242 In My Name (Final)
Better can't be better.
In fact, Jiang Jin felt that his state was getting worse and worse, and he often felt out of breath these days.
However, there was no need to tell Mo Yao about this, so she smiled and replied indifferently: "It's much better." ”
After saying this, as if he was trying to slap his face, Jiang Jin suddenly felt an itch in his throat.
She subconsciously covered her mouth and coughed lightly, and when she removed her hand, she found that her palm was stained with blood.
Jiang Jin didn't care, she picked up the handkerchief on the side and wiped it, her expression was very calm throughout the whole process, as if hemoptysis was already a commonplace thing for her.
Mo Yao's eyes couldn't help but darken as he watched her finish all this.
He didn't know that she was so sick now......
Mo Yao lowered his eyebrows, and his mood was extremely complicated for a while.
It was also at this time that he first experienced what helplessness is.
It turns out that even if you become an emperor, you will still encounter many helpless things.
After a while, he raised his head, his lips moved several times, but he didn't say a word, just stood a few steps away from Jiang Jin, looking at Jiang Jin who was lying on the bed with an indifferent face, and his mind changed.
Jiang Jin didn't know the entanglements and troubles in Mo Yao's heart.
After cleaning himself up, she saw that he still didn't want to speak, so she took the initiative to ask: "The emperor came here today to discuss with me about choosing a concubine?" ”
Jiang Jin asked casually, as if he was just talking to someone about today's weather.
Regarding the matter of choosing a concubine, Mo Yao himself has no ideas, and even according to his own ideas, he is not willing to bring those inexplicable women into his harem at all.
But he didn't want to, but he couldn't stand the group of courtiers who were always anxious for him, and they were urged again and again.
And in order to make him agree to fill the harem, several ministers found a way to ask Jiang Jin to come and ask her to help persuade Mo Yao to be included in the newcomer, so this is Jiang Jin's question.
But to tell the truth, Mo Yao didn't come to this Fengming Hall today for the sake of the harem, he really just wanted to visit her to see if her body had improved, and by the way, he just reassured himself.
At this time, Jiang Jin misunderstood the meaning, and when he heard her indifferent tone, his face instantly darkened a little.
But thinking that Jiang Jin was a patient, Mo Yao was not good at getting angry at her, so he forcibly suppressed the inexplicable anger in his heart, and said coldly: "There is no hurry to choose a concubine for the time being, and it is not too late to wait for the queen's body to get better." ”
Since her illness, Jiang Jin's reaction had slowed down a lot, so she didn't realize that Mo Yao was angry at this time.
Hearing him say that he would wait for her illness to heal before choosing a concubine, Jiang Jin couldn't help but be a little anxious, and hurriedly waved his hand and said, "This is not good." ”
After thinking about it, Jiang Jin said again: "Don't hide it, I'm afraid my illness won't get better, so you should put the matter of choosing a concubine on the agenda as soon as possible, otherwise when I die, you won't even have someone who can help manage the harem, and then there will be chaos in this palace?" ”
"What's more, you don't even have an heir now, and those ministers in the court are going to die in a hurry, you still have to marry a few daughters-in-law and come back as soon as possible, so as to appease the ministers and save them from annoying you every day."
"And in any case, this throne inheritance always needs people, so you really don't have to put off such an important matter for my feelings."
"I'm going to feel uneasy when you do that." Jiang Jin looked at Mo Yao's eyes and said very seriously.
Although her words came from the bottom of her heart, Mo Yao obviously didn't like to hear her say this, and her face became even more ugly after hearing this.
He looked at Jiang Jin deeply for a long time, until he saw that she couldn't help but feel weak, so he held back his anger and said, "If your body is not good, take care of it, and think less about those things that shouldn't worry about you." ”
"If all the patients were as thoughtful as you are, the doctors would probably be angry to death."
"Okay, I have something to do in a while, so I won't accompany you, and you can take care of it."
"As for your illness...... I have posted an imperial list to vigorously look for a doctor with good folk medical skills, as long as you are willing to be obedient, the disease will always be cured. ”
After saying this, Mo Yao seemed to be unwilling to stay longer, and turned around to leave.
Jiang Jin listened to his lesson, and the whole person was a little confused.
She wanted to ask him why she was so careless, but looking at the back of the striding away, she didn't have time to ask this, so she could only hurriedly call: "Your Majesty, slow down!" ”
Because she was afraid that he would go away, Jiang Jin shouted a little anxiously, so she coughed violently without accident.
Mo Yao didn't want to stop, because he knew that what she was going to say next must not be something he wanted to hear, so he was actually very resistant to continuing to communicate with her in his heart.
But he also couldn't ignore her retention, especially after hearing her heart-rending cough, he subconsciously turned around and hurried over.
Mo Yao quickly ran to Jiang Jin's bed, patted her on the back, frowned and asked, "Are you okay?" Do you want to drink some water slowly? ”
When he said this, Mo Yao's expression looked a little helpless, as if he was watching the most important thing in his life gradually disappear, but he couldn't do anything about it, and the whole person was panicked and helpless.
However, Jiang Jin didn't notice Mo Yao's abnormality at this time, she only knew that she was extremely uncomfortable now, as if her lungs were about to cough out.
After a while, when he finally felt a little more comfortable, Jiang Jin waved his hand and said weakly: "No need, I'm fine." ”
After saying this, Jiang Jin didn't even have time to wipe the sweat from his forehead, so he grabbed Mo Yao's hand and begged: "I know your time is precious, but can you stay and listen to me a few more words?" Just two sentences. ”
Her fingertips were slightly cold, and when she put it on his arm, Mo Yao felt as if the coolness seeped into his blood along the pores.
He looked at her with a sincere face a little distractedly, and felt a little uncomfortable in his heart.
He suddenly softened, nodded subconsciously, and his tone was helpless and tired.
"Say it, I listen."
Seeing that Mo Yao agreed to stay, Jiang Jin sorted out his language and said, "I won't live long, you know, so I hope you can seriously consider the matter of choosing a concubine." ”
"People have such a long life in this life, they always have to find someone who is in love with them." Jiang Jin said softly.
She sincerely hoped that Mo Yao could find someone who could be with her for the rest of her life, although she also knew in her heart that it would be difficult.
But to be human you should always have expectations, shouldn't you?
Although Mo Yao had long expected Jiang Jin to say this, he really heard her say this, and he still felt a little uncomfortable in his heart.
He always thought that even if she didn't accept his intentions for her, she must have understood, but she still said such things to him.
This made Mo Yao feel very difficult to accept, and he had a feeling that his mind had been maliciously trampled on.
He looked deeply at Jiang Jin's slightly pale face, and couldn't say a word for a long, long time.
Jiang Jin couldn't stand the injury in his eyes, and after staring at him for a few seconds, she subconsciously turned her head and said in a low voice: "Don't look at me like this, what I said is the truth, isn't it?" We don't have to kid ourselves. ”
"Besides, I'm doing this for your own good."
"Although I don't know much about the things in your court, I also know that the former dynasty and the harem are often connected, and sometimes in order to stabilize the imperial power, the emperor inevitably has to make a little sacrifice."
"This is your responsibility, and it is the price you will pay when you receive that supreme power."
"If you want to wear the crown, you must bear its weight, this is no way, even if you are the emperor, you can't be capricious, and you still have to accept the constraints of the rules."
"So, you really should think about the matter of choosing a concubine." Jiang Jindao.
Of course, Mo Yao knew that she had really thought about him, but he still couldn't accept the words that came out of her mouth.
He doesn't need her so-called "for his good", and he doesn't need her to deliberately ignore his feelings and push him into the arms of others under the guise of being good for him.
He is the former god of war and the current Jokhang Emperor, and he also has his own pride and majesty that cannot be blasphemed by others.
Thinking of this, Mo Yao narrowed his eyes, and finally asked the words that had been buried in his heart for a long time.
He looked at Jiang Jin fixedly, and asked calmly and indifferently: "Actually, I have always wanted to ask you, is the reason why you have been able to stay calm all the time is because you have always had only yourself in your heart?" ”
"In your eyes, other people's feelings are so worthless, can you trample on them at will?"
Where could Jiang Jin have expected that Mo Yao would suddenly change the subject?
She didn't react for a while, so she stared at Mo Yao for nearly two minutes.
After coming back to his senses, Jiang Jin couldn't help frowning slightly, and he was a little puzzled by his intentions.
What is "is it that other people's feelings are worthless in her eyes and can be trampled on by her at will"?
Whose feelings did she trample on?
Also, she persuaded him just for his sake? Why does he still look unhappy?
Kindness as a donkey's liver and lungs?
Oh, men's minds are really hard to understand.
Thinking like this, Jiang Jin couldn't help but shake his head secretly, deciding that he still didn't want such a complicated matter, and asked instead, "Isn't it good to only have yourself in your heart?" After all, in this world, it's always yourself who will never betray you, isn't it? ”
Jiang Jin's question is very reasonable, although it sounds a little suspicious of strong words, but it is undeniable that there is indeed some truth.
Mo Yao had nothing to say for a while, so he could only look at her fixedly and ask, "What about me?" You never think about my feelings? ”
Jiang Jin felt that Mo Yao's question was really a little strange, if she really didn't consider him, then why did she persuade him?
Wouldn't it be better to wait for him to be annoyed to death by the courtiers? Do you need to waste so much saliva?
Thinking like this, Jiang Jin was also a little unhappy, so he said: "I don't know what you want to express, but I'm going to say that, the emperor should think about it." ”
After saying this, she slowly withdrew her hand from his, and gave an eviction order with a cold face, "I'm tired, please poop." ”
This is the first time Mo Yao has been driven out, and it is somewhat unbelievable.
His brow furrowed even tighter, and he looked at her for a moment.
"You don't know what I'm trying to say, so I'll tell you what I'm thinking."
"I like you, so I won't allow you to die, and I won't allow you to leave me, do you understand?"
Mo Yao said word by word seriously, but Jiang Jin only shook his head and sneered after hearing it.
She looked back at Mo Yao's eyes and said coldly word by word, "Pleased with me?" Don't be kidding, all you like is this skin. ”
Mo Yao never expected that his affectionate confession would be exchanged for such an answer, and he was really angry for a while, and he didn't know how to be angry.
"You're really ......"
Mo Yao pointed at Jiang Jin's nose angrily, as if he wanted to say something, but as soon as he was halfway through the words, he suddenly stopped, and his whole person was a little deflated.
"Forget it, I don't care about you, you can take care of your illness."
After saying this, Mo Yao turned around and left, looking like he didn't want to stay any longer.
Looking at Mo Yao's way of saying go, Jiang Jin felt inexplicable in his heart.
Seriously, she didn't really understand what he was angry about, obviously she was telling the truth......
But these things are obviously not what she needs to care about, so Jiang Jin decisively gave up and continued to think deeply after thinking for a while.
If he likes to be angry, let him be angry, anyway, it has no effect on her.
Jiang Jin thought so, and suddenly felt that his eyelids were a little heavy, so he pulled the quilt, lay down and fell asleep......
——
In the autumn of the first year of Yongchang, the emperor was grieved and dropped out of the dynasty for three days to send condolences.
On another three days, the ministers knelt on the Jinluan Hall and begged Emperor Yongchang to set up a new queen, and the emperor was furious and threatened to never establish a queen.
According to the records of the Jokhang calendar, Emperor Yongchang reigned for 50 years, during which he made great efforts to govern the country, determined to reform, and created a prosperous era of Yongchang, but since the death of the Yuan Hou Wan, there is no queen in the Jokhang Dynasty.
is not only the queen, but Emperor Yongchang has no heirs in his life, and even the harem has only one virtuous concubine to help deal with palace affairs.
Some people say that Concubine Xian's appearance is very similar to that of the late Empress Yuan, so she got the blue eyes of Emperor Yongchang and entered the palace as a concubine.
Some people also say that the reason why Concubine Xian can enter the palace is only because the harem needs a woman who can manage things, if not, Emperor Yongchang is afraid that he will have to vacate the harem for the sake of the Empress Yuan.
For a time, I don't know how many people envied the good luck of Empress Yuan, envied her for being able to win the emperor's favor alone, and the folk rumors about Emperor Yongchang's affection spread farther and farther.
What's more, the storytellers of some restaurants and tea shops also compiled the story of the emperor and queen into a script and passed it on to future generations......
But Jiang Jin didn't know about these things, because she had already left the world that didn't belong to her at this time and fell into a new round of confusion.