She was afraid that after leaving, she would not be able to find her original way.

So I don't want to leave, even if I am cold and hungry, what Fang Chuchu is good at is to endure the cold and hunger. In that moment of torture, Fang Chuchu thought about Lin Sen's words last night. The same torture as hunger and cold is that the person you love loves you and you can't respond. However, Fang Chuchu knows one thing, that is, she really loves her, and she always has been.

His consciousness entered a trance again, and Fang Chuchu could no longer tell whether he was frozen like this, starved like this, or had an onset of illness. She pulled the medicine jar out of her bag, and she chose that she was sick.

"Miss?" At this time, someone called her.

Fang Chuchu raised her head, a girl, for a moment she felt that she had found a mistake, and when she didn't speak, the girl helped her up, "Are you waiting for us to open the door?" Fang Chuchu nodded, poured the Chinese medicine back into the bottle, and then stuffed it back into the bag, "Yes!" She replied hurriedly, and then quickly added, "I used to come here a lot, so I like it a lot." ”

"Really?" The girl's eyes were sparkling as she looked at her, looking very happy, "Then I may not have seen you, I've only been here for a month." The big lock was removed, and the girl pushed open the glass door, leaning sideways to invite Fang Chuchu in, "Come in and warm up." "It's really cold, Fang Chuchu walked in with small steps while stomping his feet." Please feel free to find a spot and I'll go open the curtains. ”

As soon as the cloth curtain was opened, the sun immediately shone in, and the café immediately lit up, Fang Chuchu took a general look, and found a place near the window to sit down. This café is the same as most cafes, with dark gray tones, coffee color scrambled, Nordic decoration, and exquisite furniture. The difference is that there are many plants in it, so there are a few bright light greens or dark greens in the dark colors, which are particularly vibrant.

"What do you need?" Handing over the menu and taking out the notebook, the girl changed out of her previous outfit, and when she reappeared, she had already changed into a beautiful uniform, tilting her head and asking her. "Toast with tomato sauce, black coffee without sugar." Fang Chuchu blurted out and did not open the menu. Sure enough, it's a regular customer, the girl thought to herself, but she still has to ask, "Do you really want to add sugar?" She wrinkled her nose, "Because it's really bitter!" Fang Chuchu shook his head gently.

The girl turned to leave, and she immediately thought of something, "Is your boss coming today?" ”

"The boss comes every day," she looked up at the clock on the wall, "look at the time, she'll be there soon." Turning around, she smiled at Fang Chuchu: "Don't worry, when the boss arrives, I will say that you are here as soon as the boss arrives." "No!" Fang Chuchu hurriedly refused, the girl didn't understand a little, Fang Chuchu smiled and said, "Don't bother you, I'll greet her myself." Also, can you pour me a cup of hot water? ”

"Absolutely."

When the hot water was served, the girl told Fang Chuchu intimately, "Because it just opened today, our coffee is freshly ground, and it will take some time, aren't you in a hurry?" Shaking his head, Fang Chuchu's hands placed on both sides of the water glass, "It's okay, I'm not in a hurry." ”

When the girl left, Fang Chuchu took out the medicine jar from the bag again, then poured the pills into the palm of his hand, took a sip of water first, tested the temperature, it was a little hot, took out the spoon and shook it, felt that it was almost over, raised his hand and pushed the medicine in the palm of his hand into his mouth. Suddenly, someone grabbed his wrist and pressed it down little by little. Fang Chuchu looked up, it was her mother Chu Yuan.

"If you don't eat breakfast and drink medicine, when will you be able to change this problem?" As the woman spoke, she picked up the pills one by one from Fang Chuchu's hand and put them on the table with a paper towel. "Wait a minute, I'm drinking the medicine." After the woman said this, she turned back to her waiter and shouted, "Ah Le, bring me the toast from the crisper box last night." ”

Fang Chuchu wasn't surprised that the other party would do this, she just wondered how the other party knew that she hadn't eaten breakfast. The girl named Ah Le served the toast and was very happy to see the woman, "Boss, you came in time, I saw that the clock turned to the word '9', then I guess you are almost coming, it is really good." Looking at Fang Chuchu, she smiled again, "Boss, you know this beauty!" You don't know, she came before me today. ”

Chu Yuan didn't want her to stay here and talk about things, so she looked up and said to her, "You go and get busy first, I'll take care of this guest." Ah Le knew that he was talkative, so he quickly covered his mouth, bent over, and escaped.

Seeing that the people were leaving, Fang Chuchu said, "It's not too early, it's just a little earlier than her." She had a hard mouth. The toast was handed over, but she hesitated, "How do you know I didn't have breakfast?" "This question is difficult for Chu Yuan, she didn't really deduce whether she ate or not, but she felt that she didn't eat it, but she didn't expect it to be true." Haven't you always disliked breakfast? She put the toast back on the plate, pushed it to the other person, and said with her head down.

"I've changed." Fang Chuchu said softly, picked up the toast on the plate, and took the first bite. "If you want to change, the most important thing you should change is the habit of taking medicine on an empty stomach." Chu Yuan raised her head at this time and looked at her emaciated daughter, "Food and medicine are poisonous, if you take medicine on an empty stomach, it will be even more poisonous, and if you are not sick, you will get sick." The more she spoke, the more stern she became, probably realizing it, and quickly stopped, and finally she said, "You have to think about yourself." ”

Fang Chuchu kept lowering her head and nibbling on toast, and when she heard her mother's anxious and distressed words, she tried to hold back her tears. "I know." Her faint three words, just like her usual practice. Then both fell silent.

Chu Yuan sat opposite, and after watching her eat a few slices of toast quietly, she finally asked, "How are you doing?" Fang Chuchu swept the breadcrumbs off his mouth, "It's okay." ”

"What else could it be?" Chu Yuan asked.

Fang Chuchu knew that her mother would never be gentle, especially to her. The once familiar feeling came back, but without the previous suppression, Fang Chuchu actually felt kind. "Drink the medicine as usual, eat as usual, sleep still not too much, still afraid of the cold, and still don't like to talk to strangers......" The more he said the end, the quieter the voice became until the other party couldn't hear it. Chu Yuan couldn't help but ask, "What else?" ”

"And ...... Also, my job is gone. Fang Chuchu raised his head and looked at his mother seriously. She has changed a lot, she is radiant and gentle, and you can't tell at all that she has been tormented by depression. But now that she can come out, why can't she, why is she still trapped in the whirlpool of mental vulnerability.

Chu Yuan stretched out his hand and grabbed Fang Chuchu's hand, wanting to comfort him, but he was startled, "Why is it so cold?" Fang Chuchu looked down at the hand being held and did not speak. I don't know how to protect myself at all, and on such a cold day, don't you know how to wear more? Chu Yuan said eagerly, it seemed that he was angry. Get up, I don't know what to do with her. Fang Chuchu looked up to find her direction, but saw Ah Le coming over with a dinner plate.

"It's been a long wait." She said as she took out coffee and toast for Fang Chuchu. Fang Chuchu had just finished eating toast, and he was really not very hungry at the moment, at least he couldn't eat this toast. She was about to explain to Ah Le that she should stop baking bread. Ah Le approached her and whispered, "You must be very familiar with the boss, I've never seen the boss like this, you shouldn't be ......?"

"Ah Le!" Chu Yuan suddenly appeared, Ah Le immediately shut up and stood aside quietly, "The coffee machine wasn't washed yesterday, go wash that one." "Oh!" Ah Le reluctantly agreed and left slowly. As soon as Fang Chuchu saw Chu Yuan, he knew that the other party was taking something warm for himself.

"I don't need to." Before she could say this, the hand warmer was thrown on her lap, and a woolen scarf was draped over her shoulder. "It's very warm, I specially fought for myself for the winter." Chu Yuan sat down and said to her. Fang Chuchu lowered his head and rubbed the woolen scarf on his shoulder, which was soft and warm. "You're going to fight this again?" She blurted out. Every winter, when other classmates would have a sweater made by his mother herself, Fang Chuchu could only wear the broad-sided coat he bought and shuttle through the cold wind.

"What I learned last year is very simple, and you can learn it too." Chu Yuan told her.

Fang Chuchu raised his head, glanced at her, and nodded again, indicating that he might try. "Chu Chu," her mother called to her. Fang Chuchu raised his eyes and focused. "It's fine." Her gentle exhalation was warm and soft, almost like a woolen scarf on her body. "Hmm." Fang Chuchu uttered a syllable, because her nose was blocked, and she lost her voice a little, but she could roughly hear what she was answering - she replied: I know~

For many years, Fang Chuchu has been looking forward to it, whenever he is struggling and in shackles, some people can tell him that he is fine. In this way, she will not be bothered about unnecessary things, she will not have to be so unhappy, and she will not have to torture herself so much.

Chu Yuan noticed Fang Chuchu's strange appearance and did not speak. When she just came over and passed the bar, she brought a sugar cube, and at this moment she put the sugar cube into Fang Chuchu's coffee, stirring it slowly until there was no trace of the sugar cube, and then handed the whole cup of coffee over.

"I know you like to drink black coffee, but you have to swallow the medicine later, it's too bitter to drink at this time, and it's miserable to wait a while. Drink something sweet, and it's not so bitter. Chu Yuan said to her gently, Fang Chuchu looked at her for a long time, even if the other party was not talking, he still looked at her. Chu Yuan couldn't resist Fang Chuchu's abnormality, and nodded her chin, "The coffee is going to be cold." Don't drink cold in winter. ”

Fang Chuchu picked up the porcelain cup and drank it in one go, this was the best black coffee she had ever drunk.

is also at this time, she seems to be able to feel the happiness of "having a mother is like a treasure" in the lyrics. In the past, at least in Fang Chuchu's impression, Chu Yuan was her mother, but she didn't seem to have given her anything but life. Later, she committed suicide, fell ill, and was cured, and Fang Chuchu became more and more disgusted with her mother's identity. But at that moment just now, Fang Chuchu suddenly realized what a warm and powerful word mother was.

"Tell me, why don't you have a job?" The mother suddenly became serious, and Fang Chuchu was so frightened that she immediately sat upright. "I quit myself." "Why resign?" "I don't want to do it anymore." "Why don't you want to do it?" Fang Chuchu looked at his mother in a daze, wondering if it was all fake just now? "Why are you asking so carefully?" "Shouldn't I know more about my mother, my mother?"

"Jingle bell!" The wind chimes rang at the door, Fang Chuchu watched the guests walk in, and immediately said to his mother, "Your guests are here, aren't you going to greet them?" Chu Yuan knew what she was thinking, so she didn't walk away, "Ah Le will go, otherwise what do you think I invited her for?" ”

Fang Chuchu smiled, she didn't expect her mother to speak to her like this one day. "You just hire a waiter, presumably business is not good, right?" Chu Yuan was also stunned, she didn't expect her daughter to joke with herself like this one day, "That's because I don't want to serve them." There are many guests, if they don't want to wait, just leave, I welcome. ”