"Are you cold?"

Ping looked at Yang Ruilin, he shook his head, and nodded again.

"Cold, not cold is fake." Yang Ruilin bent his knees on the edge of the bed and did not look directly at Ping, his chin resting on his right hand, "Sometimes I feel like I'm dead, and sometimes I feel like I've never lived." ”

“…… Why do you think so? Ping asked as she motioned for Yang Ruilin to sit down.

Yang Ruilin immediately sat on the edge of the bed, and waited for Ping to wrap the quilt around him, then he looked at the blurred room in the darkness and said, "I have lived for a long time." ”

Ping remembered what Li Ransheng had said, Yang Ruilin is different from them, he doesn't have gray hair or wrinkles.

"How long?"

"Forget." Yang Ruilin sighed, his eyelids fighting, "You may think my words are inexplicable, but this time, I didn't lie to you." ”

"Hmm."

"I rarely sleep, I'm always afraid of dreams, many people die in my dreams, I will also die, I'm afraid that if I die, I won't meet her, and I'm afraid that I won't be able to hold on and go crazy first." Yang Ruilin didn't frown, his tone was flat and about to drift away with the wind, "Is it hypocritical?" ”

"What?" Apple didn't understand.

"Am I not hypocritical, like a sour and rotten literati."

Yang Ruilin smiled, and Ping also smiled.

"Not pretentious. Ha, hahaha, how did you come up with this word" Ping deliberately laughed a few times to relieve Yang Ruilin's self-reflection, "Mr. Yang, who are you waiting for?" ”

He replied slowly and heavily, "Yes, wait for the phoenix." ”

Yang Ruilin looked groggy, the quilt slipped off his shoulder, and Ping covered it for him, he didn't move, and he didn't look up at Ping.

"There really is a phoenix in this world." Her voice was in his ears.

"Yes."

Ping asked expectantly, "Will the phoenix appear in my lifetime?" ”

"No, it won't." Yang Ruilin opened his eyes, lifeless, "You can't see her." ”

Ping felt that Yang Ruilin's words had a deep meaning, but she didn't know how to ask.

Yang Ruilin's eyes were unblinking, staring at Apple coldly, and the strong chill seemed to swallow Apple alive.

"Apple, I want to tell you a secret."

Yang Ruilin wanted to say, he wanted to tell Ping that he wanted her to die.

He had thought that his obsession was in vain, but when he realized that she was the Fire Elemental God, he knew that this life was different from the previous decades.

She's no longer an ordinary person.

She is the Fire Elemental God.

The phoenix without fire repeats nirvana again and again, but it cannot achieve true rebirth.

And now, she had a hot body.

"Secret?" Apple was puzzled, "Who does it have to do with it?" ”

"Phoenix. My secret to the Phoenix. ”

Apple's round eyes looked at Yang Ruilin, as if to tell him that she would keep it a secret.

Yang Ruilin's mouth opened and closed, he hesitated, under the quilt, his hands were clasped on his thighs, and his nails seemed to be about to get into the flesh: "I, I don't know how to say it...... It's been too long...... I thought no one would listen to me...... I regret ......"

The water god guesses that as long as Apple dies, she can be reborn from the fire.

Yang Ruilin asked the god of water, will the phoenix remember everything?

The god of water replied, "I don't know."

Yang Ruilin asked the water god how sure he could succeed.

The water god said: "I don't know. If it fails, it's just a matter of continuing reincarnation. ”

But Yang Ruilin couldn't wait.

He had waited too long, and he wanted him to wait for Pingsheng to die of old age, sickness, and death, and watched her get married and have children...... What if she can't bear it, and she can't give up her children and grandchildren......

Ping approached Yang Ruilin with a little worry: "Mr. Yang, are you okay?" ”

"I," Yang Ruilin's eyes were dry, and there was not a single tear, he looked at the dark world, and fell into a sadness that he couldn't extricate himself, "Love that stupid phoenix." ”

In an instant, Apple's heart beat abruptly.

After a few moments, her heart tingled and continued to contract and expand, keeping her body's blood flowing.

Before this, Yang Ruilin had never thought of hurting Ping, but the water god showed him a clear way.

Kill her directly, and you can know if she can turn back into a little phoenix. Even if she doesn't become a phoenix, she still has a next life, so why care about life and death. There is no today and tomorrow, so why care if it is dark and dawn.

Yang Ruilin wants to see the little phoenix so much, so urgent, so tormented, so thirsty.

The two were silent.

Yang Ruilin didn't know what to say, and Ping didn't know what to say.

Her heart is uncomfortable, Yang Ruilin's pain, she seems to be able to bear the pain with empathy.

Halfway through the night, when the darkness was at its thickest and the stars and moon were obscured by clouds and mist, Ping gently patted Yang Ruilin's back.

"It's going to be fine."

"No, you don't understand, Apple, you don't. I want to use ...... I want to trade you for her......"

Trade you for her.

Apple guessed a few in ignorance, and then overturned them all.

She felt that she was about to find the answer, why Yang Ruilin would be so attentive to her.

"No matter what it is now, it will always be fine in the future." Ping didn't seem to understand anything, and she tugged at the flesh on her face and smiled vigorously, "Mr. Yang, I sometimes feel sad and often have a strange thought - I will die soon. ”

Yang Ruilin moved, he heard Ping say "death", as if someone had seen through the secret hidden in his heart, and the shameless thoughts had been discovered by her.

"Mr. Yang, I'm very happy. I have a brother, I have friends, although I don't have a father and mother, but I am well fed and clothed, and a group of you good people will care about me and take care of me. But always, I always think: I'm dying. ”

"Maybe there are some things that I was born with in my bones."

She is pessimistic, she is entangled, life should be fresh, but she is silent all day long, following her brother, running with Mr. Yang, waiting behind Yan Danren, Aunt Lin and Huo Qingniang are far away from her, she sometimes wonders if Peihua, who is far away in Beide Town, is pregnant, and the child born will call herself "aunt".

"If you want to exchange me for something, I don't have the ability to resist, so I ......" I hope she can see her brother again.

Yang Ruilin interrupted her: "Not now! ”

He lifted the quilt with his backhand and grabbed Ping's hands that were subconsciously blocking in front of him: "What are you thinking!" How could you be dying! You will, you will live, you will just live in a different way, as you did thousands of years ago! ”

The momentum was magnificent, and the bed board under Yang Ruilin's feet shattered, and cracks appeared on the wall on his side.

Seeing all this, for some reason, Apple began to tremble, fear swept over her, and she even forgot that she was the Fire Elemental God and that she could resist.

But she doesn't have to condemn herself for cowardice.

Standing here is a god.

In the dusty bedroom, the god stood up.

He held the girl's forearm in his hand, and suddenly saw the little phoenix.

The little phoenix whose freedom is restricted, the little phoenix who is afraid, the little phoenix who is misanthropic, and the little phoenix who is desperate is asking him: "Mr. Yang, what's wrong with you?" ”

"I'm sorry," Yang Ruilin smiled at Ping, "I'm a little excited today." ”