester, and on the other hand, I'm here, and I'm definitely going to harass you. You can bear it, I can't help it, I can't get close to you every day, I will suffocate me. So I'd better go. He smiled awkwardly but sweetly and kissed her on the ear and neck.

Ruojun of course knew what he was talking about, and smiled helplessly and shyly, thinking about whether he moved to school, how could he not be almost crazy by him, he almost crossed the thunder pool today, and he didn't know what would happen next time, his encroachment and charm made her uncontrollable, after all, he was already a man, no longer a boy, and it was still necessary to keep a distance.

Nodding, she agreed to him move to the school accommodation, she was now in a mood like the battlefield after the big war, messy, she needed to calm down and think about it.

She walked to the door, just about to open the door, he circled her back again, kissed her, his breath began to anesthetize her again like an anesthetic, she kissed him back like a dizzy, for a long time, he let go of her, smiled affectionately and said: "Ruojun, I love you, remember our two-year covenant." ”

As soon as her mind cleared, she wanted to slap herself twice, feeling that she was really useless.

She looked at him with some emotion, stroked his cheek, and hurried down the attic as if she were running away.

……

Lying on the bed, looking at the sleeping Nian'an, she couldn't help but kiss his little face, buried her face in her son's back, and sniffed the fragrant smell on his body.

Touching his little hand, she thought wildly, this small body, flowing is Ruikang's and her own blood, I don't know why every time she gets close to a man, she feels guilty about Ruikang, as if she is a cheating woman...... It's like this with Ding Xiaohui, and it's still like this with Meng Shuzhi.

seems to have decided that Ruikang is his husband from the bottom of his heart. But in fact, he is not, she must remind herself once again that Zhou Ruikang is a married man, his wife is Cheng Jiaqi, and he has a new love named Hu Xiaofen, and they all gave birth to children for him.

Why can't I accept Meng Shuzhi? Just like back then, he was never able to completely communicate with Ding Xiaohui. She felt that she was hopeless, Ding Xiaohui and Meng Shuzhi were both very good men, which tendon was wrong with her? You have to think about a married man...... I thought about it again and again, and after a while, I fell asleep in a daze.

Within a few days, Shu Zhi moved to school, came back every weekend to help, and spent the rest of his time studying on campus, part-time, he didn't like to be in the limelight like Ruikang, he had friends all over the world, and he didn't like to participate in various club activities, except for playing basketball and a few friends, he had almost no friends, the only thing that was the same as Ruikang was that he was also very popular with girls, and there were really many girls who wrote love letters to him. It's just that he only has Ruojun in his heart, and he doesn't pay attention to those girls at all, and after receiving the love letter, he just glances at it and throws it directly into the trash.

The business of the snack bar is very good, Mrs. Chen and Ruojun are discussing to recruit another helper, but unexpectedly, Cuiliu brought a pair of children to the snack bar to eat, as soon as they heard that they were going to recruit people, they immediately volunteered to join in.

The three women were busy together, and the snack bar became more and more prosperous, and after a while, Zhou Fu, who was idle in the Zhou family, also came to help, responsible for purchasing orders, repairing tables, chairs and benches, and the business was even more prosperous.

Xiao Nian'an is also in the first grade of primary school, watching him walk into school with a small schoolbag, Ruojun feels both relieved and sighs, it seems that he is also old, and the years are quietly spent in every busy morning and dusk......