"I'll leave first. Go to sleep, I'll come back tomorrow. He took her cheek, kissed her deeply on the lips, and imprinted another kiss on her forehead, and turned to twist the doorknob.

"Ruikang!" She called out to him, and he turned to look at her.

She didn't know when her eyes were filled with tears, and she said tremblingly, "Stay." ”

He looked at her in shock, stunned and motionless, his eyes were round, and his brain took a while to react, he turned back, his mood was agitated, he raised her chin, looked at her seriously, and said, "Ruojun, do you know what you're talking about?" ”

She nodded, the tears had already fallen, but she didn't know why she was crying, maybe it was excitement, maybe it was fear, maybe it was more contradiction, but she couldn't let him wander the dark and cold streets for two days in the morning, she loved him, she couldn't be so ruthless.

She didn't say anything more, gently took off his coat, hung it up again, took his hand to the bed, pursed her lips tightly, crouched down, untied his shoelaces, and took off his leather shoes.

Then he began to unbutton his tunic with trembling hands, and he looked at her stupidly in the dim light, his mind couldn't turn at all, what was she doing? What is she going to do? He didn't understand it at all, but he didn't want her to stop. So I could only sit there stunned, at her mercy.

She took off his tunic, took a breath, her hands trembled even more, her face was as red as a blooming red plum blossom, she squatted down, looked at his belt, as if looking at a poisonous snake, and finally mustered up the courage to touch his belt, gently opened the belt buckle, and pulled the belt out.

She blushed, raised her eyes stupidly, her eyes flowed, she looked at him shyly, and stammered for a long time, "I...... I...... Not sure what to do next? ”

He really couldn't cry or laugh, pulled her up, sat beside him, gently held her hot face, and asked, "Tell me first, what do you want to do?" ”

"I, I thought, we can ...... Sleep in this bed together. She looked at him a little dumbfounded.

He gently covered his mouth, afraid that he would laugh out loud, and said, "Well, I see. Let me do it myself. You go and change your clothes, too. Isn't it uncomfortable to dress like this? ”

After that, he stepped aside, took off his trousers and got into the bed, turned off the light, and said in the dark, "Go to bed quickly, or it will be dawn." ”

Ruojun nervously slowly took off her coat and long skirt, and also got into the quilt.

In the small attic, even the sound of dripping water in the kitchen downstairs can be heard so clearly, and even the snoring of the landlord Mr. Chen can be faintly heard, but only the slightest movement of the people around him can be heard.

The two of them were back to back, their whole bodies stiff, for fear of touching each other a little, their hearts were nervous, excited, happy, and afraid, although they were exhausted, but both of them stared straight ahead of the black hole. I don't know how long the stalemate lasted, but finally exhaustion overcame everything, and the two fell asleep.

//

The sunlight penetrated into the small attic through the beautiful goose-yellow floral curtains, and the two woke up from their sleep dimly, surprised to find that they were hugging each other, the feeling was warm and comfortable, hazy, they enjoyed the aroma and body temperature of the opposite sex on each other's bodies, what could be better than hugging their lover to wake up in the cold morning?

Their consciousness had slowly awakened, but they could no longer resist each other's charm and primal desire, his body had released a strong signal, and she hugged him tightly, kissing him lightly on the chest, her eyes blurred.

"Ruojun, if you are like this, I won't be able to stand it." He whispered in her ear, kissing her.

"Why?" She was silly and greedy for his warmth.

"Because I'm a man, I want to possess the woman I love." He blushed, reached out to wrap his hand around her waist, pressed against himself with a little force, her face turned red, her eyes widened and she looked at him curiously, and her chest was filled with emotion and desire.

"Tell me, Ruojun, would you like to? Would you like to be my woman? I don't want you to regret yourself, blame, pain, guilt. ”

"I ......" her flushed face, looking at his beautiful and handsome face, the straight nose bridge, thick eyebrows, sexy and slightly upturned corners of the mouth, shy speechless.

He smiled, looked at his watch, shook his head, sighed and said, "I had an important appointment with the professor this morning, and then there was also a party in the Literature Club, and I have to rush back to school now, and it will be an hour on the way." Baby Ruojun, you have a whole day to think about, tell me the answer tonight. ”

He turned over and got up, quickly cleaned himself up, kissed Ruojun's cheek twice, and hurriedly walked out, downstairs, Mrs. Chen had just opened, and when she saw him, she came down from upstairs, a little surprised, with a hint of meaning in the corner of her eyes, and greeted Ruikang with a smile. Ruikang ignored her strange eyes, he was in a good mood, unlocked the bicycle, hummed a little song, and rode away.

//

Turning points in life are often caused by unexpected events. No one could have imagined that this beautiful cold morning would turn out to be the beginning of a tragedy.

Mei Ruojun sat there embroidering all morning, her heart kept surging with bursts of love, oh, they finally shared the same bed, she was excited and conflicted, she used to be infatuated with his appearance, his enthusiasm, his integrity, now she began to be interested in his body, she suddenly remembered that a long time ago, Ruoli once said: If you love someone, you will want to get his all, his attention, his heart, his soul, and his body.

Ruojun stopped the needle and thread in her hand, her eyes stayed on the wall in a daze, Ruoli was right, she had gone through so many things, and escaped round and round, maybe she should face her true self in her heart, she admitted that she wanted to get all of him, but how could she not take the status of Ryan's wife to be married to Ruikang, she couldn't, she couldn't, she frowned, sighed, and thought of Ryan, and there was a heart-wrenching pain from the depths of her heart, Ryan, Ryan, she found that she missed him very much, her husband, how is he now? He must be very sad and painful, will he relapse from his old illness? Ah, his elopement with Ruikang must have hurt him deeply, and he will never be able to raise his head in the Zhou family again.

How sinful, superficial, unruly, selfish, cruel he is. She remembered Ryan's swaying expression when he painted, remembered the romance of his flowers and poems every day, remembered his deep affection, her nose was sore, her eyes were moist, and Ruikang's fiery enthusiasm was different, Ryan's love was like water, trickling, silently moistening her heart, how dull she was, it turned out, it turned out, it turned out, he had already quietly entered her heart.

The more she thought about it, the more irritable she felt, but Ruikang's words kept ringing in her ears: "...... Ruojun, you can't give up on me again this time, you can't be like the time when the temple was broken, otherwise I will really go crazy, and I will marry ten women and come back to anger you. ”

Yes, she couldn't be rocking anymore, or the three of them would be rolling in the maelstrom forever, she shook her head, wiped the tears from her eyes, and forced herself not to miss Ryan anymore. Now that he and Ruikang have made up their minds in this life and are intimate, they can't be half-hearted. Ruikang, Ruikang, she thought of his handsome appearance and enthusiastic smile, and she smiled unconsciously, and could only bury her feelings for Ryan deeply.

Seeing that it was almost lunchtime, Ruojun got up and prepared to go downstairs to the kitchen to prepare the meal. I straightened my sore back, rubbed my eyes, put down the embroidery bandage, and as soon as I stood up, I heard the creaking of the small wooden staircase, and someone was walking up the stairs.

This footstep is by no means Ruikang's, nor is it the smug Mrs. Chen's, this footstep is slow and steady, Mei Ruojun's heart is in her throat.

"Tuk Tuk" knocked on the door three times without hurry, but for some reason it seemed to knock on Ruojun's head, she subconsciously had a bad premonition, and asked in her mouth: "Who?" ”

The person outside the door didn't answer, "Tuk Tuk" knocked three more times, Ruojun felt that the situation was not good, but there was no way, so he had to be bold, stepped forward, and opened the door a crack.

Through the crack in the door, she saw the man outside the door, and the man's eyes were full of anger, full of grief, full of sorrow.

Mei Ruojun let go of her hands holding the door panel, stepped back again and again, knocked down the corner of the table, supported the table with one hand, her face turned white, as if she had seen a ghost, and shouted in horror from her throat: "Mother! ”

Mrs. Zhou pushed open the door with a complicated expression, walked in step by step, locked the door with her backhand, stood at the door for a long time, and kept looking at the scene and object in this small attic, which was completely contrary to Ruojun's conjecture, Mrs. Zhou did not accuse her of anger and viciousness, but took out a handkerchief and bowed her head and sobbed, she looked very sad, sad, very painful, completely without the arrogance of the past, and without the majesty of her mother-in-law, she seemed to be just a mother who was worried about her children and hurt.

"You and Ruikang...... Are you okay? Mrs. Zhou asked in a choked voice.

Mei Ruojun's body trembled uncontrollably, and she didn't know how to answer, she once sent someone to monitor her, once punished her for copying scriptures every day, once ordered her to die, and once used family law to beat her to death...... All kinds of antecedents made Ruojun have an instinctive fear of her.

"I'm sure you're doing a great ...... Okay" Mrs. Zhou looked around the small attic again, although it was shabby and narrow, but it was very warm and neat, her eyes swept to the hanging coat hook on the wall with Ruikang's scarf, and her heart could not tell the taste.

Mrs. Zhou took two steps, wiped her tears with a handkerchief, looked at Mei Ruojun sadly and said, "Ruojun, I came today to beg you to go back and see Ruian." ”

Ruojun was taken aback by her humble posture, Mrs. Zhou was begging herself, she didn't get angry, she didn't scold herself, but begged herself, she was stunned, and said sneeringly for a long time: "What's wrong with Ryan?" ”

Mrs. Zhou was even more sad and cried, Ruojun hurriedly went up to support her and let her sit down, she cried so painfully, so broken, even Mei Ruojun wanted to cry.

"Mother, don't cry, tell me, what's wrong with Ryan?"