Chapter 191: Who is not in pain
The room was quiet again, everyone seemed to be in their own contemplation, and only Ah Cheng seemed to have a sense of relief and relief, for so many years, he had endured humiliation, and he survived, completely for the way he is today. Once upon a time, he impulsively wanted to return to the capital and wanted to exchange the eldest lady for Ran Linzong, even if Ran Linzong didn't believe him, as long as he could still accept the eldest lady, it would be enough.
But he also knows Du Yuexian too well, as long as this woman is in one day, the eldest lady will always have endless dangers, as long as she does not leave the Ran Mansion, the eldest lady will not have a peaceful day. He could only lie dormant there, wait there, and wait for a fair day when Du Yuexian would be completely eradicated and returned to the eldest lady.
"Your story is really wonderful, I was a little fascinated by it. Ah Cheng, fortunately you didn't come back that year, do you know how much the old man hated you back then? Du Yuexian looked at Ah Cheng, and a smug smile flashed across her face.
After so many years, not only have the years not left many traces on this woman, but even her conscience has not grown much.
"Of course I know your skill, and I know the futility of my defense...... I know better...... It's you...... Killed my mother. Ah Cheng clenched his fists, the woman in front of him had an enmity with him!
"Shhhh What's more, the old lady didn't use the people I sent to do anything, and as soon as they appeared, the old fellow died...... It's a bit of a pity...... But she is also very lucky, to let her know that she has such an unfilial son as you, then she will have to hit the wall to death if she is not chilled. Du Yuexian snorted in his nostrils, and Ah Cheng immediately ran towards Du Yuexian, he wanted to teach this woman who had given him half of his life despair.
"Ah Cheng!" Xiao Zheng drank sternly, and Ah Cheng was stunned for an instant.
"I really can't see it, you're still a loyal dog......" Du Yuexian sneered. Since you told me this today, Shopkeeper Xiao, is it possible that you know the whereabouts of that girl? Oh...... I forgot, you also have a daughter...... Could it be that it was Ran Linzong's child back then? Du Yuexian raised her eyebrows and asked.
"Mrs. Ran is really smart." Xiao Zheng nodded slightly.
"Looks like I guessed right. No wonder I didn't like the kid the first time I saw him...... It seems that fate is really not fake at all, and I really don't have any fate with that child......"
"Don't you have the slightest remorse?" Xiao Zheng said.
"Remorse? To whom? To you? To Ran Linzong? Or to that kid? Du Yuexian stretched out her finger and pointed at Xiao Zheng and Ah Cheng.
"If I ever had remorse, it would have disappeared after all these years. All I have now is remorse! Hate why I still left a calamity back then, hate me for groveling to Ran Linzong for so many years! None of you know my suffering, none of you know my suffering, you only see the surface, you don't understand how I have come through for so many years! None of you are qualified to comment on me, and the things you have done have made my heart happy for at least a while, only for a while, and for me there have been few pleasures in my life! Although, only for a while! Du Yuexian's face was filled with complex and intertwined affection, and she couldn't tell whether it was bitter or happy.
"Are you not afraid of retribution?" Ah Cheng asked trembling angrily.
"Retribution? Haven't I received retribution? Haven't I suffered retribution for all these years of living without being a ghost or a ghost? I used to spend all my thoughts on that person, but in exchange for so many years of humiliation and torture, haven't I been retributed? When you are unashamed to teach others, have you ever thought about what you deserve to be respected and admired by others? Du Yuexian's indifferent face was desolate and murderous, she looked at Ah Cheng angrily, she looked at Xiao Zheng angrily, and her shouts echoed in the room, like a ghost.
"You are all sanctimonious, none of you understand me, none of you understand me, none of you understand. I have this life in my life, I have to rely on myself for everything, it was like this in the past, it is like this now, and it will be ...... in the future" Du Yuexian didn't continue, she moved towards the door with hesitant steps.
"Maybe I shouldn't have been here today, I knew it was useless to be here. It didn't work from the beginning, I was wrong from the beginning, ridiculous, I still have illusions about you, ridiculous. Du Yuexian opened the door weakly, and outside, there was a row of people standing, and she didn't want to see everyone.
The first to bear the brunt is Ran Linzong, as well as his adopted son Ran An, and next to him is the Feng Yao who disgusts her, oh, no, maybe she should be Ran Ling'er, and Ran An, and a woman she doesn't know and a girl, and that woman ...... Du Yuexian's eyes swept over everyone's body, and she smiled desperately, "People are really together, Master Ran, I didn't expect to see your old man in the mansion, but I saw it here." Du Yuexian staggered back two steps.
"It's all here, and the matter hasn't been resolved yet, why are you in such a hurry to leave?" Ran Lin Zong stepped forward.
"It's ridiculous, I've worked so hard to fulfill you." Du Yuexian looked at Ran Linzong and Feng Yao, and her eyes were full of desolation that she couldn't let go.
"It was your malice that broke us apart." Ran Linzong said slowly, what Du Yuexian didn't know was that the woman in a uniform who stood aside and never spoke was Xiao Qinglan. At the moment she was unusually calm without a little bit of Poland, and she calmly watched all this in front of her.
"Am I vicious? Many people in this world can say that I am vicious, but only you, Ran Linzong, you, you don't have this qualification! No! Du Yuexian was enraged and roared.
"For so many years, everyone in the capital has said that you are a Buddha in the world, that you save the suffering, and that you are more holy than the gods! But who of them knows what you are doing behind your back? How could you never have been human-faced and beast-hearted? After so many years of calling me worse than dead, I want to ask you, where is your conscience for me? For the first time, Du Yuexian rushed in front of Ran Linzong, she tugged at his shirt and slapped it wildly.
Anger, venting, for the first time in so many years, Du Yuexian dared to be so presumptuous in front of Ran Linzong, and she also knew that this was ...... Maybe it's her first time, and it's her last.
Seeing this, Ran An and Nanfeng immediately pulled Du Yuexian away from Ran Linzong's side.
Life is loveless, perhaps the best interpretation of Du Yuexian at this moment, she looked at Ran Linzong with desolate eyes, the man who once called her fantasies. How beautifully she once dreamed of her marriage and how beautifully she dreamed of her life, but when she really arrived at the Ran Mansion, she found that she was not coming to a rich house in the capital, it was a cold magic cellar. There is no warmth, no sympathy, no affection, not even warmth. Her full heat was nowhere to vent there. She originally thought that she was fresh, independent, and individual, but later she realized that she was undoubtedly a shadow or even a stand-in for another person to Ran Linzong. He didn't even need an actual shadow or a stand-in, he only needed a nominal shadow, a titular lady of the Ran Mansion. This person is the same whether it is her Du Yuexian or someone else, and it is the same for him Ran Linzong.
"You've lost your mind." Ran Linzong said lightly.
"That's also forced by you! I used to be not what I am now, it was you, and your Ran Mansion that was so cold that I was scared that forced me! Du Yuexian became hysterical.
When the last hope is completely lost in front of the first, when the last thought is completely shattered, everything becomes the last straw that the edifice will fall.
"You did something unreasonable first!" Ran Linzong said generously.
"Am I hurting nature? Why don't you ask what you did to me back then? I, a young girl in the prime of my life, just married into your Ran family, but what about you? My heart is full of your dead wife, and my eyes are full of your daughter! Excuse me, Master Ran, where is my Du Yuexian in your heart? Du Yuexian asked desolately.
"I can tell every single one of you now, including you, you girl! I don't regret getting you away from Ran's house! I don't regret dying anymore! Because although I didn't get any love from this man after that, and even suffered unprecedented devastation, I at least saw that he was not happy! It's just as painful to have someone with me, do you think it's worth it for me to do this? Du Yuexian walked in front of Feng Yao, she looked at Feng Yao's face, thinking that back then, when she first came to the Ran family, why wasn't she so beautiful like a flower?
"You're crazy!" Ran Linzong reprimanded.
"I'm crazy! Am I crazy? Am I crazy?! A lot of times, I really think I'm crazy, if I'm really crazy, I can not think about so many troubles, if I am really crazy, I can not be so sad, if I am really crazy, I don't have to be like now! When Du Yuexian's white fingers groped for a corner of his face, and then a very well-made face was quietly torn off, a clear scar appeared in front of everyone, and everyone could see it clearly, Ran An was even more startled, because for so many years, he never knew that Du Yuexian's face was like this!
"What? Young Master Ran! Scared? Du Yuexian turned to Ran An, since this child entered the mansion, it was as if he had some hatred with her in his previous life. She flattered him but he refused, she sarcastically mocked him and he endured, she found an opportunity to torture him and he forbeared. In this child's body, Du Yuexian didn't seem to be able to find any gaps that could be approached, so she watched Ran An change from a child to a maturing man, and the rift between them inadvertently grew bigger and bigger with the passage of time.