Wang Yan spent the afternoon thinking about what she said in the noon chat. Do you like to study the major you studied at university? The question of whether the learning will be useful after graduation. Until I got on the shuttle bus to and from work, the whole person was absent-minded.

On the bus, Wang Yan sent the questions in her heart to her boyfriend. Su Peng's answer is "Go to work with peace of mind, don't think nonsense." Seeing Brother Peng's reply, I was very dissatisfied. But I can't say that I am not satisfied there, I only feel that the tacit understanding I once had is decreasing, maybe I have been in love for too long, and the relationship between them is changing in the direction of family affection.

The shuttle bus is moving, some people on the bus are chatting, some are calling their children, some are reading books, some are playing with their mobile phones, and some are leaning on the back of the chair to pretend to sleep. Wang Yan looked at the familiar scenery outside the window, and felt inexplicably irritable, she would really stay here for a lifetime and contribute to the journey with great time. Pick up the phone, look at the meager and WeChat's circle of friends. Dongzhu updated a status five minutes ago.

"I'm going to collapse." , also accompanied by a picture, a cartoon girl, lying on the ground, trying to struggle to stand up on all fours, but still weak. It reads, "Which kind man will save me." ”

Wang Yan edited a message to Dongzhu and sent it to Dongzhu. "Master Dong, what's wrong with you."

After a few minutes, Dongzhu replied; "Am I particularly useless, especially useless."

Seeing such a message, Wang Yan's heart was shocked, and she immediately sent a request for a voice call to Dongzhu. After the call was answered, there was a cry from the other side.

Dongzhu is crying, this is the first time Wang Yan has encountered it since she met Dongzhu, who is she? It's the owner. Why does Dong Ye cry?

"Makes you laugh." Dongzhu's slightly crying words, in the tone Wang Yan can taste the pride of the past.

"I won't laugh at you, I don't know how many times I've cried in front of you since I met you. You didn't laugh at me, and you said you wanted to be my dependence. If you want to cry, cry out loud, hold it in your heart, and you will get sick if you hold it for a long time. At this time, when Wang Yan's heart was thinking about relying on, the image that appeared was her mother. Wang Yan herself was surprised by her mother's visit, and the book once said that children generally rely on their fathers, and looking for future partners will be influenced by their fathers, and they will choose according to some similar characteristics of their fathers.

"I cried because of work, and when I was in school, I felt very strong and powerful. But since I came to work at the office, I feel useless. It is particularly useless. Dongzhu explained to Wang Yan.

After hearing this, Wang Yan thought of all the mistakes she made when she came here, and her mood changed with Dongzhu's words. Said to Dongzhu; "It's hard at the beginning, and so am I."

"I know it's hard at the beginning, but I still feel useless, very useless. People here always give you the idea that if you graduated from a prestigious university, you should be able to do anything, you are a decathlon, you are just getting in touch with things faster than others. I want to tell them that I also need to learn slowly, and when I was admitted to university, I would only go to a good university because I enjoyed the regional dividends. I told them, but they didn't believe me. I am a rookie living at the bottom of the unit, and the seniors and leaders above are thinking about how to make you sacrifice more time and energy to put into work without causing trouble to them. ”

After Wang Yan heard Dongzhu's words, she told her about what happened from the day of the report to this time. Listening to his own story, I suddenly realized how dissatisfied and disappointed I was with this job. To paraphrase what my mother once said to herself, this is a lifeless place, no matter how old people are after working here for a long time, they will be exposed to the dull atmosphere here, do things routines, innovation depends on leadership, superiors according to connections, capable people are typical, and mediocre people become cannon fodder.

Carrying forward the tradition of ranking the older generation according to seniority, the child speaks with irony from the lips of the seniors who are about to retire. You can only run out of time if you stay here, love is full of variables, and marriage is a glass bottle that can break at any time. This is the advice given to her by her uncle when she was just in her senior year, the first half of the sentence has been verified, and the second half of the sentence must be false. If you don't listen to the old man, you will suffer in front of you. There are times when the old man's words are false, but not all of them are true.

"Everyone has different kinds of suffering. I'm tired at this point. Just finished a project. The dog who was scolded by the boss was bloody, in exchange for half an afternoon and a night's rest. I have to go to work tomorrow morning. When I returned to my accommodation, the more I thought about it, the more I felt that I was very useless. From Dongzhu's words, it can be heard that her emotions have returned to calm.

"I'm still on my way home, and if I work the day shift, I don't know what I'm doing when I go out early and come home late. I don't know the meaning of doing something that a high school student can do. Although you are only an audit assistant, you are in contact with the review of receipts and payments, the receipt and inquiry of correspondence every day, etc. It's at least a bit technical compared to me. Wang Yan mixed her words with mockery of herself, she knew what kind of evaluation she would get if her words were heard by the seniors in the unit. It's the eagle flying outside, don't come back, stay here and still stand. I think I am an eagle, but in fact I am a pheasant, I don't fly high and I am jumping blindly, and I also pick a lot of people in a place where there are many people, and I kick up a cloud of dust, which is particularly annoying.

"Huh. Princess Yan, I know you're comforting me, you're so nice. I'm going to take the CPA exam in October. I plan to change my place of work after I get in. Take it easy, don't be so busy. ”

Dongzhu's words blew to another piece of Wang Yan's heart, Dongzhu can choose, she must stay here for the people she loves and the people who love her.

"Since you have a choice, it's fine, everything is open. Where is the road of life smooth sailing. I've arrived at the station, I need to get off the train, and I'll talk when I'm free in the evening. Wang Yan looked at the buildings outside and knew that the car had just entered her district, but she couldn't help but want to end the conversation with Dongzhu.

"I went to dinner and cried too hard. We'll talk again in the evening, and you'll come back to me when you're free. ”

Seeing the WeChat message sent by Dongzhu, Wang Yan breathed a sigh of relief inexplicably, and she didn't understand the source and source of this anger. Fear and avoidance dominated his actions just now, and the word regret that he did not admit in his heart had already been clearly engraved there, and no advanced technology could erase it.

"See you in the evening." And look for the "talk later" emoji in the emoji pack and send it over.

The shuttle bus was still advancing, and Wang Yan calmly enjoyed the comfort of her seat, waiting for the moment when she arrived at her destination. It's almost 18 o'clock now. More than 12 hours. That's the life I chose, and I had to try to adapt.