After a while, Qin also knocked on Hu Pan's door with a laptop.

Hu Pan sneakily looked out of the crack in the door before pulling Qin Ye in.

As soon as she entered the house, she saw the foam all over her body and the second dog jumped out like a missile, she took the foot pad under the belly of the second dog and unloaded the force, reached out and pinched the back of its neck and lifted it, "How did you raise this cat like a dog?" ”

Hu Pan stretched out his hand to take it and went into the bathroom, and then bathed the second dog.

Qin also moved a small bench and followed in, "What did you just call me over to teach?" ”

Hu Pan's hand scratched a few times on Ergou's head, and the kitten rolled his eyes comfortably, "Teach you to pick it up and put it down." Don't let others throw on their faces like me when the time comes, and don't even dare to wipe it. ”

Qin also sat up straight, frowned, and said, "I haven't asked you today, what's going on with your ex-boyfriend?" If he continues like this, it will affect your normal life. ”

Hu Pan glanced up at her, then looked down at the second dog in his hand, and suddenly smiled, "You may not know, I may be a crazy person if I can laugh in this situation." ”

Qin also sighed and closed his computer, "I've had schizophrenia, and now I haven't gotten any medicine yet, even if you're crazy, it's a small matter to me." She paused and whispered to Hu Pan, "There's wine in the refrigerator, do you want to drink some?" ”

Hu Pan glanced at her with a little disgust and shook his head, "Forget it, you still have to go to school tomorrow." ”

Qin also thought that Hu Pan was not going to say it, there were too many gloomy clouds in her eyes, but they were always covered with a sunny face, but the gloomy clouds always had to rain out to shine in the spring sky.

Hu Pan packed up his things and showed Qin Ye two photos to her, which were a photo of a fifteen or sixteen-year-old girl wearing a Hua Dan costume with long hair scattered.

The face has just been removed, a girl who is plain and moist, with a goose egg face Ruifeng eyes hanging gall nose, red lips and white teeth, and a generous and good-looking appearance.

Qin also flipped over and saw a few words written on the pale blue ballpoint pen behind the photo - Hu Pan, 2013. 9.17

It should have been many years, and the hands around the photo have been a little yellowed, and it doesn't seem to have been a long time, and you can still ask about the fragrance of the ballpoint pen when you get closer.

Qin also carefully held the photo in the palm of his hand and put it back in its place.

She didn't speak, she knew that Hu Pan would say it herself.

"I used to look like this until I went to college, and I thought I would sing for the rest of my life." She took the photo as if she was looking at the events of her previous life, "Later, I learned that not everyone can stand firmly on that platform for a lifetime, I thought I was a person who stood up to the sky, and later I learned that academics, parents, friends, any movement can make people unable to get up in this life." ”

Hu Pan's voice was slow and leisurely, she was like an old man telling a past story when she was young, but she just shook it away in her spare time to show others, and she didn't care anymore.

But who can really say that the past doesn't care, in the end it's just a matter of forgetting.

I think forget it, there's no point in that, why do you have to compete with yourself?

To put it bluntly, it is to spare yourself.

Hu Pan said a lot that day, that ex-boyfriend was the person Hu Pan had been secretly crushing on when he was a girl, he studied well, had a good family, looked good, and had a good face, so he was not necessarily a good person.

To put it bluntly, it's a good thing.

Most of the people who look good will be a little arrogant, a little ugly and fat, and the former arrogance will immediately turn into a double inferiority complex, and the storm will hit you, so that you can't hide.

When Hu Pan first came to Switzerland for graduate school, she met her girlhood crush on campus.

For a moment, Hu Pan even felt that he might be the heroine of a romance novel, and from then on, he could start a Mary Sue romance with that person forever.

But the novel didn't tell her that the heroine couldn't be a dead fat man, she couldn't be a veterinarian who got a knife when she sterilized a cat, and it couldn't happen to a girl like her who wore a white coat like a pork dealer.

But there is a good saying, what you think you think is what you think!

Hu Pan's WeChat profile picture on her mobile phone at that time was a photo of her wearing a school uniform in high school.

When she went to follow the boy secretly, she used various means to get the boy's WeChat.

Since then, I have been dreaming.

The advantage of the network is that you can use all your imagination to infinitely match the person on the other end of the network cable with your aesthetic point. As long as you can't meet each other, she will be your goddess for the rest of her life.

But there will always be a day when they meet, Hu Pan at that time was not very clear-headed, full of unrealistic fantasies about male gods, and pressed all the virtues that human beings can have on him.

When two people with unrealistic fantasies meet at the same time, you can imagine how awkward that scene is.

Boys are embarrassed by girls' appearances and disgusting but can't say it directly, and girls are obsessed with boys' appearance but don't know it.

The man even spoke to his roommate before leaving, saying that he would not marry this girl in this life.

Right now, it's starting to feel hard to swallow.

Hu Pan told Qin Ye that the boy told her that he wanted to talk about love for a month first.

As a result, under Hu Pan's forced buying and selling, it dragged on for a year without a score.

She actually knew that it was just a dream when she was young, and what she liked was the man's shell and his angry laughter.

So even if she broke up and was dumped in public, she didn't say anything, in the final analysis, it was her own business, she was in a hurry to entangle others, and let her family be called a lover by her classmates.

If you delay yourself and drag down others, the gains outweigh the losses.

The day before the breakup, Hu Pan took the bus home with the boy after school as usual.

As usual, the boy didn't sit next to her, and the stranger only left her with the back of her head, Hu Pan looked at the back of her head that day, and she thought, he doesn't like me at all, so what about me? Do I like him even a little?

I didn't seem to like it much, but I broke up the next day......

Hu Pan patted his fleshy face, and said to Qin, "In the end, I don't have a face and don't pee, what kind of virtue does I have to take pictures of myself." She sighed decadently, "So, Xiaoye, you have to figure it out, whether you like him now or a Wang Zhili of your own imagination, you have to think clearly." ”

Qin also leaned back in the rocking chair, swaying up and down, looking forward with a somewhat empty look, "I know what kind of person he is, the turtle hair poisonous tongue is self-centered, and he guards his little thing every day for the ancestors to study endlessly." "But I'm the same kind of person as he is, no different." I'm not much better than him, and I'm sick. ”

Hu Pan, "You say that, I feel that Wang Zhili seems to be a little at a loss......"

Qin Ye, "Alas! ”

Hu Pan raised his eyebrows, "Okay, okay, okay, I know." ”

Qin Ye couldn't straighten up with a smile, and walked over to lie down next to her, "Hey, why is your bed so much softer than mine?" ”

Hu Pan, "Hey, hey, hey." ”

Qin also grabbed a few handfuls on her waist, "Say, did you change my bed?" ”

Hu Pan, "Hey, hey, hey." ”

"Aren't you? How can you do this to me? ”

"There's an old saying that friends are meant to sell."

"I'll fuck your uncle! Hurry up for me to get up and make room for me, and go up and beat my legs!" ”

Hu Pan hurriedly sat up, put Uncle Qin's leg on his lap, and knocked it with a dog's face.

"Alas, what are you going to tell your brother about you and Wang Zhili?"

Qin also yawned, decadent like an old man, "Ouch, you're really going to have a problem." Do you know about your garden baby incident two days ago, he went to my house to do ideological work for me, and first met for half an hour. I'm so scared of him. ”

Hu Pan thrashed more and more, the little fat hand kicked upside down like a small mallet, she said while hammering, "Qin Ye, is there something wrong with you?" Her hand slowly stopped, "You two have just confirmed the relationship, shouldn't you go to Wang Zhili?" Why are you coming to me? ”

"Because your big bed is comfortable." Qin also hummed and rolled on the bed.

Hu Pan grinned and glanced at Qin Ye, who had no image at all, "Don't go to him, you are like a maggot, don't scare people away." ”

Qin Ye, "Fart, the old lady is as beautiful as a fairy." ”

Outside the window, a little snow fell, and there was no moonlight in the night sky, and it was as black as a sack that covered the whole house inside, and the black pressure could not be seen at a glance.

Everything seems to be quiet, forever buried in the dirt beneath the sky.

Early the next morning, Hu Pan shook Qin Ye up first, went out by himself, and followed Jesus out to run five laps around the front and back alleys like a dog being walked.

Tired and sweaty, he came back and took a bath, and after shaking Qin, who was already half awake, he continued to shake it a few times and completely woke it up.

Then carrying his small schoolbag on his back, he carried Qin Ye, who had just washed his face and was so sleepy that he was empty, and walked out.

Outside the house, Jesus and Wang Zhili were brushing the car, and Hu Pan was running out of the house.

Jesus glanced at her, "Isn't it Saturday today, why are you carrying your school bag?" ”

Hu Panmei ran out without looking back, "Accept the baptism of knowledge." ”

Jesus stopped what he was doing and propped himself on the car with one hand, "Can't you, she doesn't even bother to write her homework, and she is still a baptism of knowledge?" ”

Wang Zhili glanced at Jesus, and twisted his face to the side unappetizingly, "People are too lazy to write, you think everyone is like you." ”

"You're breaking my heart."

Wang Zhili wiped the car window, "That heart of yours is like that mobile phone screen." Every time you think it's broken, it's actually just the outer layer of tempered film. ”

After speaking, he walked away with the bucket.

Jesus was left alone in the cold morning wind......

I can't live this day.