(101) There is no choice
In this place where no one can see himself, Qin Junchi, who has been depressed for a long time, finally cried happily without any scruples, as if he wanted to cry out all the pain and troubles in his heart. After a while, Qin Junchi finally stopped his tears, raised his head and let go of the steering wheel, leaned his weak body on the seat, he felt that he had a headache unbearable, so he took out a cigarette and lit it and smoked, wanting to calm down his mood as soon as possible.
In fact, when he drove away, Qin Junchi kept looking at Jingrou who was standing at the gate of Yao's house in the rear mirror, and he didn't start to accelerate the car until he couldn't see her figure anymore. Therefore, the disappointment and sadness on Jingrou's face at that time, Qin Junchi saw it all in his eyes without omission.
Qin Junchi knew that his actions just now would definitely make Jingrou sad, and he also knew that Jingrou must be looking forward to being able to reconcile with her, and he knew that Jingrou, who couldn't get a response from him, would definitely be disappointed in himself, and with her character, she should never come to him again.
Although this is what Qin Junchi wants to achieve today, he also hides himself without any flaws in front of Jingrou, making her convinced that she no longer cares about her. But now that he is out of everyone's sight, Qin Junchi can finally take off all his disguises and vent all the emotions in his heart defenselessly, he still feels sad and has a feeling of pain.
has been in love for so many years, and has worked hard for so many years, but in the end, he can only do his best to act in front of Jingsoft, in order to let the woman he loves the most leave him. This feeling is really painful and torturous, but for the sake of the little woman in his heart, Qin Junchi is willing to bear all this. Because Qin Junchi feels that this is what he should do as a man, who makes himself love her so much, wants to protect her so much, and hopes that she can live happily!
Thinking of this, Qin Junchi's mood slowly regained his calmness, he no longer felt so painful, and when he saw Jingrou today, he felt that his choice was right, and everything he did was worth it. Because Qin Junchi felt that only by letting go of himself could Jingrou live more easily and truly stay away from those pains and disputes.
Throwing away the cigarette butts and wiping the tears from his face, Qin Junchi regained his spirits, started the car and went straight to the provincial capital. As soon as he drove to the provincial capital, Qin Junchi sent the rented car back to the rental company, and then he took the bus back to Qin's house.
When he walked to the door of his house, Qin Junchi stretched out his hand and knocked on the door, Qin's mother quickly opened the door for him, and planned to go back to his bedroom to rest, but Qin's mother stopped him with a smile: "Junchi, have you been to Yao's house today, have you seen the baby, has Jingrou come back?" ”
Listening to his mother's series of questions, Qin Junchi knew that her old man must be worried, so he had to turn around and sit down and say to Qin's mother with a smile: "I'm going, isn't it going to be the New Year!" The baby has been taken care of by the Yao family, and I have nothing to say for such a long time, but today I specially bought some New Year's goods and sent them to the Yao family. ”
When Qin's mother heard this, she eagerly asked her son, "Is the baby okay?" Tell me if Jingrou is back? Don't let me be in a hurry! ”
Qin Junchi still pretended to be stupid and replied with a smile: "Well, the baby is very good, he has grown a lot taller!" Jingrou is also back, and she has changed a lot, hehe, she looks pretty good! ”
Qin's mother became even more anxious at this moment: "Then have you had a good talk with Jingrou?" Taking advantage of such a good opportunity for the New Year, aren't you going to bring them back to me? ”
The smile on Qin Junchi's face disappeared all of a sudden, and he couldn't help but sigh and said, "Jingrou just came back, she still has to accompany her family, how can she bring the baby back with me?" For the Chinese New Year, you can't let the family have a good reunion! ”
Mother Qin couldn't pick out anything else when she said this, so she looked at her son and thought about it again and said, "Well, yes, it seems that I'm too anxious!" Okay, I see you're tired too, so sit down and rest for a while! ”
Qin Junchi said "um", and sat directly on the sofa and smoked. Qin's mother, who was standing in place, looked at her little son with a worried look, and she couldn't help but feel a little sad in her heart.
Qin's mother knew that her son was perfunctory with his words, he must not have talked to Jingrou, otherwise, Jingrou would definitely bring the baby to see them. Although she understood it in her heart, Qin's mother was unwilling to expose her son, after all, in their relationship, it was her son who was at fault first. Since the divorce, the youngest son has never been happy, even if he doesn't want to Qin's mother, he knows that the youngest son's heart must have been painful, he just doesn't want to say it.
Looking at her little son's depressed appearance every day, Qin's mother, who is a mother, has never felt good in her heart, but she can't help much if she is in a hurry, so she can only carefully persuade her son, hoping that he can take the initiative to chase Jingrou back quickly.
Qin Junchi, who wanted to go back to the room to rest, saw that Qin's mother looked like she wanted to speak and stopped, he knew that his mother must have seen the perfunctory in his words, so he had no intention of resting, and he didn't want to be entangled in the topic just now with Qin's mother.
Qin Junchi stood up and walked towards the door, and said to Qin's mother: "I went to my brother's store to have a look, and I have been busy with my own affairs, and I didn't go to his store to sit." Mom, you and Dad have dinner first, don't wait for me to have dinner, I may come back late! ”
Mother Qin saw that her son looked like she wanted to escape, and she didn't feel good about saying anything more, so she only said: "Then you go, you all come back early to rest." ”
Qin Junchi said yes and walked out of the house, then closed the door with his backhand, and walked through the street downstairs, he walked to his brother's barbecue restaurant in a few steps, and walked into the door to see that there were two tables of guests eating in the store at the moment.
Sister-in-law Song Han heard someone open the door and came in, so she greeted her from the kitchen, and when she saw that it was her brother-in-law Qin Junchi coming, she immediately smiled and said, "Junchi, you are a rare customer, why do you have time to come to the store today?" ”
Qin Junchi smiled a little embarrassedly and said, "Sister-in-law, I'm sorry, I patronized and went to work, and I couldn't help you well, don't blame me!" ”
Song Han laughed and said, "What are you talking about, without you, where would we come from a barbecue restaurant!" You haven't eaten yet, I'll ask your brother to get you two side dishes, and you two can have a good drink! ”
Qin Junchi immediately said with a smile: "Then thank you sister-in-law first, I happen to be really hungry!" ”
"You're welcome!"
After Song Han finished speaking, he turned around and went back to the kitchen to work, and after a while, Qin Junshan walked out of the kitchen with two steaming side dishes and two bottles of beer, and smiled happily, he beckoned Qin Junchi to sit in the corner of the store with him, and the brothers chatted while eating and drinking without being polite.
As soon as Qin Junchi sat down, he drank a glass of beer in one gulp and said, "Big brother, how is your business lately?" ”
Qin Junshan also drank a glass of beer directly and said: "It's average, although there are not many guests, but it's finally every day, what about you, how are you doing?" Although our brothers live together every day, they never see you, in fact, my brother has long wanted to ask you! ”
Qin Junchi shook his head a little stunned and said, "Alas, it's still the same, there is no progress at all. I've been looking hard for opportunities, but unfortunately I still don't have any opportunities to get promoted quickly! ”
The brothers were a little depressed and couldn't lift their spirits, and drank in silence for a while, and finally Qin Junshan spoke first: "It's the end of the year now, and your company should also rest, have you taken advantage of the holiday to go to Yao's house to see my little niece?" ”
Qin Junchi nodded with a reluctant smile and said, "Well, I just went to Yao's house today, and the baby has grown a lot taller!" ”
Qin Junshan immediately came and asked, "Brother and sister should also come back, right?" Did you see her at Yao's house? ”
Qin Junchi became listless all of a sudden, and he drank a glass of beer before nodding and saying, "Well, I'm back, I've already met." ”
As soon as Qin Junshan heard this, he immediately put down his wine glass, he looked at his depressed younger brother a little nervously and said, "Brother and sister aren't leaving this time, are they?" Have you had a good talk? ”
Qin Junchi drank another glass of beer without saying a word, and then sighed and said, "I don't know, I didn't ask her." ”
Qin Junshan raised his voice all of a sudden, he really felt that his younger brother had done too badly, and he really wanted to wake him up with a slap: "I didn't even ask this, so what are you going to do, aren't you ready to remarry your younger brother and sister?" ”
Qin Junchi's eyes instantly filled with tears: "Big brother, just the way I am now, the way our family is, what qualifications do I have to talk to her about remarriage, isn't that harming her!" ”
Qin Junshan suddenly became speechless, but after being silent for a while, he said a little excitedly: "What do you mean by this, ready to give up?" ”
Being told by his brother that he was in his heart, Qin Junchi drank the beer in the cup again with some pain, and then said very frustratedly: "I don't want to be a drag on her, now I have no choice but to give up!" ”
The two brothers fell silent again, and at this time, Song Han, who was standing at the kitchen door and had been eavesdropping on their chat, pouted and walked over and said, "Look at you brothers, this is useless!" Could it be that Jun Chi left Yao Jingrou and couldn't live? Junchi, don't worry, sister-in-law must hurry up and promise to help you find a good girl! ”
Qin Junchi immediately waved his hand at Song Han and said, "Sister-in-law, you better forget it, I don't have that mind at all now, and when our family's situation is a little better in the future, let's talk about it!" ”
Song Han continued unwillingly: "Then when do you have to wait, you can't always be alone, right?" This matter is wrapped up in my sister-in-law, and my sister-in-law does what she says! ”
Qin Junchi stopped talking, his mind was not on this matter at all, and he didn't bother to argue with Song Han, so he drank beer one by one without saying a word.