Guangzhou in the wax moon looks lonely and desolate. Li Suxin told me that the front is okay! It's really Chinese New Year's Eve and New Year, and there is an echo of spitting on the street.

Every year, more than 200,000 migrants come to Guangzhou to work, which is 200% of the city's permanent residents! Usually you can't see the difference, only in the Spring Festival, with the evacuation of the returning army, the sense of loneliness is clear at a glance!

However, there are also some people who are reluctant to go home for the New Year, such as me!

There are reasons for those who resist going home! Some are not earning money, some are afraid of urging marriage, and some are because the unit is on duty or a foreign company.

And why I don't want to go home, it's hard for me to figure it out myself.

Early in the morning of the 27th day of the lunar month, my mother called me with a linghua.

Since the affair with Xia Xue became yellow, my mother threatened to cut off the mother-son relationship with me, which was the first call she took the initiative after the incident!

"Stinky man, are you really playing? Really not coming back for the New Year? ”

"Mom! I'm just promoted, and I have to put my work first! ”

"Yes, yes, my son is out of town and a big leader, and he doesn't even want a home. Hey~! If you have the ability, don't come back, it's better to die outside! Anyway, I still have two sons, one less of you, and someone will still provide for me to die! ”

My mom scolded me and hung up the phone in a huff.

But soon my dad secretly called me: "Third child, you take care of yourself outside, don't listen to your mother's nagging." She wasn't really angry, she hung up on you because the card friends had arrived, and she was happily playing mahjong at this time......"

I asked home on the phone and said a few words before hanging up.

Lying back on the bed and looking at the flower board, my heart was melancholy! It took me a long time to cheer myself up, get dressed and wash, and go to the company to have a look.

The end of the year is approaching, and the company has long been empty. In addition to the security guards on duty, there are only a few operators on duty.

A few young girls with beautiful voices sat in the booth and chatted, the computer was on, and the communication records were pressed in their hands, but everyone knew that no one would call during this time, and it was impossible to even harass the phone

I saw that the whole office was empty, and there was a bit of smoke and fireworks, so I walked over.

When a few girls heard the footsteps, they stretched out their heads to look, and when they saw that it was me, they hurriedly sat upright, and their fingers tapped on the keyboard indiscriminately.

"Hey! What to talk about? I stepped forward and asked with a smile.

Several girls looked at each other, stood up and greeted me: "Director Lu, we were in a customer just now!" ”

I could clearly feel a sense of repulsion, like a mismatched bean stuffed into a plate, which seemed so abrupt!

I wanted to say hello to them, and then chat, cheer up, but when I came over, I realized that they couldn't have anything to talk to you. Even if everyone is a salesman who eats by mouth, here, there are very few topics to talk about, and even asking the other party's age seems abrupt and Minfu

Eventually, I fled under their persecutive gaze and walked into an office with no work to do.

One moment to turn the two pages of the Wanli book on the table, and the next time to open the drawer and take a look. Later, she was too idle, so she called Li Suxin and asked her about some trivial matters in the unit.

Li Su was very thoughtful, and quickly saw that I was extremely poor and bored, so he deliberately did a few dispensable things for me to pick up to pass the time.

"Director Lu, I've already returned to my hometown in Zhengzhou, what's the matter, wait for the fourth year of junior high school, let's meet again!"

"Really? You've been coming to work since your fourth year of junior high school? Isn't it the eighth day of junior high school? ”

"That's right, the fourth year of the paperwork! Go early. ”

I feel a little comforted in my heart, and I can't count my fingers!

Hanging up Li Suxin's phone, I leaned on the chair and stayed for a while, thinking about it, or sending Xu Jiaojiao to WeChat:

"Princess, I fell asleep last night and didn't see WeChat. So you've been wronged, it's still too late to apologize! ”

Xu Jiaojiao went crazy for most of the night last night, and she should still be sleeping at this time. Seeing that she didn't reply to the message for a long time, I swiped the circle of friends when I had nothing to do.

Because of business needs, I have a lot of WeChat friends, and my circle of friends is also full of specialties.

Personally, I especially hate those who post frequently on Moments, so I will set up a block for micro-businesses and some friends who are agents, and I don't look at their Moments.

Even so, my WeChat circle of friends is also very long, and if I don't read it for a few hours, I have to read it for a long time.

I usually rarely brush the circle of friends, but now I turned it up by magic, turning down the pages one by one, until I saw a dynamic of Hu Shanshan.

Seeing that it was Hu Shanshan's name, I was stunned, and I sat up and waited intently.

Hu Shanshan took a photo, which was the entrance of the train station, and the pedestrians walked forward shoulder to shoulder, all with the back of their heads.

I zoomed in on the picture and looked at it, but there was no obvious sign at the station entrance, and I didn't know where the train station was.

The text attached to this photo reads: "I don't know why, but you always bring me sadness and disappointment again and again." But even so, I still have to say to you: Lu Xia, I'll wait for you! ”

'I'll be waiting for you'!

When I saw these three words, my nose was sour, and tears flowed out of my eyes!

Looking at the date, it was 3 o'clock in the morning, and she should still be on the train at that time. I know that a Rao mood is easy to be emotional at night, and Hu Shanshan must be very lonely and sad sitting alone in the train.

I clicked on the comments and thought about something, but my mind went blank and there were no words!

Simply quit as if you didn't see it.

At this time, I suddenly remembered the time I left Wuhan, and Hu Shanshan asked me to write a 500-word reflection.

At that time, I didn't know Hu Shanshan's attitude towards me, so after thinking about it, I wrote two copies, one ambiguous and the other tepid.

Later, I was embarrassed to give her the ambiguous share, but it wasn't until I saw what she wrote to me that I realized that we really had similar ideas. However, my cowardice ultimately didn't allow her to see my true heart.

'Da Shanshan, I am easy and comfortable with you, and every one is pleasant and full of romance. You have brought me a lot of bad hopes, so meeting you is an adventure in my life. You are a beautiful spectacle in my life, magnificent and dazzling.

When I met you at my most lost age, it was really like a gift, as if it was a sudden dawn in the dark and damp swamp, and I saw you standing in a dazzling halo of light. I don't know how to express my love and gratitude to you, your goodness deserves my protection and respect.

Maybe I'm not good at pleasing girls, or I can't win your trust in me, but I like it but I can't speak, because your beauty and kindness make people fall into the dust.

I really like you, I like you so much that I don't dare to look at you more, the ten-mile spring breeze iron horse glacier is all you; I like you so much that I don't dare to think about you, but I let your figure run rampant in my heart; I like it so much that I don't dare to like it, but I can't help myself.

I want to like you like this for the rest of my life, even if it's from the perspective of looking up......'

Looking at what I once wrote, I just thought it was ridiculous. What a hypocrite I am!

It's a good thing it wasn't what she was given at the time, otherwise I wouldn't know how to face her now. As she said in the dynamics, I didn't give her anything but sadness and disappointment again and again.