He Yiyang said: "It's three o'clock at night, lying in bed, and the sound of rain outside the window is still continuous. What a rainy spring this is, the dashing spring rain from the cold of January to February, and even the March day that should have been warm a long time ago, and there is a wet bitterness everywhere, like depressed tears, after a long time, there will be such a feeling of dampness.

?? It was the weather and the middle of the night that moved me so much that I wanted to write this letter. You probably don't know who I am, I'm just a very short passer-by in your life, and I don't even occupy any place, and people will say, "The love that never even holds hands", and that's true.

Therefore, I will not leave my name behind the letter, and if you read it and cannot even remember who I am, I will feel only a moment of speechless misery. If the faith is not enough to convey what I want to say to you, then what about the language! What's more, you and I are separated by several cities and 3 years apart, even if I really want to tell you, I can't talk about it.

?? I am eager to write this letter to you. It's been a long time, but I haven't really started it. Always at night, when I am alone, I have such a longing, and I always suppress it, because I know that I will wake up tomorrow morning. It's another sunny day, and the deep emotion of that night is gone. I will realize that what I wanted to do last night was completely unnecessary, and I can't help but mock myself slightly.

?? Of course, I am also afraid of the heart that cannot be spared. My love for you in the past has made me a joke of the public, and whether writing such a letter to you again will cause unnecessary trouble, especially since my current status is different, these are very troublesome to me.

?? However, I still have an unchanging faith in you, so that I finally put pen to paper to write this letter to you in the middle of this rainy March night. Before I say why I am writing this letter, I will tell you what a significant impact you have had on my past that will not be easily overcome by time.

?? When I met you, I was in Goujiang Town, and for many children, what a bright youth it should be! They love beautiful clothes, wait to go on a date, secretly read love letters or wait for the phone call at home, and then look in the mirror at their glowing face, burnt eyes, or look at themselves in the mirror in a daze, combing their hair a thousand times, but their hearts have already flown back to the countless sweet moments of the past.

?? It is unfortunate that I really know the meaning of these two words, and I have acquired the wisdom that has always been praised by men, so that throughout my youth I have not valued the direct and simple pleasures, but have been obsessed with something deeper, some so-called human spiritual realm.

But I would like to make it clear that I did not mean to do so, but was pushed by an inexplicable force, and I was not happy in myself, and even felt that I could not enjoy such youthful joy.

?? So, while most of the teenagers were busy dating, I was alone as a bystander and hid myself in the endless. Yes, I read all kinds of works, from the works of writers who are respected as masterpieces of world literature here, to all kinds of bestsellers in the market, there is a category of works that still ridiculously move me deeply, bringing out cheap tears and laughter, that is the bestseller of some Chinese and foreign popular writers.

?? In this genre, I see stars and sparks, all the good things that transcend the physical life, in which the purpose and main life of the hero and heroine is love.

What a wonderful thing! Love, especially the love that was strengthened in the face of setbacks and difficulties—the love with its countless hugs, tears, love and hate—stirred my boy's heart. It's just that I never imagined that this kind of love story has unconsciously deposited in my heart and has a huge impact.

?? Jing, can you understand the heart of a teenager who is so polluted by love? You see.

But yes, I and many other men who grew up at the same time were indeed polluted, not only by this kind of love, but also by various other ways of love that were advertised in the media. There is no other reason, in the process of growing up, we usually know about love from reading first, and then have the opportunity to fall in love again, we never have to

When women are together, they naturally cultivate love, and our love is always prematurely decided by the love model described in some words, and then unconsciously implemented in accordance with it. It goes without saying that the direct, natural, and necessary relationship between man and woman is the relationship between man and woman.

It was in this context that I got to know you. What a glorious year it was! Looking back now, I remember a bright autumn day, you stood on the podium in the classroom, and the fluffy golden sunlight served as your background like a curtain, shining on your face. You came with ear posts that year........

I find that you seem to have a clear purpose, and I don't understand what it is, but I can feel that you are very different from us because of it. You are calm, peaceful, and willing to really get to work, unlike our group of friends, who only go from one table tennis table to another after class every day, and it is always just endless conversation.

How I love you with all my heart! You have become the center of my life and my spiritual support. In this way, I follow you, from autumn to midwinter to spring, from the U.S. Information Service to the high schools, and even in the classrooms of middle schools, I will always sit in the back, looking at you in front of you at intervals, and you will never be out of reach......

In my young heart, I was not wary that there would be love, and I indulged myself in being deeply moved by your image, and let myself miss you, and longed to see you. But junior high school life ended later, until the end of the summer vacation, in a twilight autumn season with continuous spring rain.

Then I found that I could no longer see you again after a while, no longer able to hear your slightly low voice singing "Climb the peak and look at my hometown", no longer able to see your depressed and miserable expression, and found that when I could not see you again, the boundless and endless thoughts were surging and could not be discharged, and I realized that you were so deeply in my heart that I could not get rid of it.

That's when I started to feel pain.

I think I'm too inexperienced in love to try my best to forget you in time, instead, I use my youthful care and intelligence to find an opportunity to see you again.

How I regarded marriage as the eternal and only destination of love, without any consideration of the changes in marriage or the love relationship outside of marriage, the only thing I knew at that time was that whether or not you would be willing to repay my love in the future, it was impossible to play the role of a third party.

It was only then that I truly realized how much damage love can cause, especially knowing that love is hopeless, but there is no way to reduce my own emotions in the slightest.