I like a girl.

She is very gentle, no matter what she does, she is always slow and orderly.

She has a very good family, her parents are loving, and she doesn't have to worry about eating and drinking.

When I first met her, I was jealous, but she was so clear that when she looked at me, I couldn't do anything to be sorry for her.

We gradually became good friends, she would take me back to her house when I was beaten by my father, and her parents were also very nice and gentle with me.

She is the only light in my life where I can't see what lies ahead.

I always think that I can survive until I graduate, until I can grow up alone from my father, and then the future can be expected.

I got through it, but I didn't......

I saved a girl, her name is Meng Chixi.

And then...... She pushed me into the abyss.

During that time, I couldn't get out, and I even had a fear of the opposite sex, I was afraid to see those people, they represented danger and strength in my eyes......

I'm scared, scared.

I am afraid that in my sleeping dream, I will wake up suddenly when I hear the voice of the male doctor whispering advice, and I will be afraid with sweat on my head.

I don't know how I got through it, I just know that when I got through it, I seemed to be ......

I fell in love with her.

I like the girl who has always been by my side, has always been good to me, has always protected me, and has never given up on me.

I'm getting scared and scared......

I'm afraid that one day when my likes are exposed to the sun, she will be disgusted, she will despise, and she will push me away from her life.

But no, my sleep, she's so good.

It's so good that even if I kiss her, hug her, and miss her...... She wouldn't care, either.

So good that even when I made her mom and dad mad, she was still on my side.

How unbearable am I...... I would even think that after we have a future of sunrise and sunset, planting flowers and making pastries together, and swinging together.

It was probably at that moment that I realized that I was selfish.

It's true......

Sleep, I'm so selfish.

I don't have a full family anymore, and I can't destroy her family anymore.

Her future should be admitted to a good university, then enter a high-quality university, learn knowledge, and fall in love with a sunny and cheerful boy.

If I could, I hope that boy would spoil her very much, accompany her for the rest of his life, accompany her to eat delicious food, accompany her to watch the stars and moon, and accompany her to watch the sunrise and sunset.

Accompany her from the street to the end of the street, eat all the things she likes, and remember all her key days.

Accompany her to do all the ...... What I can't do with her.

And I'm ...... Maybe I'll work hard to learn and transform, but I know that I won't find another person I like.

My sleep was really good, so good that when I said those words, I couldn't hold back my tears, so good that I almost took her hand and walked with her.

But me......

Can't be so selfish...... My aunt and uncle were so good to me......

If I could choose a gender, I would choose to switch genders.

In this way, you can love her well and pursue her openly, instead of just liking her like now, which makes everyone oppose and despise everyone.

She can't be dusted, and all the sufferings in this world should be borne by me.

I'm sorry.