Qiao Mu doesn't like to go to very lively places, it has been very difficult to have friends like us over the years, and often people say that she will be a little gloomy, and she pretends to be casual on the surface, cheerful and sunny, but I guess only I can understand, we also spent a long time trying to bring the original her back.

And what about Lin Xi? I have never let go of this sister, after all, Qiao Mu was born, premature, underdeveloped, and stayed in the incubator for a long time, but because of the relationship between her grandparents, Qiao Mu's mother has been lukewarm to Qiao Mu for many years, she doesn't hate it, and she doesn't necessarily like it.

But Qiao's mother is also the elder of Brother Xi's after all! And for so many years, it was Qiao's mother who funded his brother's family, even if he was grateful, he couldn't let him go to Qiao's mother in person and say that he should be a little better to Qiao Mu! Don't discriminate against girls, do you have to be boys? Why do you need to impose the unhappiness you received back then on your daughter? But he couldn't, because it was his little aunt, and he had to consider whether it was suitable or not.

So Brother Xi can only spend more time on Qiao Mu's body, let her try not to think about this, as long as she is not busy with work during the New Year's holidays, she will definitely take me and Qiao Xiaomu to go out to play, sometimes, I also think that Qiao Mu and I can be better for so many years, and they are basically the kind of friends who don't quarrel, if I want to quarrel, there is a high probability that Qiao Mu will automatically extinguish the fire, she is the kind of character who can't quarrel, and once there is a conflict, she will only apologize desperately, and then flee the scene, hide in the room, close the door, Maybe cry! However, I never heard a cry.

Actually, Qiao Mu was not like this when she was a child, she was also very lively, she also cried when she wanted to cry, laughed when she wanted to laugh, she was also the king of children!

She has been doing well before she was in junior high school, and I was in the same class as her from elementary school, although she transferred to another school and re-studied for another year to be in the same class as me, but she used timid eyes, clumsily stretched out her hand and said that she wanted to be friends with me, I was still stunned for a moment, and the next second, I shook hands with her, and in this way we became the best friends in the dead party.

Although, when she first returned to City A, she was not very accustomed to life here, and she was not very accustomed to the four distinct seasons of City A.

I also listened to her, the S city where she used to stay is the kind of city where the temperature does not change much, it is not hot but warm in summer, it is not cold but cool in winter, she also comes back, and she will get frostbite every winter, no matter how diligent she washes her hands, no matter how much clothes she adds, her hands are frozen red, and sometimes they will crack and suppurate. So everyone else has chilblain to buy medicine to apply, but she has to start prevention from the cooling in October, the aloe vera cream, antifreeze cream, banana peel mucus, and the juice steamed out of the shredded radish at hand are often prepared by her grandmother, but even so, her chilblain still comes to her every year, but sometimes it is early, sometimes it is when it is almost warm.

Even Brother Cheng would smile at her and say, "Qiaoqiao! Even if you cut off your hands now, the dog doesn't have to eat them, right? Why are you so miserable, you still have to prevent it for so long, you laugh at me, haha. ”

On the one hand, he felt that he could at least comfort Xiao Mumu psychologically, and on the other hand, he hoped that her hand could really hurry up! After all, severe chilblains, in the later stage, it is really cold, it will sting like a pinprick, and when it is hot, it will be unbearable itching, but you can't scratch it, otherwise you will be infected, and then repeat the course of the disease.

When I was a child, I was chubby, I would be tired and out of breath after a few moments of doing anything, and then I liked to eat very much, and the amount of food alone was several Qiao Xiao Mumu, and the boys and girls in the class would always dislike me for being fat, and they gave me a nickname, saying that I was a little pig, what to eat is not enough, and what not to do.

I'm not a bully, not only do I go back, but I also laugh at those people in turn, and then I am punished by the teacher to write a review, of course, sometimes Xiao Mumu helps me write it, because I always feel that writing a review is a waste of time and something that does not conform to my identity.

But Xiao Mumu never disliked me, she always secretly brought me snacks, at that time I didn't know, why she had so many snacks, but she gave them to me, I pulled her to eat together, that time was not necessarily my happiest days, but at least it was the most memorable time when she was a child, I often share with her, I encountered the troubles when I was a child, although every time I laughed the happiest first, and she would be taken by me to laugh.

Later, after graduating from elementary school, I was taken to school in other cities because of my parents' job migration, and she has been staying in City A to go to school, and I can only come back to see her during the holidays.

It wasn't until that time when she was hospitalized with a high fever that I realized that she wasn't really happy when I wasn't around her.

As before, she would bring snacks to school and share them with her classmates, even if the snacks were expensive imported products, she was never stingy. At that time, it had just been broadcast on the news that snacks were harmful foods. Therefore, it is mandatory in the school that no snacks bought at the commissary or snacks brought by one's own family are allowed to be eaten in the classroom, especially instant noodles, which are particularly flavorful, especially at the top of the rankings.

Once, when the discipline picket team of their school came to inspect the environmental sanitation of the classroom, the male classmates she gave snacks to were caught when they were eating, and they were scolded by the homeroom teacher because of this incident, and they also went to write a review, and because of this incident, the weekly mobile red flags in the class were also collected, so they were exempted from punishment, but those boys pushed this matter to Qiao Mu, saying that Qiao Mu brought the snacks and gave them a hard share, so they ate them. And those classmates who have been eating snacks on weekdays, few of them stood up to speak for Qiao Mu, and everyone was afraid of getting into trouble, so they would rather keep silent.

When the teacher asked Xiao Mumu, she didn't cry, but the tears kept rolling in her eyes, and explained in a whisper that the snacks were brought by her, but she didn't let them eat them during self-study, and she didn't bring them in the future.

But how much does the teacher care? just said to Xiao Mumu that she wanted to communicate with Qiao's mother about her studies, and by the way, she reflected the situation, and then said, "Mu Mu! The teacher knows that you are a good child, but this matter, after all, was caught by the school leaders, so it is not so easy to solve, you still have time to let your father or mother come to school! ”

Qiao Mu saw that there was no choice, so she had to discuss with Qiao's father after going home to see if he could let him explain, after all, if Qiao's mother knew, she would be miserable, and it was estimated that she would be beaten again. Originally, the next day, Joe's father was going to school.

But the unexpected situation is that the homeroom teacher was afraid that Qiao Mu would not dare to tell his parents about it, so he actually made a phone call and flew directly to Qiao's mother, Qiao's mother blew up directly when she heard the situation on the phone, and directly called Qiao Mu over, and scolded first: "Qiao Mu, you have grown yourself!" Secretly bring the snacks bought at home to school, and distribute them to the classmates, you say that you will share them, and let them eat them during class, and they are found out by the school leaders, your homeroom teachers are all affected by you, why are you so stupid! See I don't hit you. ”

picked up Qiao Mu, picked up the feather duster beside him, got into his hands, and scolded: "You can't divide it, you can't divide it, you can't divide it, those Lin Xi bought it for you!" It's not cheap, is it? You still go to divide people, how could I give birth to you! I,,I'll kill you.。。 ”

Although Qiao's father stopped him in the end, Qiao Mu was still beaten and cried, crying and shouting: "Mom, I don't dare, I won't, don't hit me, don't hit me, it hurts, it hurts." ”

When Qiao's father stopped Qiao's mother, he also asked Qiao Mu: "Eating snacks in class, did you instruct it, or did the boys do it themselves, you told your father to live clearly." ”

"No, it's not me, I just gave it to them, it's really not me, I really didn't do it, the teacher doesn't believe it, but I don't." Qiao Xiaomumu's indisputable answer made Qiao's father fall into deep thought.

After that, he pulled Qiao's mother and went back to his room, so that Qiao Mu didn't think about it, he would discuss it with her mother.

All I know is that the next day, Joe's mother asked Joe's dad to stay at home, and she went to talk to the teacher.

When Qiao Mu was called to the office by the old class again: "The teacher just said, it's okay, let her check that she doesn't have to write, and let her go home and don't think about it, just let this matter pass like this." ”

And when Qiao Mu went home, Qiao's father and Qiao's mother didn't mention it to her again, and her residual impression was that Qiao's mother went to find the teacher that day, and when she came back, she was blushing and angry, but because she didn't dare to listen to the corner, it wasn't clear what the two were talking about.

Qiao Mu may have been used to it, the impact of this matter, she sometimes looks like a contradiction, obviously she is very sad and sad in her heart, but she would rather put it in her heart, Qiao Mu made a call to Zhao Ruanya at that time, so that Zhao Ruanya could figure it out after a long time, but at that time she really thought she was joking: "Yaya! I'm not happy anymore, and I can't say what I'm unhappy about. Then he would change the topic again and again: "Yaya, I was joking just now!" That, Brother Yi bought snacks again, come to my house to taste them when you have time! I, I miss you. ”

I also found out later that she missed me, but in fact, she was sad and wanted to find someone to talk to her and relax, and she didn't have many friends, so the only one she could find was me or Brother Xicheng.

She also doesn't like to say this to her friends, she will feel that she is selling miserably, and the disgusting sympathetic look is not friendly at all in her opinion, but it has only increased, she has to answer the other party, she is obviously unhappy, but she has to return to her own troubles.

Later, when I went to see her again, she lost a lot of weight, looked thinner, and was also sullen, and when she talked to me, she didn't like to laugh as much as before.

I have also secretly observed her, when she is alone, she will always empty herself, and her eyes will not have the same spirit as before, and it is only when she faces me that she will squeeze out a little smile.

I sensed that something was wrong, she had never been like this, there must have been something going on that I didn't know about, and then she didn't tell me, although I noticed it, but I didn't dare to ask more, wondering if I could find any clues.

Once, I skipped class to go to her school to find her, Xiao Mumu was out of class, I came up, just about to say hello, I heard a boy in their class ask her to borrow a book, she said: "That book was bought for me by her brother Tedi, I, I haven't finished reading it, I don't want to borrow it, do you want to find Wang Qiuyu to borrow it!" Her book is a little more complete than her own. And you borrowed my books before, read them during class, and the teacher took them away, and you haven't compensated me for the books? I, I don't lend you. ”

But the boy didn't give up, and wanted to grab the book: "Yo! Qiao Mu! Isn't your brother going to buy it for you? What's wrong with you borrowing me this time, I won't return the book last time, you have the ability to go to the dean of academic affairs to get it yourself! I'm telling you, I'm going to have to get this book today, and if you don't borrow it, you have to borrow it. ”

Seeing Mu Mu being squeezed into the corner, still dragging the book in her hand, the classmates next to her didn't dare to come out to stop it, just wanted to rush up and curse, she suddenly stood up at the same table, and said that the teacher is here, everyone sit down, and in an instant all the students who watched the excitement slipped back to their seats after a play, but the teacher did not come, the boy just wanted to stand up, and when he scolded Qiao Muxiao's tablemate, the class bell suddenly rang, and he could only continue to sit down and wait for the teacher to come to class.

That little Mu Mu's little tablemate is none other than one else, it is the boy who didn't even Qiao Mu himself expected in the next ten years, and Qiao Mu was separated and entangled for more than ten years, Xia Hefeng.

I saw that someone had already solved the matter, and Qiao Mu was going to class, I didn't stay behind the door longer, but waited, until Qiao Mu came home from school, I stopped her, in her surprise, I told the matter, under my inquiry, Qiao Mu finally opened his mouth.

It turned out that in the previous snack incident, those boys were punished to read a written review in front of the whole school, but Qiao Mu didn't, so they hated Qiao Mu, although Qiao Mu never gave snacks to anyone later, they still came to Xiao Mumu every once in a while to find trouble.

And Xiao Mumu's classmates, who played better with her, were afraid of being affected, even if it was thankless, she might also be targeted, so she could only choose to be silent one after another, and act as an intimate little guide behind her, only her tablemate Xia Hefeng sometimes saw it and would get up to help her say a few words.

Qiao Mu originally thought it was nothing, so they could say it if they wanted to! She can't control others, just take care of herself, but after a long time, there are always a few flies buzzing in front of you, and sometimes they change their form and become mosquitoes to suck blood, Xiao Mumu slowly went from ignoring to explaining to being silent.

I became less and less talkative, and every time only when my two brothers or Cheng Xi came back, she would leak more expressions, and then tell us some situations, and she might not be able to take a detour.

We can only try our best to enlighten her, and she will always reply to us: "Good! I see! I'm fine! I'll do it, I won't think about it! Yaya, brother, just believe me! How can I be so vulnerable! Just kidding, I'm Qiao Mue! ”

I know that Xiao Mumu listened to these advices, but at the same time, there are still pimples left in my heart, I just hope that she can figure it out as soon as possible, don't hold it by herself, and she must say it if she is uncomfortable.

Even now, there are many people who suffer from depression, just because they want to think about things and think too much, and no one can listen to her well.

If you're not careful, you'll feel world-weary, and you'll feel that you're not needed! I don't think anyone understands me! I feel that everyone in my world is malicious, and I can't find a way to live in this world anymore, I'm so tired!

So, self-harm, suicide, one after another.

I finally went to the hospital to save it, and I found a psychiatrist to check it, and I was severely depressed.

And how this disease is formed, the patient himself may not be able to say why, the doctor replied the most, have you not noticed, her mood changes? She's so depressed, how long has it been since no one listened to her properly? Have you properly put yourself in her shoes and encouraged her instead of pouring cold water on her?

But I thought she was still very sunny and happy! You can't notice the change of a person, when she herself is already quietly changing, she can make a fake disguise, maybe one second she is chatting with you well, the next second she will hide in the corner, helpless, sad to death, but can't cry, can only be alone silently experience this feeling of loneliness.

There is no specific medicine for depression, it is a disease that can only be supported by the patient's own mental strength, and can only come out by itself, and the most effective external interference can only distract her and make her brain temporarily stop thinking about those things that are not conducive to her health.

Take them out for a walk! Give them a vacation for their body and mind, although this can only be used as a reference, but it is also the most effective method that I think Zhao Ruanya thinks.

Little Mumu! Don't worry, even if you don't talk to me often, I will definitely come to bother you often, and don't let you have time for other ideas, hehe! Brother Xi, I will help you take care of it, Xiao Mumu, don't worry!

Do I have to help Xiao Mumu and bully her terrible sister back, Qiao Wei!!

Well! It seems that I, Zhao Ruanya, am going to re-emerge.