Su Xiao met Xia Zhi in July 2009, the summer vacation when he was about to enter his sophomore year.

As early as a week before the holiday, Su Yujie called him every day and urged him to go home. He was like a kite in her hand, as if he had finally left her, but he had never escaped her control.

Apart from constantly taking part-time jobs and participating in fellow travelers, he couldn't think of any other reason to postpone his return home.

Of course, he can also lie, there is no need to let himself be tired and tired, but whenever he hears Su Yujie's voice, he can't help but tighten his vocal cords, as if a trivial lie is gradually dragging him into the abyss.

The mother and son seemed to be pulling a rubber band and sawing, making him physically and mentally tired.

Will all women eventually live like Su Yujie? The smug woman in front of her will live like Su Yujie as a knife in the future? Su Xiao looked at the box of yogurt she forced into him, and inexplicably had such an association.

She wore a white sun-protective suit and a red cap pressed so low that no one in the crowd would notice her. But as she spoke to him, he noticed that her eyes were beautiful.

Large, bright, and flickering when speaking, the double eyelid lines are clear, so that the eyes will be beautiful to draw.

She asked him to take the box of yogurt and said, "I'm Xia Solstice, and now I'm no one else." Your mom didn't say you couldn't ask for the food given by the summer solstice. ”

It's really very domineering, how can such a girl be a social terrorist? It stands to reason that he is a social terrorist.

He clicked into her Weibo along the QQ information, her text was not as heartless as she looked, but delicate and moving, but there was an inexplicable loneliness lurking, and it grabbed him in an instant.

He suddenly felt that they were actually the same kind, two injured little beasts in the cage. What could he do for her?

Oh, he really overestimated himself, in fact, what can he do, he can't protect himself.

She's better than him. She is financially independent, independent in thought, and lives happily and freely. She's long since broken out of the cage. He is the one who needs redemption.

He was obsessed with the square words that typed out between her fingers, and her voice. From time to time, she would tease him and tease him, but she would make him extremely useful. She was like a beam of light, illuminating his college life, which was incomparably brilliant in disguise, but in fact extremely bleak.

"Su Xiao, the one on the phone with you is your girlfriend, right?" Zhang Linchang asked him with a thief smile after he hung up the phone.

Girlfriend? He cherished her, but he didn't think about it. to her, or to yourself.

Every girl who came close to him made him involuntarily want to get out of the way. The summer solstice is the exception, and that's all. He didn't want to escape, but he couldn't imagine any further contact.

Even being friends made him ashamed of his unworthiness. What an unbearable person he is, if Xia Zhi knew, he might also be disgusted with him, right?

To this day, he still often has nightmares.

He huddled under the basketball hoop with his head in his hands, their giggling laughter tearing at his eardrums. They passed the letter, reading it one by one, one by one. I don't know who started pulling at his clothes first...... The dream was still reality, like a fragment piercing into his heart.

He didn't want to blame Ling Xin for betraying him. He only blamed himself for why he had written such a letter.

He fabricated a non-existent robber to Su Yujie and the head teacher to explain the scars on his face and body. Su Yujie was heartbroken and agreed to his request to learn boxing.

From childhood to adulthood, Su Yujie enrolled him in a lot of training classes, and after knowing that he had a talent for painting, he even threw a lot of money to send him to learn to paint.

This was the first time he had asked to learn an extracurricular skill. To Su Yujie, he said that it was for self-defense, and for himself, he knew that it was useless to learn well, and it was difficult to beat four hands with two fists. The world is not friendly to the aliens. Zilang literature

Zhang Linchang's unintentional words rubbed him. They thought it was a girlfriend, and that was, at least, he wasn't an outlier to them.

He couldn't help but feel flustered, as if he had stolen something from hers and asked her to thank him constantly. He's a complete liar.

However, many years later, he realized that the palpitations at that time were not just due to panic. She has been running into his life since then, so that he can no longer live without her.

That was the first time he had drawn her. During the Lantern Festival in 2010, she sat in front of him, a lantern hanging above their heads, and she was motionless.

Su Xiao couldn't help but smile: "You take it easy." ”

Xia Zhi secretly stuck out his tongue: "I haven't painted a portrait, you can draw better." ”

"You're even better than I can draw." It was what he was saying, but she didn't believe it.

He put the poem "Bamboo Branches" that she had just written silently at the first garden stall next to the portrait.

"The sun rises in the east and rains in the west, and the road is sunny but sunny."

Writing this, he paused for a moment. The Tao is merciless...... But is there love? He subconsciously glanced at her, but met her praise: "Why are you so good-looking?" ”

"Is it pretty?" He hoped she hadn't noticed the heat on his face.

"Su Xiao, are you here to fall in love or to help with the work?" The shouting of his classmates broke the silence between the two, and he felt guilty, but he still had to force himself to compose.

What do you think in private, that's their business, but this kind of thing can't be said in front of Xia Solstice...... She's probably going to mind......

He was a milky child to her, how could she care about him?

He had heard her tell interesting stories about blind dates, and she was even more popular than he had imagined. Thinking that she was surrounded by different men, he was a little jealous.

She's going to love someone, she's going to have a boyfriend, she's going to get married. It has nothing to do with him, he's just a brother in name.

Even the slightest favor should not be. She didn't want to have that kind of relationship with him.

It's his fault, he shouldn't have let his roommates get his rumors of his "mysterious girlfriend" getting worse, and he's even a little carried away.

She pushed him away fiercely, "I beg you not to mention my name again, okay?" Do I know you well? I don't want my shadow in your life, I have nothing to do with you! I'm getting married, and I'm leaving Nanzhou soon. I'm not your white moonlight, I can't illuminate your future, I'm a poisonous jellyfish. Don't come to me again! ”

These words are very in line with her personality, and she can be so decisive to people she doesn't love.

This kind of heartache is not the same as the heartache when Ling Xin betrayed him. He couldn't tell him that it was any different, he was to blame anyway.

If he never sees him again, he will regret it, he will ...... Miss her.

She told him not to look for her again, and he didn't look for her. His QQ was blocked by her, and his phone number was still lying in the address book of his mobile phone, even if he changed his mobile phone later, he didn't delete it, but he never dialed it again.

But whatever can make her feel more comfortable, he is willing to do it, even if it is to leave.