Chapter 179 [Ruins]
Today is Lin Jinyu's death day. After Ximu went to Lin Jinyu's purpose, he returned to this abandoned construction site. After so many years, the grass has grown all over every corner, and even bloomed in the cracks in the water, and this ruin has been forgotten by the world.
Lin Jinyu had an accident on this construction site, and when Ximu arrived, the ground was stained with dazzling bloodstains, and the bloodstains would appear in her nightmare for a long, long time, and she couldn't wash it off with sweat all over her body. But now, even the ground is gone, let alone the traces of the past, just like the fearless sky, birds streaking, dark clouds flowing, and it is still the same sky as before, which has not changed.
After Lin Jinyu's accident, he did not receive proper compensation, the developer fled because of the broken capital chain, and the workers did not have a large amount of wages. This had to make Ximu wonder if Lin Jinyu knew something in front of him? Or persecuted by others. Although the police investigated the scene and determined that it was caused by an accident, Ximu was always unwilling.
Liang Cheng silently followed behind her.
"Liang Cheng, we haven't been here for a year, have we?" Nozomi asked.
"yes, exactly one year. You come every time this day. ”
"Do you see if this place has changed again?"
"Is there one?"
"The grass is much more lush, if you continue like this, will the grass not go over this building?"
"How so? Grass is grass after all, and it is impossible to grow into a towering tree. ”
"yes, I thought the grass could grow all the way to the sky."
Liang Cheng smiled, "Mumu, what are you talking about?" ”
"Huh? Oh. It's nothing. "Hemu was a little distracted.
"Are you thinking about Lin Jinyu again?"
"Yes, after all these years, I still can't get out. That day, I obviously said that I would accompany me to try on the wedding dress, and we both said that we were going to get married, but such a thing happened. What do you think I've done wrong, and God wants to do this to me? ”
"Curtain, don't think so, everyone has their own life, this is predestined, we can't change it."
"But I don't believe in fate. I've always felt that Jinyu's things are not so simple. What if he was killed? If there is no one to help him find the murderer, then he will not die unjustly. ”
"You have to believe in the police's ability to solve cases, the police said it was an accident, how could it be murder?"
"It's not like that. I thought about it later and realized that there was a lot wrong. It's just that I didn't care so much at that time, I was only thinking about getting married, and my attention was on preparing for the wedding, and I didn't pay attention to Jinyu. In fact, during that time, he seemed to have been in trouble with the person in charge of the project. And why did he buy that kind of insurance? ”
"Mumu, this is your cranky thinking, it may just be a coincidence. Nowadays, many people will buy this kind of accident insurance, and it also includes serious illness insurance, right? Maybe Jinyu is just thinking farther. ”
"I can't always convince myself."
"Mumu, you can't go on like this, Lin Jinyu has been gone for so many years, you should also have a new beginning, you also have to look forward and live your own life. You're still young, are you going to be decadent like this forever? If Lin Jinyu knew that you were like this, he would definitely be sad. ”
Ximu faced the empty building in front of her, the weeds were wrapped around her feet, the past was like this weed under her feet, tightly surrounding her, Lin Jinyu was like the blue sky in front of her, lying high in her mind, she couldn't step out of the entanglement of this grass, let alone touch her lover. Every time she stands in this ruin, she feels extremely sad and lost, which makes her feel helpless and powerless in the face of the impermanence of life.
Liang Cheng looked at Ximu's side face, the little girl who drank wantonly for regeneration to the woman who was now sad for Lin Jinyu, he accompanied her to be sad and disappointed, but she never took a good look at him, so the expression on his face was even more lonely than Ximu. Like a patient with terminal cancer and saying to a little girl who fell and was injured, "It's okay, it doesn't hurt." The wound will heal soon. ”
"Am I supposed to put it down?" Ximu said suddenly.
"Hmm!" Liang Cheng had been waiting for this sentence for too long, he looked at her with sincere and warm eyes, and nodded desperately. "I've always hoped you could come out, Mumu, you should have a better life and stop torturing yourself like this."
"yes, I don't know how I've come to be all these years." Ximu sighed.
"If a person is always stuck in memories, he will age very quickly!" Liang Cheng said with a smile.
"So I noticed that I've recently started to have gray hair." Nozomi sighed.
"Really? Let me see! Liang Cheng said that he was about to touch Ximu's hair.
"Okay, how can you say where you are? Let's find a place to have a drink. ”
"Okay, okay, no problem."
"I don't want to come back to this place in the future."
"You shouldn't have come to this place a long time ago, deserted."
"yes, this is a dead place, it should be really quiet, maybe I'm always bothering it."
"I didn't expect you to want to open it?"
"The day I always want to open is just that everyone needs a different time."
"Mumu, I'm really happy for you."
"I didn't say it, but I knew it in my heart."
"Huh? Know what? Liang Cheng asked suspiciously.
"I am grateful to know that you are good to me, and you will be there for me every time I need you."
"You're stupid, that's how it should be."
"There is no such thing in this world as it should be, but it is just willing."
"Hehehe." Liang Cheng smiled embarrassedly, "It's good that you know, it's not like I've worked in vain." ”
"So what are you waiting for? Wait for me to continue to praise you? I have limited vocabulary, don't embarrass me. ”
"No, no, no. Let's hurry up, get in the car and take you to eat and drink spicy food. ”
Along the way, the corners of Liang Cheng's mouth were raised, and he couldn't help but smile.
"Fool, what are you laughing at?"
"I'm happy for you."
"I'm so worthy of your ...... for me"
"It's been so many years, and you're still asking me if it's worth it? Isn't it too cruel? ”
Ximu also smiled, did not speak, and casually turned on the car radio.
"Today I recommend to you a new song by Zhang Liangying called "Finally Waiting for You", I wonder if the listeners and friends in front of the radio have found their own good marriage? If you're still single, this song is also given to you as a blessing. Okay, let's listen to the song. ”
When Ximu raised his hand and was about to tune the frequency, Liang Cheng said, "Listen to it, there is nothing good to listen to at this time, only music channels can." ”
An affectionate female voice came over the radio: In a certain year, you will know/A person's life is really difficult/Gradually begin to taste the taste of loneliness/Time is beating on your pride/When you reach a certain intersection, you will feel/There are fewer and fewer people chatting with you all night/Tired of being chased by loneliness/Find someone who loves you, I want to entrust the old man/How many people can accompany me on a journey/There are even fewer who are willing to go through their lives/Whether it is unforgettable or not is not so important/I just want to experience the taste of love in the plain/Finally wait until you are okay, I didn't give up/Happiness is not easy/ will make people cherish it even more/Finally wait until you almost miss you/Meet you at the best age/Only to live up to yourself/Finally wait until you ......
Liang Cheng felt that this song was really timely, isn't this the best hint for Ximu? He is the one who has been waiting for her and guarding her, and he is the right person. When he was contented to immerse himself in his thoughts, he inadvertently glanced at Ximu and found that a clear spring slipped down, falling down one by one in front of him, he was a little stunned, and subconsciously reached out to change the channel.
Ximu realized that Liang Cheng was looking at her, and quickly took a tissue to wipe her eyes.
"It's okay, Mumu, do whatever you want in front of me, you treat me as air."
"It's fine." Nozomi explained, "I was moved by this song. You know I'm not a sentimental person, but the song is really good. ”
Liang Cheng knew Ximu's character, she would not show weakness no matter what, so she cooperated: "Yes, this song is good, don't talk about you, in fact, I was quite moved when I listened to it, so I almost cried." It's amazing, this lyrics are straight to the heart, especially for a single dog like me. ”
I remember someone said that you can't hide missing someone, and if you cover your mouth and don't say it, then it will run out of your eyes.
The strength of Ximu's disguise will always collapse at some point. Some people are destined to never see each other again in this life, but they are also destined to never forget. If you can forget, you don't need to forget hard, and you will naturally forget. Once you try to forget, you may need to spend the rest of your life and a lifetime to forget. It's a cruel thing to say goodbye without saying goodbye, if there is a good and perfect farewell, maybe Ximu won't have so much unwillingness in his heart, those unwillingness are like rootless vines entwining around her so that she can't breathe, she tries to get out, but if she doesn't tear off a section, she will let herself also have the pain of cramping and pulling out her bones.
"Shall we still go to the grilled fish restaurant from last time?"
"I'm not going."
"Huh? Why?"
"For no reason, I don't want to go again."
"Isn't it delicious?"
"I'm tired of eating. Let's go somewhere else. ”
"Good. You can eat wherever you want. ”
Liang Cheng didn't know that Ximu used to always have to go to the grilled fish restaurant noisily, not because she really liked to eat, but because it was the place where she and Lin Jinyu used to go.