Chapter 51: Unbearable

The sun had risen at noon, and the ten-mile pavilion was filled with summer heat. The bird is gone, and the wind is gone. Xiao Zheng stood aside and looked into the distance, and Du Yuexian leaned on the stone pillar and cried. She cried so sadly, cried so tearing her lungs, cried so selflessly. Throwing away the identity of the Ran family's wife and the dignity she deserves, tears may be the full interpretation of her current mood. Du Yuexian herself didn't remember how long it had been since she had cried like this.

Is it a year, a two, a decade, a twenty years......

Many times, it's not that there is nothing worth crying about, but that there is no point in crying.

Time is really unforgiving, and it doesn't matter whether people are willing or unwilling to push you forward. Twenty years ago, Du Yuexian was still a young girl, and now she has entered the stage of half-aged. Although time has not left too many traces on her face, after all, in her heart, the traces left by each annual ring are exceptionally clear.

I don't know how long it took, Du Yuexian stopped crying, she let out a long sigh of relief, and slowly tore off the skin on her face that had been posted for many years, and immediately, a bright red caterpillar-like scar appeared on her face. The scar was more colorful and a little weirdly shaped.

"I know that Mr. Xiao hates my brother, and even hates our Du family, which may be our own fault, and I have no complaints. But Mr. Xiao doesn't know, if you can't save me, my life may not survive next year...... I, Du Yuexian, used to be greedy for life and afraid of death, I Du Yuexian used to be greedy for wealth and nobility, and I Du Yuexian used to be poor and love rich, but in the world, how many people can be pure-hearted and have no desires? Du Yuexian walked up to Xiao Zheng, she looked at him, and the scars on her face were a little shocking.

"But now I have long passed the age of the flower season, and I have passed the time of loving dreams. I have enjoyed the glory and wealth of this world, and I have also obtained the respect and honor of this time, and I should be satisfied whether I live or die. But I can't die, not for myself, but for my children. Does Mr. Siu know? Although I am glamorous now, every moment is torment, if it weren't for my two children...... Maybe death is the real relief for me! I have two children now, the eldest is a daughter, named Ling'er, who is the one who is good with Ling Qianjin, who is just ten years old this year. The youngest is a son, who is just eight years old this year. I don't want to die, I can't die, because I can't bear them, I don't want them to become motherless children, and I don't want my children to be bullied by their stepmothers in the future. Mr. Xiao is also a father, and Mr. Xiao also loves his beloved daughter deeply, I think it is not difficult for Mr. Xiao to understand my mood at the moment. Tears struck again, gentle, and varied, but they flowed endlessly, Du Yuexian's brows tightened a little, because the tears hurt her wounds.

Xiao Zheng turned his gaze, he looked at Du Yuexian, looked at this woman who was already embarrassed, although they didn't meet many times, but he remembered Du Yuexian's appearance at that time, and remembered her beauty and liveliness back then. He looked at her, and his eyes were the scene of twenty years ago, when he was also a high-spirited teenager. Indeed, based on the events of twenty years ago, Xiao Zheng didn't have much reason to blame Du Yuexian, but things weren't just twenty years ago!

"Not every stepmother will be ruthless!" Xiao Zheng said this lightly, Du Yuexian, who was still in pain, was startled, she looked at Xiao Zheng in a daze, her face was pale.

"Mr. Xiao, what is this...... What do you mean? Don't...... Do you want to die without help? Du Yuexian asked in despair.

"I will readjust the formula of the condensing cream, and in two days I will ask Feng Yao to go back and get it!" As he spoke, Xiao Zheng had already walked down the stone steps, and he didn't look back and walked vigorously, and a thin body was fading away in the sun.

Du Yuexian watched him leave stupidly, and he didn't have the strength to hold back.

The sun is more poisonous, and there is more stuffiness in this ten-mile pavilion. But Du Yuexian stood in this ten-mile pavilion and only felt chills all over her body, and her slender body trembled a little, until Xiaocui went up the mountain and carried her away......

When Xiao Zheng returned to Mo, he only had a lock to look after his house. The midday sun scorched hot on an iron lock. Xiao Zheng groped out a thin wire from his body, saw that no one stabbed the lock a few times, and with a gack, the big lock opened.

This is Xiao Zheng's unique secret, and it is also the reason why he has never brought a key for so many years, but he only opens his own lock, and he will not even look at other people's houses.

There is a lack of popularity in the house, and it seems that since Feng Yao was coerced by Nadu Yuexian to go to Ran Mansion, Nanfeng should rarely come back. Xiao Zheng looked at everything in front of him thoughtfully, his expression thoughtful.

Just as Xiao Zheng was looking at everything in the room with some distraction, there was a sound of footsteps outside the door, and Nanfeng couldn't wait to walk in.

"Daddy!" The south wind shouted.

Xiao Zheng looked back at him, although there was joy in his eyes, he couldn't help but have some complicated emotions. He was seventeen years old, and in a trance, Xiao Zheng only thought that he was the little boy who only knew how to dance with guns and sticks, but in the blink of an eye, he ......

"Dad, what's wrong with you?" Looking at Xiao Zheng's distraction, Nanfeng asked with concern.

"Oh, it's fine." Xiao Zheng eased his senses.

"Feng Yao, she ......" Nanfeng asked inquiringly, although he didn't know much about his father's affairs, but Nanfeng knew that there were few problems in this world that Xiao Zheng couldn't solve. Although he has grown up, his father specially explained to him when he left, this is the capital, not the hometown village of the year, everything must not be reckless, and he must be notified as soon as he encounters problems. Therefore, Nanfeng did not make the decision on Feng Yao's affairs, and the flying pigeon was passed to Xiao Zheng.

"Feng Yao is fine, and I'm fine. Maybe it's because I'm in a hurry and I'm tired. Xiao Zheng rubbed his forehead, regardless of how much dust was on the chair, sat up, and the dust and mist suddenly flew up from the pillar of light that came in from the window.

"Then Daddy sits down first, I'll go boil water!" Nanfeng looked at the cold pot and cold stove in the house with some self-reproach, and walked to the backyard with the kettle, leaving Xiao Zheng to sit alone in the chair.

That was where Xiao Zheng often sits, in a corner of the room, dark and not easy to be found. From this angle, you can clearly see every customer who enters the store, and you can also see the rushing customers outside through the window lattice.

Xiao Zheng sat there, and couldn't help but feel a lot of emotion in his heart. Twenty years, it has been a full twenty years since he was forced to leave the capital and now he has come back so gloomily! In the past 20 years, the secrets hidden in his heart have never been revealed to outsiders, and in the past 20 years, Xiao Zheng has hidden all the secrets alone. I thought that I could face the past without any waves, but today, just now, in Shili Pavilion, when Du Yuexian mentioned the past two words, Xiao Zheng's heart was still trembling under his calm appearance. He pretended to be expressionless, but in fact, his heart was not turbulent.

I remember that twenty years ago, Xiao Zheng was already a well-known Langzhong in the capital, and his life was prosperous, and his future could not be underestimated. There are a lot of friends around him, and one of the people who may make Xiao Zheng close to him is his fellow brother, and the other is his best friend in the capital.

Although he is in his early twenties, past the age of a hairy young man, Xiao Zheng, who is helpless, can work hard in the capital by himself, and he is still full of confidence in the future.

Xiao Zheng is a particularly talented person, at that time he not only ran a medical center, but also studied women's rouge gouache, the gouache he developed was not only popular but also sold in the capital, and many rich officials and ladies liked what he studied.

In one time, Xiao Zheng's effort in the medical hall was reduced, and at this time, the same senior brother Zhong Shiwei had just arrived, and he had no foundation in the capital, and the medical skills were not proficient in Xiao Zheng, so he did not find a suitable livelihood.

One day, the concubine of an official in the capital was unwell and found the hospital and asked the hospital to go to the doctor for treatment. Because the condition doesn't sound complicated, and he is dealing with the family members of officials, Xiao Zheng handed over such a beautiful mission to his senior brother Zhong Shiwei, hoping that he would open up some fame because of it.

Of course, Zhong Shiwei also understood Xiao Zheng's kindness, and went forward with joy and returned with confidence. Xiao Zheng was also very happy to see it, originally thinking that everything would go so smoothly, but he didn't expect that things would turn around on the fifth day. Originally, the polite official who was supposed to pick up the car and send him to the hospital suddenly took someone to visit the hospital, and he couldn't help but smash it...... Later, I learned that the official's concubine was not a problem at all, but pregnant, Zhong Shiwei at that time didn't know why, a simple pregnancy was not diagnosed, and there was a cold medicine for slippery tires in the prescription prescribed to others!

The consequences of the matter were very serious, the official's concubine had a miscarriage, the hospital was forced to stop business, and Xiao Zheng's first career was ruined in the hands of his senior brother!

Xiao Zheng was depressed for a while, and Zhong Shiwei also blamed himself, regretting that he had studied medicine for many years and had not even diagnosed an early pregnancy.

But fortunately, it is the endless road, and Xiao Zheng's gouache business has made great progress, which also gave Xiao Zheng some comfort, and Xiao Zheng, who got out of the predicament, was full of confidence in the future again. Unexpectedly, when he woke up one day, he found that many of the miraculous rouge gouache formulas he had developed were also missing, and Zhong Shiwei disappeared with them.

Soon, there was a rouge gouache shop called Linglong Pavilion in the capital, and the business was booming, and the shopkeeper of that store was Xiao Zheng's disappeared senior brother Zhong Shiwei!

The hospital went out of business, and the formula he had painstakingly developed was taken preemptively, and the angry Xiao Zheng went to find Zhong Shiwei to theorize, but at this time, Xiao Zheng saw the true face of this guy clearly, he just wanted to make Xiao Zheng defeated! Not only did he not admit that he stole Xiao Zheng's formula, but instead beat him up and said that Xiao Zheng framed him, what was even more infuriating was that soon, there were rumors in the capital that Zhong Shiwei was not incompetent and couldn't see the pregnancy of the official's concubine, but only because he was deliberately unable to get along with the official because of Xiao Zheng's will.

In many cases, the lethality of rumors is enormous, and its impact is incalculable. Xiao Zheng had difficulty gaining a foothold in the capital, so he had to leave the country as a last resort. The well-known Lang Zhong in the capital disappeared, and the craftsman who had studied rouge gouache also disappeared, but people soon forgot him completely, and no one remembered him anymore.