Out of the door of the ward, Xia Zhi estimated that Xiao Yiqing should not be able to hear their conversation, so he turned to Cheng You and said, "For your marriage, Yiqing has suffered so much, you can do it yourself." She is not Yuan Jiayi, and she is not without relatives and no reason in Nanzhou. ”

Cheng You was silent for a moment, and he said, "I know." Summer solstice, you don't know anything about us. ”

Xia Zhi's gaze drifted to the handrail of the corridor, the smooth stainless steel reflected the light tube on the ceiling, of course she didn't know all the facts, but the image of Cheng You collapsed in her heart little by little.

She used to think that he was the best man in the world, he and Yuan Jiayi were the best pair, and when she stumbled on the road of love, their persistence was her benchmark for moving forward.

However they separated. She also tried to believe that even if she was empathetic, he and Xiao Yiqing were still a model couple in her circle of friends, and to some extent, her good friend had a good man who was unconditionally pampered and loved, and she was still happy for them.

But after this noon, all this seems to have changed imperceptibly.

No, it's not that the world has changed, it's that the world is the way it is, and it's because she imagined it too well. Cheng You is not what she imagined, any love is fake than Jin Jian, the crows in the world are just as black, how can there be any good man.

Xia Zhi didn't respond to Cheng You, she pulled Liang Lu through the corridor of the ward, which looked gray even when the lights were on, and left the hospital inpatient building full of the smell of Laisu water.

Liang Lu'an listened quietly to the simple but rich conversation between the two, and it wasn't until Xia Solstice took her to a café booth that she asked, "What's wrong with you?" ”

Liang Lu is not the kind of person with a big mouth, she can keep her secret, Xia Zhi thought about it and told her about meeting Yuan Jiayi at noon.

Liang Lu was also a little dazed when she heard this: "Do you think that Yuan Jiayi was forced to break up because of infertility?" ”

"I don't know, she takes all the blame on herself." Xia Zhi looked down at the coffee in the cup, she didn't put the bag of sugar in it, but took the spoon and stirred it unconsciously.

Liang Lu sighed softly and said: "Don't worry too much about other people's affairs, Cheng You is also right, every family has a scripture that is difficult to read, not the parties, they all don't have back pain." ”

"I'm a rabbit and a fox." Xia Zhi said.

She couldn't help but think about her own life. Yuan Jiayi's sentence "Heaven has reincarnation" wrapped around her ears like a spell. She didn't believe in this kind of god chatter, but real life really seemed to be dominated by some kind of mysterious power.

Xiao Yiqing is like this, and she herself is like this, Xia Jianfeng's words of "lonely old age" are still in my ears. Is it true that she will never find someone to know and love her in her life? The summer solstice is now full of doubts.

Liang Lu looked at her and said, "Xia Zhi, why do I think you are getting more and more pessimistic?" Aren't you Xiaoqiang who can't be killed? ”

"Obviously I'm not." Xia Zhi smiled. She never wanted to be strong, she just had nothing to rely on. Flying

Liang Lu shook her head: "You are too emotional." Be pessimistic and hopeless at every turn, you can't help other people's affairs, find more ways to improve your own living state. ”

"Isn't my life in a good state now?" With a stable job, she also works hard enough. Write some small articles that no one reads in your spare time, climb the mountain, visit exhibitions, watch movies, and enjoy it.

Liang Lu did not comment on her life, but talked about another thing: "There is an international talent exchange program in the school, and I need a teacher of Chinese as a foreign language, and I will go to the United States for five years, so I signed up. ”

Xia Zhi was slightly stunned, she hadn't heard Liang Lu say this: "Did you choose you?" ”

"Not yet." She took a sip of her coffee and continued, "...... I happened to run into that incident after that, so I signed up. But I didn't have much hope, after all, I was the least senior in the academy, and I didn't make any achievements. ”

In this way, Xia Zhi understood why Liang Lu was stumbling on topics and papers during this time, and it was rare to see her even on weekends. Xia Zhi said: "But you must be the hardest. ”

"I can't help but try." Liang Lu's expression made Xia Zhi feel a little sad, "Among the four people in our dormitory, Cao Limei is silent, but she is naturally suitable for the podium." Xiao Yiqing Needless to say, she only has her heart and can do everything well. And you, Xia Solstice, you are the most maverick talent in the Chinese Department of our Nanshi 02 level, you are very talented, but you always look down on yourself.

"Only I am truly useless, and if I don't work hard, I have no future. In the past few years of studying for a master's degree and a doctorate, everyone is not optimistic about me, and they all think that I will not be able to get a certificate. You don't know how much I suffered before I ended up slapping everyone in the face. ”

"Liang Lu, I know ......"

"You don't know. When I was the most uncomfortable, you were in the small county town of Taicheng, which was the size of a palm, and you had the dream of being satisfied with marrying Pan Rui. I always thought you were the most ambitious one in our dorm, but you were depressed for a man who didn't deserve you at all. ”

"Why is he not worthy of me, his family still thinks I am not worthy of him." Xia Zhi laughed at himself.

Liang Lu said: "Why do you want to use his family's position as the standard? His family thinks that a 9-to-5 preparation job is superior, and a good daughter-in-law is a good daughter-in-law who obeys her husband's words and obeys her in-laws.

"I'm not saying that they have a problem with this kind of values, everyone's values are different, some people are suitable for peace and stability, and some people are suitable for being a gentle little daughter-in-law. And you, Xia Zhi, you are born to be the kind of person who wants to break through the rivers and lakes, and you have to fight on the battlefield to realize your own value.

"I still remember when the Literary Society was half-dead, how you dragged it up with your tenacity, this is you. You can't live a whole life of tepidity. ”

"Haven't I already achieved my dream?" Xia Zhi was not asking Liang Lu, but asking himself, "I did my favorite writing work and supported myself with a pen." In fact, she felt that she had never had any big ideals.

"Probably, if you think it's satisfying to be in a small book company that is likely to go out of business in the near future, and to produce a couple of two-page reference books when housewives are fine, then I didn't say it." Since Liu Hu's incident, Liang Lu has not commented on a certain matter so sharply for a long time.

And something similar, not long ago, Xia Zhi also said it to Su Xiao. It's just that it's much easier to say this kind of thing to others than to implement it yourself.