Chapter 19: Memories of the Soul
The flames burned mercilessly at my body, and I could even feel the metal plates and parts on my body melting. Consciousness gradually faded away, I felt as if I was being pulled outward by some force, I obviously didn't feel it, but I inexplicably felt a little comfortable.
Perhaps, I'm dying, I'm afraid my soul is about to dissipate, after all, this is the price of getting this opportunity...... Cher, I'm sorry, I couldn't do it, I'm really sorry...... Perhaps, our agreement will not be completed, if there is heaven, Cher, wait for me, let's meet there again......
The scenery in front of me became more and more blurry, gradually turning into a blank, and the memories of the past slowly emerged from the soul. Images flashed through my consciousness like a marquee, and almost all of them were recorded in the same figure.
It was a petite girl, with long hair as black as the finest ink, which hung down to her waist like a waterfall; A pair of eyes showed a clear and moving blue, a color purer than the sky; The long eyelashes seemed to be reluctant to cover the autumn waves-like eyes, bent upward; A tall nose, red lips and white teeth, a perfect goose egg face, and an innocent smile at the corner of the mouth.
That's my Cher, my favorite Cher......
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When I was very young, my father abandoned me, and since I was a child, only my mother loved me, and our mother and son depended on each other, so we lived a peaceful life, although the family was not rich, but I lived a very happy and happy life.
When I was 8 years old, my mother remarried, my stepfather seemed to be a rich man, we moved into a big house and lived a good life, but I didn't care about these things when I was still young, I just knew that my mother didn't love me anymore, they had a new child, and I was no longer needed.
So I left the place that was called home, I hated it, and since I moved in, all I got was loneliness and loneliness, and what I lost was the only affection for my family.
I wandered the streets, going to restaurants to pick up leftovers from other people's eats, and then escaping in the chase of my boss. In the summer, I didn't get heat stroke as long as I was in the shade of the trees, but in the winter, I could only shiver from the cold, and I don't know how many times I felt like I was about to die. I was 12 years old.
Later, I was adopted by a good Samaritan, and it is said that I was about to freeze to death, but so much time has passed that I can't remember what happened at that time.
With their sponsorship, I went to school, I studied hard, told myself to get ahead, but in reality I was just running away from my fate.
I didn't have a good time in school, because my foundation was too poor so I couldn't keep up with other people's progress, and the teacher scolded me again and again, treating me as a problem child, and I was on the verge of dropping out, so almost no one wanted to talk to me.
I was bullied by my seniors, ridiculed by my peers, and even my only best friend snubbed me because of it, but I endured it all, I want to repay my adoptive parents for their kindness, and I can't get into trouble.
Until one day, they held me down and smashed the birthday present given to me by my most cherished adoptive parents, and I couldn't take it anymore and picked up the scissors from the side and started it.
So I went to prison, where I cursed my fate incessantly, swallowing sorrow and tears into my body, completely sealing my heart, and probably from that time on, my eyes were often called dull and terrifying.
After I came out, my adoptive parents compensated me a lot of money for my actions, and in the end, I couldn't afford to raise me anymore, and I could only wipe away my tears and continue to live alone.
I looked around for a job, and I could do it no matter how hard I was, but because I had been in prison, no one wanted me. But fortunately, a kind boss accepted me and freed up a small warehouse for me to live in, sweep the floor in his company every day, and give me some wages to live on.
I spent a year living in my own apartment, which was less than 10 square meters, and I finally bought my first mobile phone with my own money when I was 18 years old, and that's when I met her.
We met on the Internet, and it was an accident that we met. When I downloaded something on my phone, I accidentally clicked on other software, and I was going to delete it immediately, but I looked through it for a while because of my interest.
"Hello."
"Hello."
"You're from here too?"
"Hmm."
"What a coincidence."
"yes."
That's all there was to our first conversation, but it left a lasting impression on me.
Later, I got a raise, and the boss saw that I was working hard, so he gave me a training opportunity, of course, I couldn't let it go, and practiced day and night with the computer issued by the company every day.
The hard work paid off, and I was able to become a full-time employee and have the ability to rent a house. So I moved to a single room on the outskirts of the city, and although it was a long way, I was more diligent and could occasionally laugh.
One day, I started playing online games, and by coincidence, I met a girl in the game, and after some conversation, I found out that she was the person I had briefly communicated with on the wrong app.
So we met, and she told me that her name was Cher, and that she and I lived very close, and their hobbies were almost the same. We go out together, play games together, have fun together, get angry together, and sometimes we have a bickering, but most of the time we are happy.
"I have a question for you."
"I don't think you usually talk much......"
"Is there one?"
"What are you going to ask me?"
"Uh...... I want to ask if you have a boyfriend now? ”
"Hmmm......"
"What does it mean, yes or no......"
"That's what I agreed...... Meaning......"
"Agreed? Agree to what? ”
"You...... Aren't you going to be my boyfriend......"
"Huh? Ah, yes...... Let's have a relationship first......"
So we came together in no apparent way, and I didn't even have the courage to ask her face-to-face if she was single, so I could only ask with a message on my phone, even though I already knew that she had never been in a relationship.
One day, she suddenly talked about things at home, she said that only her mother was good to her in the family, and when she asked about my past, I couldn't say anything, I was afraid that she would dislike me and ruin this hard-won relationship.
But I can't hide it from her, I still told the truth, she cried for a long, long time that night, even if I coaxed it, I couldn't do anything, I cried when she cried, but somehow, my heart was warm.
Later, the company laid off employees, and I was unfortunately kicked out, lost my job, and could not continue to pay my rent. When she found out about this, she took me out of the city and settled down in another place, despite the objections of her family.
I persuaded her, and even got angry with her because of it, I couldn't watch her betray her family for me, that would be too unfair to her. But she didn't listen, she insisted on it, I couldn't screw her, and we lived together, and from that moment on, I knew that I was deeply in love with this girl.
Because of the pressure of rent, and I didn't want her to live too hard, so I did everything, from cleaning sewers to working at heights, and I did everything I could to make money, until I was 22 years old.
"Come on, come after me!"
"I'm so tired, I've been shopping for a long time, what if the snow is so heavy and I fall......"
"Stay with me, it's hard to get out."
"I really don't want to move, I feel home and I can sleep directly."
"You scoundrel, well, then if you catch me, I'll give you a reward!"
"Rewards? What a reward? ”
"Hmm...... Well, then I promise you one thing! ”
"Anything?"
"Hmm!"
"Cut, you're going to be fooled then."
"Not really! You and I are like you men, they are all big pigs' trotters, and they talk a lot! ”
"Well, you wait! I'm coming! ”
We frolicked like this until the sun set, I was a man after all, and I would definitely not lose physically, and finally let me catch it.
She hugged my arm and stepped on the shadow to go home in the afterglow of the sunset, and I had even thought about what she would promise, and my heart was so sweet that I felt like I would wake up laughing when I dreamed.
She loves to laugh and will see her laugh almost every day, she is already cute, and when she laughs again, she is even more charming. Sometimes it's a little silly, and I have to talk to her several times about some seemingly simple truths, but what does it matter, isn't this also her charm?
When my salary is paid next month, I will have saved enough money, and when the time comes, I will propose to you with a ring, and you will not refuse, because this is an agreement between you and me. I thought so, painting in my heart a picture of our happiness in the future.
But on that day, everything changed......
A runaway truck burst out of the driveway, and she pushed me out of the way, looking at me with a smile on my almost crazy face, and then I was thrown out of the way, and with it burst into tears.
I hugged her, I still can't forget the blood on her pale face and the corners of her mouth, I hugged her, as if the sky was about to fall, I screamed heartbreakingly, and asked for help from the people around me with the loudest voice, my voice was even broken, and my voice was hoarse.
But no one stepped forward, because the truck behind me was burning with flames that could explode at any moment, and I could only scream helplessly, until the tears were stained with red and my throat could no longer make a sound, and I realized that the girl I loved so much, the only family I had, had left me forever.
My heart died, my life was cut off, I hugged my favorite Cher, and I stayed with her like this, closing my eyes forever.
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I don't know how long it took, but a shrill sound of gears urged me to open my eyes, and I slowly got up, struggling to stand up straight.
"Are you awake? J7。 A familiar voice sounded in my ears, and I knew that he was calling me.
In front of me, there stood a handsome and kind man, I looked at him, but I couldn't respond to his call, because this picture was so familiar.