In the silence of the long. I closed my eyes again, as if I didn't see this sad scene.

But I fell asleep without a heart!

When I woke up, there were black clouds outside, and faint thunder and lightning flashed. It looks like it's about to rain.

The room is warm like spring, and the candle flame is bright and flickering to expel the darkness.

I was stunned. The stomach that had not eaten for two days made a few drum-like rumblings. But I didn't feel much hunger.

A bowl of sweet and mellow white porridge appeared out of thin air and was handed to my mouth. The white fingers of the bowl bearer are slender and rounded. I looked over the pampered hands.

It was Lin Jue who was hazy under the candlelight. His eyebrows were warm, and he scooped up a spoonful and touched it to my lips.

"Warbler, taste some."

I frowned and pursed my lips, no matter how much he pushed the jade spoon.

Compete with him in a quiet and mellow atmosphere.

He sighed and persuaded: "This white porridge is specially secret, sweet, soft and delicious. Don't warblers really taste it? Who knows that Chinese food is hard work. ”

Listen to the words of persuasion. I turned my head and buried my face in the hibiscus quilt, and scolded in disgust. "Hypothetical."

“……”

For a long time after the scolding, except for the faint abnormal sound of the candle flame. Quietly, no longer hearing human voices.

After a long time, he chuckled, and in an instant, he admitted in a gloomy tone: "Good, good." I'm a hypocrite. ”

He seemed to have pierced away all hypocrisy, and his words were no longer as smooth and gentle as before, and his words were like knives cutting his heart and saying bluntly: "But so what? What can you do? Do you think you are still the Nanyang County Lord who has someone to protect in Nanyang Mansion? Li Yingying, I only counted three times......"

Vanishing hypocrisy. He finally revealed his evil.

The spur-rattling anger was on the verge of erupting. I turned around and slammed my palm at the door in front of him. Gritted his teeth and glared at him and sneered: "Then how pathetic you are! After pretending to be for so long, he was still obediently a dog for me in Nanyang for five years, and he waged his tail beside me and begged for mercy for five years. Lin Jue, you are disgusting! ”

"It's pathetic to pretend to like me! Such unscrupulous means for the sake of the throne? Why didn't you tell me earlier. For example, if you wagging your tail at me and sticking out your tongue, if I'm happy, maybe I'll go and encourage my father to help you plot to usurp the throne? Why bother, you say no. ”

He grabbed my wrist with one hand, and the bowl was still holding it firmly with the other. Five fingers clenched together, forcing me to scream in pain. Meiyu was angry, and asked again with a solemn expression. "To drink or not to drink?"

I don't bother to be sarcastic. "Dream! Your tattered porridge soup is still ...... Not! ”

The wrist was no longer restrained, but the lower cheek was pinched by his palm, and he had to open his lips and teeth, and he rudely poured white porridge.

The sweet and soft taste touches the taste buds. It was a delicious delicacy in the world, but it made me sick.

Jaw soreness allows people to do whatever they want. I couldn't even shake his strength when I struggled with my life, so I could only let him finish a bowl of white porridge arbitrarily. Fang knows the desperation of powerlessness.

He Shi Shiran let go of his hand. After pouring my porridge, it seemed that I was full of anger, and I was left to enjoy myself. Yan said: "Yingying, eat some porridge to have strength." Your spleen and stomach are weak, and the doctor advises you to remember to feed well. ”

I lay on my stomach at the head of the bed, coughing violently and trying to spit out all the porridge that had just been poured in. In the end, I could only vomit some sour water, and the tears that welled up at some point soaked the bedding on the collapsed edge.

What exactly is this? Reward after playing. If you go along with it, you will be pleasant, and if you go against it, you will be vicious?

I was so angry that I raised my head and howled: "Lin Jue, the thing I regret the most is marrying in Kyoto. Humiliated by you at this very moment! Be the concubine of you wolf-hearted man! ”

He stood up and cast a shadow over him, and did not move. There was even some confusion and doubt. He asked, "Warbler." I've done anything to hurt you. ”

"I've never hurt you in the slightest. Why do you hate me so much? ”

I was stunned. I really didn't expect him to say such a bold word.

I heard him say again: "You have been in the palace for several years, can I punish you for half a point?" Do I have any plans for your mistake in assassinating me this time? I will bring you back from the mass grave. Why are you? ”

The words are convincing, and I simply have to believe his innocence and his grievances. And ignore my heartache, my suffering, my despair.

I left my hometown to marry in Kyoto, and I didn't take half a waiter. Entrust him with a burning and sincere heart. In exchange, what was obtained was the scaly wounds all over the body after thousands of cuts and the heart that had long been broken and dead.

An uncontrollable smile overflowed from between my teeth, and I smiled: "Yes, you have never punished me in the past few years in the palace?" Lin Jue, ask yourself how much you can't afford me? You punished me with grounding for my two concubines. ”

I tore off the hem of my shirt and showed the ugly scars on my arms. "This is the Autumn Hunt, and I will carry you back from the hunting ground at the cost of my life. But what do I get? It's the cheap and ordinary gold sore medicine in your palace and your dispensable mercy. You are honored to favor the Shule Emperor and the concubine who ignores you, and you don't want to ...... Reluctance to ......"

He was stunned when he saw the injury.

I couldn't help laughing, "I've been injured many times in the palace, and you know how many times you've condoled you. Thanks to you every time. ”

"A-Niang said, if you want me not to fight, if you don't rob, if I want me to treat you wholeheartedly and love you. You will treat me like you are in Nanyang, and you will only be the only one with all your heart. I obediently listened to my mother's words, but what is it in the end? What is it? ”

I pointed to my legs, which had been re-wrapped in white bandages. Tears of laughter continued. "What is it? Is it my immobile leg? It's you who push each other again and again. Lin Jue, I have never competed with others when I entered the palace, which made you angry and worried about you. I can forget even the life and couple you promised. But why, in the end, I have rebelled against my relatives, and even you are disgusted with me and abandoned me. Why? You tell me, why? ”

Who knows why? In five years, I waited for night after night in the lonely and quiet cold palace in the middle of the cold palace; On the Shangyuan Festival, I saw thousands of flowers and trees blooming in the east wind night, and the fish and dragon danced all night. Mid-Autumn Festival, a hundred families reunited, but I don't know what night tonight, wandering in the night dew courtyard, watching the Zhengyang Palace drums and blows the flute is noisy.

On Chinese New Year's Eve, I learned that the concubines and concubines of the family have the right to go out of the palace to meet their relatives and celebrate the New Year. Closed the door and kept vigil at the beginning of the night, and the fire burned until early in the morning. And he can only look at each other with the unchanging white candle. Then he comforted himself. One day, I will sit on the emperor and return to Nanyang. It's better than other concubines!

But this forbearance and retreat, and the delusional affection to redeem with his tenderness and appropriateness is just a flash in the pan.

The affection of the past has long been exhausted.

He is high above and at the pinnacle of power. I can't tolerate it.

I can't tolerate being so humble that I still have to pretend to be fearless and lonely.