Hanging up Wang Yuqing's phone, I felt a little confused. I don't know why, my heart is like a mess of wild grass, a kind of panic that I have never felt before, and I can't be at peace!

waited until the evening before Wang Yuqing sent me a voice message on WeChat, suppressing his voice: "Brother Lu Xia, don't leave after work, wait for me, I may be a little late." ”

"Okay! Stay safe! ”

Sending the message over, I started to get nervous about her. I think this is the feeling of being a thief!

waited until 7 o'clock in the evening before Wang Yuqing ran over panting.

"Brother Lu Xia, na~!"

took the copywriter and looked at it, and his heart was inexplicably sour. I really want to give Wang Yuqing a big hug to express my gratitude.

"Thank you!"

"Haha, don't you praise me?"

Wang Yuqing shook his backpack in front of me, looked at me with a charming face, and licked his lips: "Brother Lu Xia, I'll go to your house tonight to sleep and let Sister-in-law Xue cook an extra meal." ”

"Okay!" I casually agreed, but soon realized that something was wrong and explained to her, "Oh ......! The snow has returned to Huangshan City, and I can go home tomorrow! ”

"Ahh I'm not here! Wang Yuqing pursed his lips, lifted his sideburns and looked at me: "Then I'll go cook for you!" I'm not bad at it! ”

"Huh? ...... "I don't know whether to say no, how to refuse, and in my heart, I still expect it."

"Let's go!" Wang Yuqing waved his arms lightly, turned around and walked to the car door, buttoned the handlebar with his fingers, and turned around to remind me: "Unlock!" ”

……

Back home, Wang Yuqing put on a snow apron and cooked a table of dishes after a while. The devil in me began to come out and make trouble, opened a bottle of red wine, and poured a full glass for Wang Yuqing.

Sometimes it's really hard to recognize yourself. You think that you have three positive views, you can resist temptation, and endure loneliness. However, when a psychological defense is on the verge of collapse, you will find how fragile and pathetic those who think they are righteous.

It's like someone who asks you if you have a million willing to donate to the country, and you will; Ask you if you have 500,000 willing to donate to the country, and you are willing to do the same; I asked you if you would like to donate 10,000 yuan to the country, but you didn't. Because you really have 10,000 dollars.

Of course, you can be comfortable with what you don't have, because you can't feel that hesitation and choice. Only when you put yourself in the shoes of the face, it is clear whether the heart is surging or cold!

For desire, it's like an open bottle of red wine. Sitting in the wine cabinet for a few years, you can see it and never think to taste it. Until one day, the red wine is opened, and you have smelled its fragrance, tasted its sweetness, and touched its softness and refreshingness......

Forgive me for justifying my despicable deeds, just because human beings are also animals and have their own inability to control themselves. Diet men and women, I am a physiologically healthy and age-appropriate man, in the face of Wang Yuqing's charm, I think it is difficult for a man to resist.

……

"Brother Lu Xia, aren't you going to wash?"

Wang Yuqing asked with a pant, gathered the quilt, and swallowed his throat.

This time she didn't have the cowardice she had before, as if she had experienced a reasonable thing, and there was nothing to avoid.

"I'm going to lie down for a while."

Wiping the beads of sweat from my cheeks, I felt hot and relaxed, and the bones of my whole body were almost melting.

Wang Yuqing bit his lip vaguely: "I can't get up!" ”

I looked at her distressedly, put on my pajamas briefly, and prepared to fetch water to come in. But as soon as I opened the door, my heart trembled! It was as if someone had knocked on the door of the head, and his eyes were full of starlight, and his head was dizzy and his ears were ringing......

I saw Xia Xue sitting in front of the coffee table in the living room, holding a cup of hot tea in her hand. She seemed to be very cold, her delicate body couldn't stop shaking, and her fingers trembled very much.

Snow slowly lifted her face, and I saw snowflakes fluttering in her big starlit eyes. It seems that winter is about to extend out of her eyes, and the change of seasons is imperative!

“…… Snow? You're not ......."

I could clearly feel my voice trembling as I spoke. It's like a wire ball stuffed in my throat, every word is painful and hoarse, and every word smells of blood.

Snow twitched the corners of her mouth and smiled softly, and the dimples on her face looked so cold.

"My parents happened to be away from home, so I took a ride back."

Xia Xue tried her best to keep smiling when she said this, and the warm water vapor in the teacup permeated the stiff smile and lasted for a long time.

"You should have told me in advance, and I'll pick you up." I.

"Hitchhiker, no need to pick it up!" Xia Xue swept her eyes in front of the door, saw the high heels on the ground, and asked in a calm tone, "Sister Yuqing is here?" ”

"Ahh Forehead...... Well...... Amount¥%*"

I slurred and bit my tongue as soon as I opened my mouth.

Xia Xue laughed, put the teacup on the coffee table and got up and went back to the room: "Lu Xia, go to bed early!" ”

"Hmm!"

I answered and watched her close the door before turning back to the room.

Wang Yuqing heard our conversation in the house, wrapped in the quilt and motionless, I turned around and saw tears on her cheeks: "Brother Lu Xia, I'm sorry!" ”

"Shhhh......h

Wang Yuqing buried his face in my arms, sobbed softly, and groaned: "I'm sorry Brother Lu Xia, I shouldn't have come today." ”

"It's not your fault! It's me ......" I wanted to slap myself, but as soon as I raised my hand, I was afraid that the loud voice would alarm Xia Xue next door.

At this point, I realized that all this was ridiculous to the extreme.

Outside was my girlfriend, who lived in a room alone. In my arms is a girl who has nothing to do with me.

I also shamelessly told myself that the last time was an accident, and there will only be one such accident. What makes time smooth out and makes sand fill the ravine..., can you find someone more hypocritical than me?

Sure enough, there were only 0 and 100 times of domestic violence and infidelity. I can't even trust myself, so what can I do to make others trust?

Lean over and see how ugly and inferior I am!

It wasn't until the early hours of the morning that Wang Yuqing didn't feel so much pain and put on his clothes and went to another room. I supported all the way, my movements were very gentle, and when I passed by the door of Xia Xuefang, I even held my breath.

After settling Wang Yuqing and giving a brief explanation, I will return to my room. After a pause in front of the snowy door, I seemed to hear a rough breath behind the door, which seemed to be clinging to the door, only a screen away from me.

I took one last look at the dimly lit door, bit my trembling lip, and left.

Back in the room, I punched myself twice in the chest, hating myself until my teeth itched.

What am I doing?

What is my behavior?

I should put myself in jail!

It was raining outside the window, and lightning shone through the window to brighten up the room!

There were three well-defined people in the room, and there was no trace of blood on their cold and lonely faces!