The two lingered on affection for a while before getting up and freshening up, Ruikang pulled Ruojun through the small door to his room, and said, "They will lock the door here at night to prevent me from escaping." And this little door can only be opened from your side. You now understand how well-intentioned Ziyan is. ”

Ruojun nodded, but he always felt very uneasy in his heart, especially the helpless look on Xu Ziyan's face last night, and the words before leading away, which made Ruojun feel a little puzzled.

"So what are we going to do now?"

Ruikang looked at his watch, it was almost nine o'clock, and said, "I think Ziyan will come over soon." I have to talk to him about how to take your mother and son away? You'll need documents. ”

There was a knock on the door, and Ruikang kissed Ruojun's hand, telling her to go back to room 205 first, and close the small door.

Xu Ziyan walked in, whispered a few words to the two guards behind him, then closed the door, pulled Ruikang to the window, and said, "Ruikang, I'll take you to breakfast later, and then take you back to Zhou's house to have a look." ”

"That Ruojun ......" He didn't want to be separated from Ruojun for a moment.

"Ruojun goes back first, and I'll send her back in the evening."

"Why is that?" Ruikang's eyes widened and he didn't understand: "If you are my wife, we are just going through the registration procedures, why do you want to come at night and leave during the day, as if cheating?" ”

"If you don't want their mother and son to be in trouble after you're gone, that's the only way to go." Xu Ziyan lit a cigarette and said apologetically.

"No, no, Ziyan, I won't leave alone, I'm going to take their mother and son together." Ruikang said urgently.

Xu Ziyan was silent, just looked at him quietly, the eyes behind the glasses that were once full of wisdom are now full of helplessness and embarrassment.

Ruikang chuckled in his heart, and a haze hung over his heart: "Ziyan, what's wrong?" Any questions? ”

"You know the current environment, the policy has been tightened, if you have no relatives in Hong Kong, she can't apply to Hong Kong, you two don't have legal marriage procedures, Ruikang, even if you have money, it is difficult to do it in China at this stage."

"Ziyan, can't you help it?" Ruikang frowned, grabbed Xu Ziyan's arm firmly and asked.

"If I had a way, wouldn't I help you?" Xu Ziyan also frowned: "It's really a creation to make people, if it was two years earlier, the port would still be relatively relaxed, and now it ...... Cough...... You can come back for seven days this time, and it is also because of the secret instructions of the nobles, otherwise it will be absolutely difficult for me to do it alone. ”

Ruikang almost sat down in his chair, looked at the wall in a daze, and said indifferently: "You mean, in six days, I will leave alone and be separated from Ruojun's mother and son again?" When he said this, his eyes were red.

Ziyan sighed and said, "Ruikang, I'm sorry...... Unless smuggling ......"

"No, I know how many people died on that road, and I can't let them risk that. I'd rather never see them in this life, and I want them to live in peace. He fisted his hands together.

Xu Ziyan pressed his shoulder and spit out a puff of smoke rings.

Ruikang suddenly raised his head, and said with a glimmer of hope in his desperate eyes, "What if I'm willing to go to jail?" ”

"What did you say?" Xu Ziyan's eyes widened and he looked at him in surprise, he couldn't believe his ears at all.

"If I'm in jail, then at least Ruojun can come and visit me, can't you?"

"You're crazy!"

"I'm crazy, Ziyan, I can't stand it six days later, I'm going to be separated from their mother and son forever, these years, my life is worse than death, no amount of wealth can make me happy......"

"Ruikang, Ruikang, calm down, don't get so excited."

"I can't calm down, I can't be excited, I don't understand, what the hell am I doing wrong? Why did it come to this point? ”

"It's not that you did anything wrong, it's that we're catching up with an era of change, a great wave of history, and a lot of people will be drowned by the wave."

Zhou Ruikang looked up to the sky and sighed, closed his eyes, and shook his head helplessly in pain, with tears shining in the corners of his eyes.

Xu Ziyan hurriedly comforted him and said, "I will continue to think of a way." Don't despair, cherish these six days first. I'll pick up Nian An tonight. Let your family have a good reunion, here you can rest assured, except that you cannot move freely, no one will disturb you. I'll arrange everything. ”

Seeing that Ruikang was so depressed, Xu Ziyan knew that he was not in the mood to go back to the Zhou family's mansion at all, so he asked someone to send breakfast for two to the house and let him eat it with Ruojun.

After Xu Ziyan left, Ruikang knocked on the small door twice, Ruojun opened the door, and he was already in tears, lowering his head and biting his nails, his whole body kept trembling,

She had already heard the conversation between Ruikang and Ziyan, and the two of them were separated by the door frame, and they already had a feeling of being blocked from the end of the world.

He pulled her to the window and hugged her tightly, he didn't know what to do? No matter how much love, no matter how much lovesickness, no matter how much firmness, you can't resist the constraints of the environment and the tricks of fate.

He wasn't without courage, and she wasn't without confidence, just as they had tried all sorts of ways to fight against fate, but now, they were being detained and isolated by a more powerful reality.

Neither of them was in the mood to eat breakfast, they just hugged each other tightly, full of love, lovesickness, but relatively speechless.

She raised her head, kissed his lips, held his face, gently twisted his frowning eyebrows with her fingers, squeezed out a smile and said, "We have six days left, I want to be happy with you." ”

His brow furrowed even tighter, and he tried not to let the tears fall, but a tear still fell into her eyes. He kissed her on the forehead, sad and speechless.

……

So they didn't go anywhere, they stayed in the room of the guest house, snuggled up to each other on the bed, feeling each other's body temperature and breath, trying to keep each other's smell in their minds.

They both lay down from morning to evening, looking at the sunset outside the window, and both of them lamented that the day was about to pass.

Ruojun looked at the sunset, snuggled up to Ruikang's chest, and smiled, "I want to cook for you." I know you love to eat 'Xiangshan Xiaocui'. ”

He smiled bitterly, just hugged her, kissed her forehead, and touched her hands that were not tender but delicate.

"I want to give you another baby. Have a girl, do you like it? ”

She raised her eyelashes to look at him, and he squeezed out a heartbroken smile: "Of course I like it." After a pause, he frowned and said, "No, don't." ”

"You don't like it?"

His heart was heartbroken, and he shook his head hurriedly: "I am an incompetent father, Dingbang, Dingguo, Nian'an, I have not fulfilled my father's responsibilities for a day, I don't want to create a child without a father." I don't want to. ”

She was also silent, Nian'an called other people's fathers everywhere when she was a child, and pestered herself to ask where her father was, which made her heart like a needle prick, yes, he will leave in six days, and this walk may be a lifetime, maybe there can be correspondence between them, but the role of father cannot be replaced by letters.

When she thought of their separation in six days, she was better off than dead, and perhaps it would be better for her to die in his arms at this moment.

He hugged her tight.

After a while, Xu Ziyan came with Xiao Nian'an and food, and he was also very sad to see Ruikang and Ruojun's sad and painful appearance, but he also had a family, and it was already a bold act to escort Ruikang back to China this time, and he didn't know that his behavior this time had laid the groundwork for him more than ten years later, in that crazy movement.

At the small round table, the three of them finally sat down to eat together for the first time, Ruojun and Ruikang talked to their son as happily as possible, and Nian An seemed to see the landslide and irrepressible pain in the eyes of his parents, and just ate quietly.

Ruikang kept picking up vegetables for Nian'an, and smiled bitterly: "Eat more, you can grow up quickly, and protect your mother when you grow up." ”

Nian An nodded, silently swallowing his meal.

After eating, Ruikang accompanied Nian'an to sit at the desk to write his homework, seeing Nian'an's serious appearance, Ruikang was sour and painful, he wanted to be able to sit at the desk with his son every day and watch him do his homework, watching him grow up, he touched his soft and fluffy hair and kissed him.

Nian An turned his head to look at this man who was both strange and inexplicably familiar, and was silent for a long time.

After finishing his homework, Ruikang took Nian'an to take a bath, this was the first time he bathed his child, in fact, Nian'an would have bathed himself a long time ago, but he did not refuse Ruikang's clumsy bathing of himself, but the father and son have not spoken, Ruikang enjoyed, cherished this rare time, washed him with a smile, dried his hair and put on clothes.

When the two walked out of the bathroom, Ruikang himself was soaking wet. Xiao Nian'an took Ruikang's hand, lowered his head, and suddenly said, "You will catch a cold." ”

Ruikang's heart was shocked, although it was just a simple word of concern, but it moved him, he clenched Nian'an's little hand, and said: "Thank you Nian'an for your concern, Daddy will be careful." ”

Nian An also clenched some Ruikang's hand.

……

A family of three lay on the bed, Nian An touched the scar on Ruikang's forearm and asked him to tell a story. In fact, Ruikang doesn't like to recall that cruel and bloody history, although it is a tragic past, it is also a dark and ugly memory.

Shells, bombardments, massacres, enemies, desperate battles...... Ruikang slowly told the origin of the scar, patting Nian'an gently with one hand and holding Ruojun's hand with the other.

This warm picture is a picture that Ruojun has imagined thousands of times in his dream, and now it has come true, but he didn't expect that behind the happiness is the upcoming farewell.

Nian An fell asleep slowly, and Ruikang carefully pinched the quilt for him, kissing his little face again and again.

When Nian'an fell asleep, Ruikang pulled Ruojun to the small room and hugged her to look at the night outside the window.

"Ruojun, thank you for giving me such a smart and lovely child." He kissed her ear.

She smiled shallowly: "Tomorrow, you can go back to Zhou's house and have a look, after all, it is your home." Besides, Zhou Fu and Cuiliu will be very happy if they see you come back. ”

"I want to take you and Nian An back together."

Ruojun shook his head and said, "I don't have the face to go back to Zhou's house, and Nian'an is also unpopular......

"What nonsense are you talking about? Why don't you have the face to go back? Do you mean it's a shame to be with me? Besides, Nian'an is my son and the eldest grandson of the Zhou family, how can he not be popular? ”

Ruojun was a little confused: "Nian'an is the eldest grandson of the Zhou family?" What about Dingbang? ”

Ruikang sighed and shook his head: "Dingbang is not my own, it was adopted by me and Jiaqi, when I divorced, Jiaqi asked for custody of Dingbang, and I owe a lot of that child, but I can't and can't remedy it." ”

Ruojun listened in amazement as he told him the story of the past, the battle, Jiaqi's bravery, Jiaqi's infatuation, and Jiaqi's sacrifice.

"I don't want to hide anything from you anymore, because every time I hide it, it will cause more misunderstandings. Ruojun, I married Jiaqi, firstly, because I didn't know what happened in Beiping at that time, and secondly, Jiaqi did have a deep love for me, and she suffered a lot in order to follow me, and finally unfortunately suffered such a serious injury on the battlefield, I can't help but marry her, otherwise my conscience can't get by. ”

Ruikang sighed and shook his head: "At that time, I didn't know that marriage could not be maintained by pity and guilt, especially I have never forgotten your oath in my heart, I have lived a very hard life after marriage, carefully maintaining the harmony on the surface, but I am unhappy in my heart, I always think of you." In fact, Jiaqi has always known that she has been suffering silently. Our marriage is one acting, the other is suffering. So when I knew you had come to Chongqing, I couldn't help but look for you. ”

Ruikang looked down at Ruojun and said, "It's good that you came to Chongqing, otherwise how could we have such a cute child as Nian'an." ”

Ruojun hugged his back tightly: "Poor Jiaqi, poor you, poor us." ”

"Jiaqi's suffering is me, and my marriage to her, now that she has let go of all this, I believe she will live well. But our suffering is not over. Ruikang raised his fist in painful irritation and slammed it against the wall.

The two looked out the window at the night and were silent.

//

Although Xu Ziyan arranged it very well, he returned to the Zhou family's mansion, reunited with a group of classmates such as Jiawei, Yafen, and 'Elephant', and even arranged a quiet trip back to the campus of Peking University, but all the activities that should have been very touching and exciting made Ruikang feel sad, yes, sad, in addition to sadness, it is still sad.

These once had good things will come to an abrupt end in a few days, home, campus, friends, lovers, children, he can't take them away, he will come back alone, and he will leave alone. All that can be taken away is more, deeper, heavier care and longing. The frustration prevents him from opening up to enjoy the scenery and talking freely with his friends, and it is true that many things have changed, and it seems that they will never change back, such as his state of mind.

Ruojun took advantage of Ruikang's party with friends, returned to the store, made a lot of "plum blossom cakes" and brought them back to the guest house, wanting Ruikang to bring them back to the UK.

Although Ruikang was very afraid that Ruojun would get pregnant again and had been restrained, but the woman he loved was in his arms, and the two went on a skin-to-skin blind date every night, Ruojun was very emotional in his arms, and took the initiative to kiss him and show his love, how did he resist.

"Ruojun, you're tempting me."

"Yes. You don't like it? ”

"What if you have it again?"

"I'll tell you."

In the dark, she didn't answer the question, and in the moonlight he saw her eyes flowing, her red lips dripping, and her breasts undulating, but he still surrendered, because he wanted her so madly in his heart, the more he restrained him, the more he wanted, reason was too weak compared to love, and the closer they got to the day of separation, the more they wanted to have each other.