The graduate school entrance examination is over, and Christmas is coming.

The last time I got together with Shi Lei, I couldn't say that I was happy, I couldn't say that I was unhappy, I always felt that something was missing, and I threw the pot on the reason for graduating from college and entering society, and my heart suddenly opened up.

Christmas, I am a person, obviously not a single dog, but still like a single dog. The continuous long-distance relationship made Wang Yan forget some of the moments together. In the eyes of some people, they broke up in a clear and disembodied way, and the real reality still has no way to isolate the unique connection between them. After Wang Yan replied to a picture with "Merry Christmas" written on WeChat, she couldn't find a reason to continue sending messages, and inexplicably pressed the pause button on many things, and her thoughts grew wildly in her mind. I don't want to discuss the truth that the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment, the right or wrong, the truth or falsehood, understand and accept the glass slag in my heart. Comfort yourself that the world is beautiful, but you still have to accept the truth of the existence of darkness. Selfishness and selfishness wander in the mind, endless thoughts licking the bleeding wounds.

Sitting on a chair in the locker room, casually fiddling with the tiger pill that has been kept in the locker all the time, striking the vision with green, praying in my heart that such behavior will calm me down and not continue to make mistakes during work. The people in the same class will put up with your first and second, and will never be able to accept your third. There weren't just three mistakes made today. When adding, the wrong place was added, but fortunately, the bag was found when it was not untied. It should be done with a dry wipe to remove most of the polymer, and then with a damp rag. As a result, as soon as I came up, I wiped it with a damp rag, and the polymer appeared like a snot when it met water, which instantly became more difficult to deal with, wasting a lot of labor and time. Xu Shuzhen couldn't stand it, Wang Yan's condition was frequent, and she was called back to the monitoring room to arrange for her to write information. Usually serious people become Ma Daha, and low-level mistakes touch people's laughter, and also affect the helplessness in their hearts. I picked up the wrong lunch box when I went to the cafeteria to pick up my meal at noon. When the gate was closed, the wrong key was taken. Ordinary things will happen to Wang Yan in different situations and different mistakes. The colleagues around me see all kinds of things in their eyes, and the questions accumulate in their hearts to the critical point, and it becomes natural to ask.

"Wang Yan, what's wrong with you today? An absent-minded look. When Wang Yang asked the question, part of Xu Shuzhen's attention also shifted here.

"Me. I didn't think much. After answering, Wang Yan's mind was blank and her heart was empty. There are no superfluous words to spit out, and there is a faint feeling that it should be explained that the word rusty blocks the next behavior.

The sudden anomaly was tolerated by Wang Yang and Xu Shuzhen, and the state of the walking dead should be ended by the end of the day. Imagination is generally beautiful, reality is generally cruel.

Christmas Eve, December 24. Sending out a series of messages and getting no response, using mobile phones to suppress the urge to drop the phone for a very expensive reason, longing turned into reluctance. Lonely and lonely and don t want to continue in life, belonging to a single dog, Christmas Eve is still shrouded in Wang Yan, the word understanding makes the nail in the body corrode and deepen, and the pain hits some of the once insistences, looking in the direction of prayer.

Working the night shift at Christmas, the mistake of not sparing the absent-minded, is a real case of God being equal to everyone. The timing is wrong. Resulting in going out an hour earlier than usual. Wang Yan can only sit in the transfer station and wait, and the days with mobile phones will not be particularly boring. Someone once said that if you suddenly change your itinerary, something unexpected will happen. For Wang Yan, there are no unexpected things, but unexpected people have met one.

Braids, buns, faces. She's still in the city. A few days ago, a gossip spread in the unit that the captain asked for annual leave in order to go back to his wife's hometown to pick up people. I just saw a photo posted in the captain's circle of friends, and the positioning is thousands of miles away. And here she is, there must be some stories connected between the two, and these stories. The two thoughts in my mind want to merge, thinking about how to eliminate my sense of existence, and the information in the hands of the insider is not necessarily a bargaining chip for the upper position, and it is likely to become a life-killing talisman that accelerates death, such a statement is a bit exaggerated here, but it can be described with two appropriate words. In this empty place, in the corner of hundreds of empty seats, where only one person sits, the possibility of eliminating the sense of presence is almost zero. In my heart, I thought about how to reduce my own risks, and I could learn about gossip to the greatest extent to complete the story that had been entrenched in my head for months.

"Little sister, long time no see." With a smiling face, kindness and kindness, magnifying the emptiness and fear in Wang Yan's heart.

"Long time no see. Sister Xu. Curiously looking at the person in front of her, the down jacket just covered her ankles, slender but not bloated, covering her figure. More than two months ago, she was pregnant. The face that has not changed, breaking the traditional perception of pregnant women, or the child has long been lost.

"Xiao Xu, give you money, and what is written on this list is that we need the type and number of bean bags here. When will you be able to do it well. "This is the aunt who cleans in the transfer station, and she witnesses a business by herself according to this posture.

"I'll get it to you as soon as possible, a week at the latest. The handmade bean bags are made from things grown in their own fields, which are pure and natural. Therefore, please understand that it takes a long time. The words slid on the ground neatly and splashed out, still able to line up neatly.

"Understood. I know what you sell at home is all natural. I'll buy it. You're a pregnant woman, and it's not easy to run around in winter. Let's add WeChat, what do I want to buy, contact you online, you don't have to come to a trip. ”

"My mom said that pregnancy requires proper movement to help with childbirth. I just ran errands and wasn't tired at all. ”

"It's good that you're measured. We women, to protect yourself, you just have a sense of proportion. ”

"I agree to your request to be a friend, let's talk online. Good bye. ”

"Goodbye." After the aunt finished speaking, she left the room and went upstairs. Wang Yan listened to the two of them talking a little distractedly, forgetting what she wanted to leave here just now. The embarrassment of a mouse meeting a cat is the result of self-inflicted suffering.

"Little sister, did you hear it just now?"

What I said just now was a transaction of buying and selling things, and there was nothing special. "I hear you."

Xu Ting spoke with a sincere face. "Please don't say you've seen me. Don't talk about the kids either. ”

Child. Just now. The details were automatically ignored by Wang Yan, and after such a mistake was known by her uncle before, she would be taught a lesson, and now that no one has to point out, there is a vacant place in her heart.

"Oh. Sister Xu, don't worry. ”。

Leaving without taking away a cloud, the traces left behind planted a seed in Wang Yan's brain, and after the seed germinated, it should be a different scene.