Su forgot to worry about it, when her parents gave her this name, it was said that they hoped that she would forget all her sorrows and grow up happily, because she had a childhood that looked a little unusual, but the incidence was becoming more and more frequent: someone gave birth to her, but did not want her, as for the reason, it is still unknown.

Of course, she won't be entangled in this matter, but the second elder in the family will take it out and say it when he has nothing to do, when she first listens to it, she always feels that childhood is a miniature novel, and if you listen to it too much, it will become an unappetizing bloody drama.

Growing up for 28 years, thanks to the name given by my parents, although she is not good at communicating with people, she can be regarded as carefree, including her luggage with large bags and small bags to work hard in the big city, which is also quite smooth.

But there is a saying that people's luck is limited, and the day of squandering is really gone, under asking herself, she lives honestly, and she really can't talk about squandering, but this year, a series of unlucky things are more diligent than the eldest aunt, and it is simply like a shadow.

I also tried to bring a cross on my body, but the result was no change, and then I thought about it carefully, maybe God couldn't work in China, so I went to the temple and bowed three times and asked for a talisman, and the result was ......

When Su Wangwu was lying on the operating table in the obstetrics and gynecology department, she suddenly felt that any god and any Buddha were as unreliable as the couple who gave birth to her who might as well have taken those few minutes for a walk.

"Have you thought it through, wait for the anesthetic to go in, but there is nothing, and it will be too late to regret it." The doctor, who was in his forties in a white lab coat, repeated it reluctantly, with an expression of hatred, as if he wished to hear her say no.

Su Wangwu moved a somewhat indecent posture and shook his head: "I think clearly." ”

The doctor finally gave up and began her broken thoughts: "You are the first child, and the eldest is not small, why didn't you give birth, you girls, you just don't know how to cherish yourself, since you don't want children, why don't you take good measures, since you have it, why do you want to kill it......"

The doctor said a lot to herself, her consciousness gradually blurred, and she could no longer hear what was said later.

In fact, she doesn't know why, for example, she still doesn't know why she broke out of love inexplicably not long ago.

Why didn't she want to leave this innocent life, although she was 28 years old, she joined the ranks of leftover women a month ago, why did she say she joined, because before this, she still had a boyfriend, her boyfriend's name was Qin Weiming, he was an IT engineer, a talented and talented, and when they met for the first time, it made her moved.

After knowing each other for seven days and dating for a year, I am glad that I finally took off the title of leftover girl, and I am ready to surprise my parents in the countryside to see this very good future son-in-law, so that when the rest of the village is jealous and jealous, it is like a dream, and the bamboo basket wakes up empty.

Without any warning, without saying hello, her boyfriend, oh no, it should be an ex-boyfriend, suddenly disappeared, the QQ avatar has always been dark, the phone has been turned off countless times, and finally had to go to his unit.

"Qin Weiming? I quit my job here two weeks ago, and I heard that I went abroad. The kind-hearted colleague told the truth, but showed a puzzled expression on his face: "Why haven't I heard that he has a girlfriend, this kid is really tight, why, he didn't tell you when he went abroad?" ”

I clearly remember how he ran away from his unit at that time, it was still raining lightly outside, and he forgot to play the umbrella, so he just ran hard until he couldn't run anymore, squatting under the eaves of a corner, the rain mixed with tears kept flowing, and he couldn't wipe it clean, and he shivered and took out his mobile phone from his pocket, and looked at the text messages with him.

Suddenly a wry smile, well, okay, oh...... It never seemed like he had ever sent more than three words back to a text message......

In the next few days, she spent the nightmarish in a muddy nightmare, cried until her tears dried up while covering the quilt at night, and stared at her red and swollen eyes like no one else during the day to go to work as usual, but in just a few days, she lost several pounds.

No wonder they all say that lovelorn injuries are the best way to lose weight.

Attentive colleagues finally noticed her abnormality, and they also worked hard to enlighten her, but this kind of thing is clear to the authorities and bystanders, and others can't enlighten her.

After a few days of grief and sorrow, she suddenly understood such a truth, that is, there is still an essential difference between men and women in their attitudes towards love, women are easy to regard love as the whole of life, and in layman's terms, it is easy to eat love as cooking.

And men are different, maybe the love is not deep, maybe it is more rational, or maybe it is that men are born with more ruthlessness than women, in the treatment of love this kind of thing, quite a matter of course, love is only a part of him, or a very small part, he thinks that when it is important, you are important, but when he thinks it is not important, when you need to make a trade-off, the concept of the so-called you are part of him has become a long nail, or something like earwax.

How pathetic!

This is the most profound truth that Su Wangwu has realized in the past 28 years, and it can be regarded as a sad lesson, if it is a meddler, it doesn't matter if he dies, he can still fall out of love clearly, what is this? disappeared inexplicably, leaving her with only a confused ending?

Because of the environmental impact of the family, I was afraid of falling in love, because I was afraid of being abandoned, I was afraid of being hurt, and I kept the empty house for many years, and finally I had the courage to love, but I was still injured.

Who to reason with!

simply quit his job, and after a few days of sloppy crying and wiping tears on the one-acre and three-third of the land he rented, he finally came to a better time.

I heard that lovelorn people will cut off their long hair, indicating that they will start over, Su Wangwu no longer believes that long hair and waist are good to marry me and other nonsense, and he did not hesitate to cut his waist-length long hair into ear-length short hair, I hope everything can be done again.

It's just that God is not as good as people want, and she comes to visit her relatives on time every month, but she didn't come this month, and she used up three or four pregnancy test sticks, or two bars.

This is probably the house leak that happened to rain overnight.

What my parents hope is that she will get married as soon as possible and hold a grandchild as soon as possible, and now she has a grandson or granddaughter, but she is frightened all day long, struggling between want and not, so she has been decadent for a few days, and finally made up her mind.

The meager salary before was only enough to support the family, quit the job, and the life that could not be maintained for long, if she wanted this child, she only had two ways, one was to sell herself, the other was to ask for food, thinking that she could only be regarded as a makeshift appearance, coupled with the embarrassing age, the former is no play, plus I think I still have a bit of a temperamental character, I can't go down this road.

As for the second one, I really can't afford to lose this face.

After thinking about it, you can only sacrifice this little life that came at an inopportune time.