It's really not that easy to stay in someone else's house, and at different times, in the home of different relatives. Even adults need to adapt to changes in their environment. An'an didn't adapt, she was just suffering.

She often fantasizes about having her own home, having a room of her own, it doesn't need to be very big, the morning sun will shine in through the transparent glass, refracted onto the pink cotton quilt on the bed, she is awakened by the light, on a rainy day, the leaves fall all over the windowsill, she opens the window, she can smell the fresh air mixed with the scent of mud and flowers, when it is cold, change the sheets into a blanket, and then put in a warm water bag, put her feet on it, and you can sleep peacefully, without curling up in a ball because of the cold.

When she was four years old, she was most afraid of winter, because her little hands would be covered with red chilblains, which would turn into swollen turnips, and those chilblains would fester, and become disgusting, and itchy to the bones. In the face of them, she had nothing to do.

When she was five years old, because she was going to kindergarten, she boarded at her aunt's house, and Rose, who lived next door, would often come to play with her.

One day, An'an carried a small bench, filled it with water under the faucet with a large round basin, soaked his small schoolbag in it, took a board brush, applied soap, and brushed it vigorously.

Rose looked at her with her big, round, shining eyes, "Enron, how do you wash your schoolbag yourself?" ”

"Yes, I live in someone else's house, so I must wash it myself. Unlike you, you have a mom who can help you. An An hung his head and continued to brush his schoolbag, without looking up, like a little adult who was concentrating on his work. Her small hands are not as big as a brush.

"Then I'll ask my mom to wash it for you next time, okay?" Rose leaned close to An'an's face, waiting for her to answer with an expectant look.

An'an smiled at her, his eyes smiling into the shape of a crooked crescent, and Rose smiled too. On the two small round faces, milky white soap bubbles reflect their innocence.

Although they are often together, Rose likes to play with An'an, but Rose's mother doesn't seem to be happy. Although the neighbors knew that An'an was a good child, at the same time, they also thought that she was a wild child, a wild child that no one wanted, so they looked down on her a little, and no one wanted their children to play with her.

Rose would say to An'an, "My mother won't let me play with you, but it's okay, I won't listen to her!" "Rose is ignorant and innocent. But these words made An An take it to heart, and she knew that she must be more obedient, obedient and sensible, so as not to let others hate her. She doesn't want to make herself a nuisance in the eyes of others!

In the blink of an eye, they all looked like adults!

The school organized a mock test, and An'an's performance improved significantly. The head teacher rearranged the seats according to the ranking of this exam, so An'an separated from Nozomi.

An'an has a new tablemate, and Ximu is back to the time when he was alone.

An'an quickly became familiar with the new tablemate, who would always call An'an for lunch with a few girls, and sometimes call her to the supermarket. So An'an intermittently, sometimes with Nozomi, sometimes with them.

"An'an, let's eat with us at noon today!" Said to An'an at the same table.

"Then I'll have to talk to Himume!"

"You don't need to say hello every time, you're not her appendage."

"It's better to talk about it, so as not to leave her alone, I told her that she should go to Nachen in advance."

In the school cafeteria.

"What did you tell Himuma about her reaction?" Asked at the same table.

"No response!"

"Aren't you unhappy?"

An An looked at her table mate in surprise, wondering how she knew.

"I know it on my knees!" Another girl wearing a purple hairpin said.

"Huh?" An'an didn't understand what she meant.

"You haven't been with her for a long time now, it's better for you to keep your distance from her in the future!" The purple hairpin girl said.

"Why?"

"Ask you at the same table! You know it at the same table. ”

"yes, we didn't mean to speak ill of her behind her back, but she's such a strange person. Actually, we wanted to tell you for a long time, but we weren't very familiar with you at first, and this kind of thing is not easy to talk about. ”

"Strange people?"

"In the past, when she was at the same table and didn't leave, the two of them were inseparable, as good as one person, but then she had a good relationship with the other girls in our class at the same table, and she got angry and cried because of this incident."

"yes, yes, I remember. Just because she went to dinner with others at the same table and didn't call her, she cried and looked very hurt. How so? I feel that if you have a good relationship with her, you can only be good with her alone, and if you are good with other people, it will be as if you are sorry for her. ”

"Won't it?" Even if they didn't say it, in fact, An'an had already felt it, every time she ate with her table mate and didn't spend time with Nozomi, Nozomi always looked unhappy, and would say something strange, such as "You're familiar with them now, and I don't need it at the same table" or something like that. But she didn't think much of it.

"I don't kid you." The tablemate said: "To give an inappropriate example, it's like a boyfriend and girlfriend, and no one else can interfere." This is how her table mates were scared away by her before. ”

"Scared away by her?"

"Yes, it's such a good relationship, but after the people left, they never contacted her again, isn't it scared away? She wrote to her family and did not reply. ”

An An walked out of the cafeteria after eating with some anxiety, and when she returned to the classroom, she saw Ximu pulling her face, and she didn't go forward to look for her, and went straight back to her seat.

"How's the food in the cafeteria today?" Nozomi asked.

An Shore quickly turned his head and replied, "It's okay!" Have you eaten? ”

"I didn't eat it! Can't eat! ”

"Huh? I didn't go to eat it! ”

"I'm alone, how do you let me eat?"

An An suddenly felt that she really shouldn't ask her such a question, and added, "You can call Naichen!" They called me along, and I was too embarrassed to refuse! ”

"So you're going to leave me?"

An An was really taken aback by her words, and couldn't help sweating in his heart, and he didn't know how to answer her words.

"You seem to have changed, weren't we pretty good before? As soon as the position changes, you ignore me! ”

"I didn't! They are all classmates in the same class, and it doesn't mean that they are good with anyone and who is bad. Don't overthink it. ”

Ximu was silent and did not speak, and An'an also turned to do his own thing.