Su Xiao took out the beer in the kitchen refrigerator, and there were actually several brands.

Xia Zhi sat on the carpet, her back against the lazy sofa, half of her body fell in, she struggled to sit up straight, pointed to the jars of different colors and said, "Are you not afraid of getting drunk like this?" ”

"I don't know, I'm not drunk." He casually opened a can and handed it to her.

She took the beer, wrinkled her nose and said, "Phew, at your age, you are not allowed to speak." ”

The two were silent for a while, each sipping the beer in their hands.

"Do you want to listen to a song?" Su Xiao asked, and without waiting for Xia Zhi to answer, he stood up and went to turn on the computer. Otherwise, the silence was so heavy that it was as if the air could be heard.

"Aren't you looking for a new job?" She thought that he had left Hanyi and that it would not be difficult to find a better job.

"Nope." With his back to her and soft music coming out of the speakers, he added, "I've taken on a few illustrations and have been drawing lately." ”

"And what are your plans for the future?"

He sat down cross-legged beside her and said, "I don't have any plans, I'm not very good at making plans." It's good to be able to spend your time at will, fill up all your time when you want to be busy, and do nothing when you want to relax. ”

"I'm so envious." Xia Zhi said sincerely.

"You can too."

"I can't. My pen can't feed me. She also doesn't hate the 9-to-5 social animal life, and can give her a relatively stable income, so that she can live decifully in this noisy city.

"I don't know if I'll be able to support myself. There are some things that you were right in the first place, and if it weren't for my mom, I wouldn't have been able to establish myself in this city so quickly. Without a material basis, what kind of ideals can we talk about, the reality is so cruel. ”

He holds a can of beer between his two hands, and his two thumbs take turns rubbing the brand label on the aluminum can.

"You haven't been home in a long time, have you?"

She leaned her whole body against the edge of the couch and looked sideways at him, receiving a nod from him in reply, "...... It's been two years, and if you count this year, it's been three years. ”

"Why don't you go back?" She already knew the answer.

"What can I do when I go back? She thought I should get married, or at least, find a stable girlfriend. ”

"Then ...... Tell her, she's your mother, and you can't hide from her for the rest of your life. She said to Su Xiao lightly, in fact, she didn't plan to go home this year.

What are you going to do back? Predictable "divorce humiliation". Whether it's that kind of blatant accusation, or that kind of careful avoidance, or even a deliberately flattering smile, it will make her uncomfortable.

"Tell the world...... It's impossible to tell her...... I am all her hope. "The last two words, without any force, hope, are an ethereal thing.

"If you don't like a woman, she's hopeless? Is it because she can't accept it, or you can't accept it? "It's easier to teach others than to introspect...... However, what she was thinking at the moment was that she didn't want him to be as lonely as she was. 398

"Both." He didn't shy away from talking, "I know it's not right...... But it's one thing to know, it's another thing to be able to do it. At least for now, I'm doing well, and I don't want to dwell on it — I find you to be much more persistent than I am. ”

She was stunned for a moment, but too, she always felt that it should be a very painful thing to keep a secret and disguise himself, but what if he was comfortable? She said, "If only I were as open-minded as you." I still care a lot about what other people think. ”

"I ...... I also care, you don't remember how you scolded me that year? ”

"Of course I do." She smiled. In a way, they're all the same. He kept his secret because he couldn't accept the strange stares of others. She was covered in thorns to protect her fragile self.

However, now that he is finally safe in his own little world, she always wants to be forgiven. This is the root of all her pain.

"My parents were so disappointed in me." She said, "My dad doesn't think I'm good at anything, and his only expectation for me is to marry someone, live a life without mistakes, and live an ordinary life."

"Knowing that I was going to get a divorce, my dad asked me in the first sentence, did he beat me? Drug addiction or gambling money? If there is none, why divorce? It's like a man can spend his whole life together as long as he doesn't have these problems. The one that scolded me the most was that I chose this person. Can I admit that my brain is watered? ”

"People always change......" Su Xiao seemed to echo casually.

Xia Zhi shook his head and said: "People will change, but what's even more terrifying is that you have never known this person at all, and as you get along more and more, you slowly find that this person is very different from what you imagined." But they didn't care about that at all, they just kept belittling me, saying that once I got divorced, I would never be able to marry again. ”

She didn't know where she got the strength, but she actually flattened the empty jar in her hand, and the sound of "crackling" penetrated into her heart, bringing her a sense of pleasure: "I hate this, I hate that they give birth to me and raise me but don't really care about me, as if I am just a bag of rice that needs to be processed after harvesting, not a human ......"

"I care about you." He followed her words, and she heard but didn't react in particular.

"Maybe it's me who is really annoying. I'm just a compulsion, and I can't live quietly. She got up and threw the flattened can into the trash, and even when she was drunk, she remembered that he loved to be clean.

When she sat down again, her head was dizzy.

"Can you borrow a shoulder?"

He took a step closer to her, taking her crooked head. She rubbed her nose against his arm, "You smell good...... Did you know? ”

“…… Maybe it smells like laundry detergent......" She seemed to feel the vibration in her throat as he spoke.

"And ...... You've grown up, your shoulders are much stronger, and you're comfortable to lean on. She ...... It's probably been a long time since I've drunk, no, I'm starting to talk nonsense......

"When you knew me, I wasn't a kid anymore."

"To me, you're a child. You'll always be six years younger than me. She closed her eyes and said. Sample...... In front of her, what kind of adult is he pretending...... Although many times, he looks much more mature than her.

The air fell silent for a long time, even the music player on the computer stopped at some point, and the summer solstice was almost asleep.

"Summer solstice." He called out to her, breaking the silence.

"Hmm." She lifted her head slightly, but only adjusted the angle, still nostalgic for the comfort on his shoulder.

"Let's get married." He said.