"It's done." Pan Rui replied lightly, "So much money, there's nothing to be happy about, let's eat first." ”

"Why are you not happy? The two of us have a combined income of almost 4,000 this month! Xia Zhi thought about it, and said, "But also, we can't get carried away, we still owe your mother a thousand yuan, this money must be repaid first, and the rent should be paid, this month will be a little looser, but you still have to tighten your pants." ”

Pan Rui picked up the rice bowl and took a bite of rice, and said, "Xia Zhi, my mother's money, we won't pay it back first." It's okay, even if I don't pay it back, my mom won't say anything. ”

"But the problem is that we can afford it now! You still have younger siblings at home, I don't know a thousand yuan is much, but it is enough for your younger siblings to spend a month. Let's stay up for another month, next month I have 3,000 and you have 2,000, and when you pass the probationary period, the two of us should add up to more than 6,000, you see, we will be much more comfortable by then. ”

Xia Zhi could already see that the road ahead was full of flowers, and before the bitterness was over, she poked her head over to taste the sweetness.

However, as she talked more and more, Pan Rui's face became heavier and heavier, and finally, Pan Rui put down his job: "Summer Solstice, I got a salary of 3,000 from them today." ”

"What?" Xia Zhi didn't react, wasn't his salary during the probation period two thousand one?

"They only gave me two thousand one, and I talked to them for a long time before agreeing to settle this half month's salary to me together."

The software company where Pan Rui works, like Ouya, also puts half a month's salary on it, and settles the previous month's salary on the 15th of each month, but the overall welfare system is worse.

The meaning of Pan Rui's words, Xia Zhi heard it: "You resigned?" ”

"Hmm."

"Why?" She felt that she shouldn't get to the bottom of it at this time, but she couldn't resist the urge to ask.

"Not why. I told you you don't understand either. Let's eat. I'll be looking for a job tomorrow. ”

Pan Rui picked up the bowl again, Xia Zhi took the bowl in his hand and put it down: "If you don't say it, I definitely don't understand." ”

Pan Rui stared at her, she stared at him, he didn't speak, she didn't speak, the two just confronted each other.

He lost the battle first, and he pursed the corners of his lips, perhaps out of impatience, or for the following perfunctory: "In layman's terms, I think they are too stupid." That's it. ”

"Oh." Xia Zhi nodded, "My boss is also stupid X, he doesn't do any work, my boss gives me a salary to do the work of two people, and I have to bring back the work to do on the weekend." But I didn't quit either. ”

"That's you, you're grumpy than me. I'm like that, I can't see it, so I don't want to do it. Is it worth it to not even want dignity for 2,000 dollars? ”

The words of the two of them went back and forth, like chatting in daily life, and the tone sounded calm, and Xia Zhi didn't even bother to suppress her anger, because she wasn't angry at all.

It's just that there is an indescribable sense of desolation in her heart, which makes her feel empty from head to toe. At the moment, she just wanted to lie down and do nothing, just be in a daze until the time that had passed away filled the emptiness in her heart.

She's still too happy too soon...... I didn't feel anything when I was lying on the ground all the time, and it hurt a lot when I got up and fell down again. But what can be done? Isn't he uncomfortable? Will blaming him solve the problem?

Xia Zhi sighed unnoticed by Pan Rui and said, "Okay." I know. Let's eat, if you don't eat any more food, it's cold. ”

"Eat, I'm full. If you can't finish the roast chicken, put it in the refrigerator, and I'll eat it tomorrow at noon. I went out for a walk. ”

Pan Rui didn't wait for her to say yes before he stood up. He had indeed already removed a bowl of rice and eaten a little bit of the food. She was still hungry, and he hadn't forgotten to eat when they had just spoken.

Xia Zhi didn't look at him, she sent a mouthful of rice into her mouth, biting hard, and the sound of him closing the door was so loud that the rice between her teeth was no longer tasteful.

Isn't this normal, white rice is tasteless? Those who say that it will taste sweet when you chew it are all lies.

It's better to eat some food and drink some bars, the good wine and good food have almost never been touched, don't eat and waste, and Pan Rui won't be able to eat so much tomorrow.

Xia Zhi grabbed a roast chicken leg and took a hard bite, the burnt skin cracked crisply under the cut of the teeth, and the tender chicken was stuffed into strips. The satisfaction of munching on meat made her forget all her sorrows.

The greasy juice trickled down the corners of her mouth to her chin, and she didn't even bother to pull the tissue, so she wiped it directly with the back of her hand, and then picked up the beer bottle with her oil-filled hand, and poured it into the mouth.

After neutralizing the bitterness of the wine with the aroma of the flesh, she found the right balance and quickly ran through her entire body, and she felt that wine was flowing in her veins.

Her vision was so clear that she even felt like she could see through the piece of wrapping paper on the wall and see the ugly stains on the wall.

She suddenly asked herself a question: what should she do? Does she love him? How much love?

She snuffed out all the miscellaneous voices in her head and sat quietly. She listened to the flow of the air, listened to her heartbeat, heard her firmness, and she was almost moved by herself.

She got up and walked into the bathroom, washed the oil off her hands, and went out the door.

Xia Zhi walked under the street lamp, those lights that usually looked dazzling, she could now look directly at them, and she saw the light piercing the warm cement pavement one by one.

She called Pan Rui and asked where he was. Not far away, he went to the basketball court of a primary school in the village, which is open to nearby residents in the evenings.

But he's not going to play. His basketball was stuffed under the bed, and Xia Zhi remembered that he hadn't played a single ball since he graduated. This discovery made her heart twitch - these days, they are all suffering in different ways......

He sat on the plastic track next to the basketball court, watching several children who looked like middle school students on the court grabbing the ball, and his eyes were full of the shaking figures of those children.

Xia Zhi sat down beside him and hugged his knees: "Comrade Pan Rui, do you love me?" ”

"What stupid thing are you asking?" He still just looked at the pitch.

Xia Zhi said very seriously: "You answer seriously." ”

"I love you."

"Will you marry me?"

Pan Rui paused, and then turned his head to look at her: "Xia Zhi, I can't afford to marry you, I don't even have a job, I can't achieve anything." ”

"I didn't say now, I'm asking about the future, will you marry me?" She smiled softly.

Without thinking, he said, "I do." I want to marry you, I want to have our children, I want to have our home. ”

"That'll do." Xia Zhi put his chin on his knee and said, "It's okay, and me." ”