After a simple meal, the convoy began to move forward again, Su Liuyin was worried about Qingfeng and Mu Xi, so she could only sit in the carriage to accompany them, so she only put them in a small cradle, so that she could take care of them personally, and her heart could be relieved a little.

And Shen Qingning is also there, she is also just to accompany her children.

The two of them sat there quietly, not speaking, only listening to the sound of the wheels of the car and the horse's hooves, Su Liuyin vaguely felt that her gaze had been staying on her, a little uncomfortable.

I don't know how long it took for Shen Qingning to smile softly, her tone was extremely kind, "Qingfeng and Mu Xi are very good, just like when you were young!" ”

Saying this, she suddenly realized that she might have said the wrong thing, and said slowly: "After prescribing a dose of medicine, the prince has sent someone to ride a fast horse to the city to grab the medicine, the child has a bad spleen, it is not appropriate to take too much medicine, the dose is reduced, the child is sick and everything is fine after taking the medicine, and it is necessary to pay close attention to the child's reaction after taking the medicine, so the dosage, time and condition of the child after taking the medicine need to be recorded in detail, or firmly remembered in mind!" Yin'er, don't worry, from now on, I will stay by the child's side every step of the way, and if the child is unwell or aggravated, I can make a diagnosis immediately! ”

Su Liuyin nodded, she really wanted to call her mother for the original owner, but after all, she was a little embarrassed, as if the words she wanted to say were blocked in her throat, and in the end, she only said with deep gratitude: "I thank my aunt for Qingfeng and Mu Xi!" ”

Shen Qingning said with a smile: "What's not to thank for this, Qingfeng and Mu Xi are also my grandchildren!" Speaking of which, I have had an extraordinary talent for this medicine since I was a child, and Master taught me his lifelong knowledge and began to travel all over the world, and he only hoped that I would inherit her mantle and be able to practice medicine and Taoism all my life, and one day I would achieve positive results......"

She sighed again, "It's all fate! Ask the world has the most casualties than this Shura battlefield, so I met your father in the northwest, I was a few years younger than you, I always felt that the world was too big, and there were many beautiful things that I had never seen, so my heart gradually went away......"

The scenes of the past resurfaced in front of her eyes, and there were thousands of tastes in her heart, she turned her head slightly, held back the tears in her eyes, and said with a smile: "This person is old, and he has become more talkative, and he will be disliked by others, no one can speak in the palace, and he feels comfortable after leaving the palace, and he has more words!" ”

Su Liuyin saw her appearance, and her heart was also full of sourness, how good it would be if she could still see her parents in her previous life, and how uncomfortable it would be if they were also thinking about themselves like this! Thinking like this, she suddenly asked: "Since I am your daughter, why didn't you say it when I entered the palace to see you, the rules of the palace allow you to visit relatives twice a year, why do you never mention it, and ask such a person to bear these things silently?" ”

The middle-aged woman lowered her head, she could no longer suppress the tears in her eyes, two lines of clear tears slipped down her cheeks silently, she raised her sleeve and gently wiped it over, "This wind is really blowing, and I am also blinded!" ”

Saying this, she raised her head again and smiled gently, "In the early years, I was arrogant, unwilling to be so committed to the harem, and I didn't know much about the rules of the palace, I caused a lot of trouble in the palace, and also offended the emperor's rebellion, and his patience with me has long been exhausted, maybe because your father is still the world-famous General Su, or maybe because my brother is rich and rivals the wealth of the country, or the emperor thought that I saved his life, so I didn't want my life, and later I learned that all the honor and disgrace in this palace are related to the safety of my mother's family." , The seduction in the palace is so terrifying, I am afraid of bringing trouble to the family, and later I also learned to be well-behaved, so I rarely let the family enter the palace, my sister held you when she was young and came to see me once, I was afraid that I would never let go of your little hand again, I was really scared in my heart, just look at you from a distance, I will be content! For so many years, the only thing that has sustained me to continue to live is to look at you! ”

Su Liuyin listened to her talk about her own past so lightly, and inexplicably felt a heart-wrenching pain in her heart, a woman was trapped in the backyard of the deep palace for most of her life, thinking about her children like this, living like a year, life and death are not up to herself, how desperate it should be to live!

If she changes herself and only sees her children for a few months, she feels uncomfortable in her heart, always worried, can't eat well, can't sleep well, and always feels that she has lost a very important thing in her life.

"Now, you are free, if you want, please rest assured, I will raise you to old age!"

Shen Qingning's expression changed, and then he smiled again: "It shouldn't be like this, I was born but not raised, how can I let my children come to support me for the elderly, where should I put my face!" ”

She smiled like this, but her heart was dripping with blood, how much she regretted it, if the emperor summoned her to treat her illness, she shirked herself, if she was forcibly left in the palace, she could be selfish...... In this way, she will be able to stay with her child all the time!

Her master's words to her suddenly sounded in her ears, "Those who do not move their hearts will have no desires and no desires for a lifetime, so that they can have a beginning and an end!" She might be able to understand what Master meant, but she was wrong from the beginning!

Su Liuyin looked at her and said: "Since you can go to the backyard of this deep palace, it is also God who is moved by your sincerity, you are the mother who gave birth to me, it is too polite to say this, although you did not support me, but you are also forced to do so, not to mention that when I am in trouble, you are also willing to give up everything for me to go to Suizhong County, from now on we are a family, how I treat my mother, how will I treat you, I should always talk from time to time on weekdays, and talk about the family together." ”

Seeing Su Liuyin answering with a pleasant face, the degree of advance and retreat was very appropriate, Shen Qingning suddenly only felt that the world was in a trance, the world never treated anyone, but it could always bring people some unexpected gains.

She was stunned to remember that when she first became a mother, it was the best age of her life, and the little child grasped her hand so tightly, as if the child's small body contained great strength. At that time, all the soldiers in the army had received her favor, and everyone congratulated each other sincerely, and everyone knew that General Su's wife was a doctor who saved the dead and the wounded.

And in such a good time when she should be by her child's side, the emperor deprived her of all joy by a holy decree.

The emperor forcibly left her, and in the days after being in the palace, she has always been a little unrelenting, no matter who has been before or after.

Since then, she no longer practiced medicine, and people in the world gradually forgot that she was once a woman with medical skills, only knowing that she was Shen Guifei of the dynasty.

In fact, in her heart, she understands that the emperor kept her just because he was afraid of death, but the emperor's serious illness that day was also drugged, but after so many years, who was drugged did not have any eyebrows.

Back then, Su Muyue was also at the time when his blood was strong, how could he watch his wife being humiliated, what a clever person Shen Qingning was, how could the emperor's will be violated, she only wrote a letter of resignation - greedy for the glory and wealth in the palace, and did not want to suffer in the northwest again!

When I wrote this book, only my liver and intestines were broken, and the tip of my heart was cut and bleeding little by little.

Thinking that her child was still in infancy, she could no longer hold her child, hear her babbling, or feel the joy of playing on his mother's knees......

And these worries, the growth of sleep time, will never be reduced by half a point, after entering the palace several ups and downs, she slowly refused all visits.

Over the years, she has not fought or grabbed, and she has never dragged her feet in doing things, just so as not to implicate them.

For so many years, she has lived so sober and self-aware.

Now that she heard the words "sharing family" from her daughter's mouth, the last line of defense in her heart also collapsed.

Shen Qingning raised his hand and gently rubbed his temples, leaned on the side of the carriage window with some weakness, and brought up the woven curtains, and the sunlight shone obliquely from the outside, making people's eyes dizzy.

The world is like this, she can never escape, and the resentment in her heart cannot be dissipated.

"Auntie, what's wrong with you, is there anything wrong with you?" Su Liuyin looked at her tired appearance and asked with a concerned expression.

After a long time, she slowly straightened up, just reached out and slowly stroked Su Liuyin's face, "Yin'er, I can't stand you, after so many years, I haven't fulfilled my duty as a mother, in the future, I will try my best to compensate you!" ”

Her fingers were so cold, and they trembled slightly, as if the cold winter moon had been soaked in ice water.

Su Liuyin gently held her hand, nodded and replied, "I don't blame you, just live with us in the future!" ”

She didn't answer, just sat down on Su Liuyin's side and gently took her into her arms, "Child, thank you for giving me this opportunity!" ”

Su Liuyin was a little at a loss by her unguarded hug, but in the end she still said softly "um", thinking that if the original owner would definitely forgive this mother!

Shen Qingning gently closed her eyes, and was quiet for a moment, just hugging Su Liuyin, as if she wanted to find a little strength from her that could support her, just like the love and caution of a child in infancy.

"My child, over the years, I have wronged you!"

Su Liuyin was in her arms, and she only smiled softly, "Yin'er is very well taken care of by her father and mother, I will take them all over in the future, and I will take good care of you!" ”

She patted Su Liuyin's back gently, "It doesn't matter, I just want you to be safe, and Yin'er doesn't have to worry about the rest, just take care of herself, so that her mother is also content, and she has nothing else to ask for!" ”