Cheng Songyan has never liked to contact people, and he is also cold and cold when he is with a few of them.

As far as good night is concerned, she has grown up with Cheng Songyan since she was a child. Cheng Songyan's attitude towards her is the same as always, there is no deliberate alienation, and there is no obvious preference. They are mediocre with each other, and the normal cannot be normal anymore.

However, Cheng Songyan is different for Xi Xia.

He would walk through dozens of streets in Nanjing to buy Xi Xia's favorite cakes, and he would walk through most of the playground in the sunshine of July to bring water to Xi Xia who was participating in military training.

Xi Xia once said to good night that Cheng Songyan is really a person who is always in love.

The word "deep love" does not seem to be inconsistent with Cheng Songyan's body, because he has written thousands of letters to the little pink girl, because he has been waiting for Xi Xia in circles.

But Xi Xia is summer, and the summer is hot, but it will never be kept.

Xi Xia is playful, so playful that he still won't come after playing abroad for so many years. Good night, I don't know if Cheng Songyan has also looked at the sky, and his eyes reveal forty-five degrees of sadness. But one thing is clear, Cheng Songyan will probably never let go of Xi Xia.

Just like Cheng Songyan is the only bright color in the quiet youth without color for good night.

Good night has always been afraid to face the world, and like Su Moting, she is used to grieving alone in her own world. It is precisely because I really experienced the taste of loss when I was young that I never had the courage to convince people for the rest of my long life.

Her world was so pale, so pale that she wanted to be so absorbed in her dreams all the time. She was already tired of coping with everything around her.

If not, there are too many things to do that are too late to do, and too many things to say that are too late to say. She really wanted to fall asleep like she was now.

In the world in her dreams, she figured out a lot in her dreams. Just like what my grandfather once said, I can't get Mo Qiangliu.

The more she grew up, the more she understood that there were some things that she had to learn to let go. Besides, she never got what she really wanted since she was so old.

The more you want, the harder it is to get.

She didn't seem to have the strength to hope again.

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On the 188th day of the coma, I woke up with a good night.

Six months is really too long, and so much has changed in these six months.

On February 17, 2021, the police were fortunate enough to seize a video. According to the content of the video, high school student Lu is suspected of killing his classmates. Lu's family is superior, the motive for the crime is unknown, and the police are still investigating.

Everyone didn't expect that the person who tried his best to die at night was the gentle and kind senior sister Lu Zhiyi.

On March 28, 2021, Lu Zhiyi chose to commit suicide and wrote a suicide note before jumping off the building, with only one sentence on it: "Exchange your life of sorrow for your love." ”

On May 25, 2021, Shen Yiyan made an appointment for heart bypass surgery. He is expected to be admitted to the hospital in June of the following year.

Shen Yiyan said, looking at An An's appearance, I just want to at least tell her good news when she wakes up.

Good night said that it was her greatest wish to let him heal.

On June 7, 2021, Cheng Songyan took the college entrance examination for the class of 2021. It was raining heavily, but he played very well.

On June 21, 2021, the results of the college entrance examination were announced online. He is the top student in the Nanjing Science College Entrance Examination and a legend with a perfect score in physics and chemistry in the college entrance examination. He is the pride of the attached high school, and he is the unattainable Cheng Songyan in the eyes of many people.

July 7, 2021, good night birthday. A birthday party without her was held in grief.

On August 10, 2021, good night ended a six-month long dream.

When she opened her eyes, she saw a vague face.

Everything in front of me is hazy. The moment her fingers twitched weakly in the boy's palm, she heard a mess of noise. The boy was telling her a story, and the storybook in his hand slipped to the floor.

The nurses, doctors, and families rushed in in an instant, and good night still couldn't see everyone's faces clearly, and couldn't hear every word they said.

All she could feel was the intensity of the light around her. In the intense light, he finally saw the face of the boy closest to her who told her stories every night.

The long eyelashes hang down, and the black pupils are deep. The eyes are full of ripples. He is Shen Yiyan.

But at that moment, she was losing something.

She was disappointed to hear the words in her sleep, "An An, the world owes you tenderness, I will give it." ”

The tone is cold and the voice is low. But it's an illusion.

Good night saw Shen Yiyan crying, and that tear slid out of a perfect arc from the end of the young man's beautiful eyes.

So, the first thing that came out of the mouth of the good night was, "What are you crying about?" ”

Her voice was so small that she couldn't hear it until she got closer.

Shen Yiyan has never laughed in recent days, and he doesn't talk much. But after hearing the words good night, the corners of his mouth curled.

Fans called him "always strong", but Shen Yiyan's tears at the moment fell big drops.

Six months is a long time.

Shen Yiyan posted on Weibo before that if he could avoid violent joy, there would be no grief. There are fans who leave messages below, and the moment I like him, I know that I will pay the price for this heartbeat.

So Shen Yiyan understood that liking someone is bound to pay chips. Shen Yiyan knew that his bargaining chip was An An's well-being.

An An once told him that the meaning of her name is to be okay when she is late. So Shen Yiyan didn't believe that his girl would stay forever at the age of seventeen as the doctor said.

Shen Yiyan accompanies her every day, tells her bedtime stories, and sings to her. He even thought that he and An An could live like this for the rest of their lives.

But An An is still young, and she hasn't seen the world yet. So he had been waiting for her. Wait for her to realize her wish to see the world when she was a child.

An An woke up, and almost everyone came to visit her.

Except for Cheng Songyan.

Cheng Songyan couldn't wait to go to Paris to find Xi Xia after the college entrance examination, and now he and Xi Xia are enjoying the beautiful scenery of San Francisco in the United States.

Shen Yiyan was not surprised when he heard that Cheng Songyan had been in the hospital for two weeks in a row. He always knew that Cheng Songyan couldn't let go of Xi Xia in his heart, and he just did his best to grow up together with An An.

Otherwise, he would not have been affected by An An's condition a little, and the college entrance examination would play normally. I won't fly straight to Paris to find Xi Xia immediately after the college entrance examination, and I won't wait to go to San Francisco with Xi Xia in the days when An An is in a coma.

Shen Yiyan felt that Cheng Songyan was a little excessive, even Lu Yang rushed back from abroad and guarded An An for more than four months, but he was so busy falling in love that he didn't even have a phone call to ask for warmth.

He didn't seem to believe that An An would wake up, or that he didn't care.

Towards dusk in the afternoon, Su Moting came.

Good night and happy. Although she didn't know why she became full of joy.

may be because she woke up because she heard Cheng Yi say that Su Moting was not the one who hurt her. Just this sentence, good night is good and likes to be happy. She is still a spotless presence in her eyes.

Su Moting is someone who has always wanted to be friends with good night. She is gentle and sober and not blind, assertive and self-aware and not frivolous. The moment Su Moting took her hand and smiled at her, the good night lying on the hospital bed knew that the transparent barrier between them had disappeared over the years.

The two girls talked a lot together, and good night knew for the first time that Su Moting was Cheng Songyan's titular "little aunt". She knows all the secrets of Cheng Songyan.

Due to seniority, Cheng Yi should call her "aunt and grandmother".

Cheng Yi was disgusted on the side, as if he was quite embarrassed.

Lu Yang pinched Cheng Yi's thin waist and smiled evilly. The ruffian spirit has not changed.

Cheng Yi didn't seem to reject Lu Yang as much as before, and slapped Lu Yang's hand away without blushing or heartbeat.

Good night stared at the familiar people and scenes in front of him, and suddenly felt so real. Six months was enough for them to make a big difference, but for her, it was just a few dreams.

It's as if yesterday they were still joking with them, and today they happen to be there.

"If only Xi Xia were here."

Good night deliberately omitted another name, but she really missed the days she used to be together. There are ripples, there are Yibao, there are words, and Xia Xia.

And him, Cheng Songyan.

Everyone who was fighting next to the hospital bed suddenly fell silent, and the air condensed at this moment.

After all, when An An had an accident at that time, it seemed that Cheng Songyan was the most affected, but now, it seems that he is the most indifferent.

Everyone didn't know how to speak, and they couldn't say that Brother Yan was decadent and uncomfortable for the sake of An'an, and he was even so heartbroken that he became the provincial champion and was admitted to Tsinghua University. Every once in a while, I go to Paris to find Xixia, and now people have not retracted their hearts and are still enjoying the picturesque scenery of San Francisco.

Good night was also silent, and there were always a lot of people who came to see her at the end of the day. When Aunt Lu Qing came, she was still looking forward to it, maybe Cheng Songyan would come together. But no.

She actually didn't expect Cheng Songyan to care about her so much. But think about who she is, in Cheng Songyan's heart, she may not even be a little girl who grew up together, at most she is a neighbor's little sister. I went home with him a few times, went out a few times together, said some inexplicable things together, and did some things that he couldn't remember clearly.

He was in her heart a heart that could not be sketched by thick ink, and she was just a stranger to him who he didn't know very well.

He can't even do this kind of thing with hypocrisy and pretense, can he?

Good night and a little sad. It may not be very tiring to like someone, but liking Cheng Songyan really makes good night extremely tired.

I liked him because of the girl's feelings, because of the brilliance in his eyes, his outstanding talent. It's because of his starry and moon-like eyebrows that make all the girls in the school look around with a red face.

It's because he's a teenager in many people's hearts.

When I heard the word "teenager", I knew that I was repulsed by mediocrity.