When the Imperial Doctor left, Baili Wu didn't remember very well, and she only had one sentence in her mind: terminally ill......

How so?

Although the husband is usually strict with her, in her heart, she has already been a teacher for a day and a mother for life, and she has regarded her as one of the closest and most trusted people, but why...... God didn't even let go of this gentleman who was not related to her.

Song Rui's expression was much calmer than Baili's stunned, and it could even be said that it was light and light.

"Mr. ......"

Song Rui raised his head lightly, "Huh? ”

Baili moved her lips several times, and finally made a sound, "It must be that he made a mistake, Mr. don't care, I'll go and ask for another doctor." ”

Song Rui stopped Baili Wu, who said to leave, "Come back!" ”

The girl stopped, but did not turn around, her back to her, her head bowed.

When the voice came again, her voice was hoarse and choked, "Did Mr. already know......

Song Rui didn't expect her to cry, looking at her back with love and tenderness that she had never seen before.

"I'm like a flying eagle in a cage, I can't be free for a long time, I'm depressed, I'm crazy...... When I enter this cage, everything is already doomed, but I still can't help but yearn for it, I can't help but yearn for it. Compared to the remaining thirty or forty years in this airtight cage, I am more glad that I am going to die. Then everything can start from scratch and start a new life......"

Song Rui's tone turned out to be an infinite yearning for death.

At this time, neither of the two people wanted to face anyone, because their faces were showing their truest feelings now.

They are afraid that the other party will see their embarrassment.

So Baili Wu still turned her back and didn't look back, but in fact, the dress on her chest was already soaked.

She knew that she liked eagles, but she didn't expect her yearning for freedom to be so persistent, so persistent that she couldn't even ......

As soon as she entered the palace gate, it was as deep as the sea, and it was so difficult for the people in the palace to be free, not to mention that she was a woman that the emperor fancied.

Everyone thinks that it should be a happy and glorious thing to be able to be admired by the saints, but they don't know that the love of the emperor can not only make people soar to heaven, but also imprisonment and whirlpool.

"I'll tell you something...... Song Rui's voice was fluttering, as if it didn't matter what it was, "Actually, I ...... with your father."

"I know." Baili interrupted her.

There was silence behind him for a moment, and after a while, Song Rui asked, "When did you find out?" ”

Baili thought for a moment, "It was the day you first mentioned the competition for favor to me." ”

I can't remember what day it was, but it's a little early to think about it.

"So you already knew......"

The girl's back was slender and thin, and the rain and mist outside the door were blown in and slapped on her skirt from time to time, and she stood there motionless, alone.

One person from beginning to end.

Song Rui suddenly felt very sorry for her, she was alone in the palace, no one cared about it, how did she grow so big.

Maybe in her heart, she has long been her backbone and her dependence, but she is also leaving, and she will still be alone in the future......

"Where's the one you like?" Song Rui asked suddenly.

The girl's thin back stiffened visibly, and it didn't take long for her to relax again, as if there was nothing to hide in front of her.

"He went back to Jiangnan. Sir, I ...... with him," Baili's throat moved, and she spoke with great difficulty, "impossible. ”

Song Rui was silent for a moment, "You come here, sit down." ”

Baili hurriedly wiped the tears on her face with her sleeve, and then turned around a little awkwardly and walked towards her bedside.

Song Rui patted the edge of the bed, "Sit down." ”

Baili sat down next to her obediently.

"Actually, I also asked you to fight for that Su Wuyi in order to cheer you up, but if you want you to be really happy in the future, it's better to be realistic. That second son Su is far away in Yangzhou, and he only comes to Kyoto a few times a year, not to mention that the number of times you have met is only a handful, he is now past the year of the weak crown, maybe he already has a favorite girl in his heart, and you are wasting time by betting on him. ”

Song Rui said earnestly, "Listen to me, put your eyes on the sons of the family in Kyoto, otherwise you will be hurt in the end." ”

The gentleman's words were right, and this was what she had been worried about. But there was a voice in my heart, saying loudly, "No! ”

No, she doesn't want to give up, she has him in her heart, he has already occupied her whole heart, and she can't spare a little bit for others.

No, she didn't want to give up, the man was so good, he could jump into the rose bush and carefully untie her hair wrapped around the branches;

He took her to the black market to buy her medicine;

He also taught her how to dance jazz......

His gentle and evil bits and pieces are like a nutrient solution that nourishes his yearning, making her want to stop. The man was like a mesmerizing poison, and she was happy to eat it.

She is unwilling to give up, he is unmarried, she is unmarried, then she still has a chance. She didn't know when she was so obsessed with him, and she didn't even dare to give up on him.

She didn't want to give up, but she didn't dare to let people know directly, and she didn't want to disappoint her husband, so she could only answer: "I will consider ......"

Song Rui was tired, so Baili covered the quilt for her and closed the door gently.

The rain is not heavy, it is said that the light rain hurts the body, and the weather is indeed cold.

She looked up, and the cold rain mist fell into her eyes, and when it came out again, it turned hot.

She thought, she was lonely and confused in that moment......

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When the first snow fell, Song Rui finally passed away and escaped from the cage that had imprisoned her for half her life.

That day, Baili He stood in the backyard of Youlan Palace for a whole afternoon, even though the snowflakes weighed on his back, he seemed to be unconscious, slightly bent his back, looking at the old house that had grown a long time ago.

Finally fell into the snow.

Since that day, Baili has never summoned Baili again, and he has not let her continue to go to the imperial study to copy books.

In the blink of an eye, this palace is not as jubilant as the people of Pingming, and even a little lifeless, and there is no New Year's atmosphere at all.

It's just because the relationship between the emperor and the queen has now been tense to the point of saber rattling.

However, fortunately, the crown prince made several great achievements a few years ago, one was to recover the taxes that were resisted and refused to be paid in the remote mountainous areas. It is said that the emperor is far away, and the people there are far away from the court, and even the county orders sent by the court to govern them dare to kill, and the court can't arrest all the people there, for fear that if it is not handled well, it will intensify the greater contradiction, so it has always been a headache for the court. Fortunately, this time the prince came in person, and he was stunned to subdue those villagers and recover the taxes that should have been paid.

The second is that he donated a gold mine and a jade mine in his hands to the imperial court, which enriched the treasury at the critical moment of the snowstorm.

The third is that the prince took the lead in arresting his teacher, the prince of Yipin, Yan Mingming. In the name of the crown prince, this person has repeatedly instructed some officials to do things convenient for him, bent the law for bribes, and deceived the monarch, and has been sentenced to behead after the autumn, and confiscated hundreds of thousands of taels of gold, millions of taels of silver, and hundreds of precious antique calligraphy and paintings, all of which were filled into the state treasury.

Just these three things made the emperor feel good, and the relationship with the queen was not too stiff.

Tomorrow is Chinese New Year's Eve, and Baili Yue wants to go out of the palace to worship Song Rui.

She stepped into the lifeless courtyard again, and the snow was all over the courtyard, except for the middle road, which was swept clean.

She imagined, she was trying her best to imagine, sir, she was still there, she was painting by the window, she was reading a book carefully, she was pruning her potted plants.

She pushed open the old wooden door, and there was a long creaking sound because no one had opened it for a long time, which made the courtyard even more empty and desolate.

The first thing she did when she walked in was at the closed window.

Tables and chairs are there, books and pen and ink are also there, everything is there, but the person is missing.

The bed cover was rolled up to indicate that no one would sleep on the bed again, and the gray-blue curtain was held back as always. Baili Wu touched the bed bar with her hand, touched the bed curtain, lowered her head, and a tear smashed on the cyan floor tiles.

She came to the bookcase, and everything on the table was untouched, still the same as when she was there.

Baili walked to the place where she used to sit, and a painting was spread on the table.

It was a field of rape flowers in full bloom, as far as the eye could see. There was a man walking on a country road with a hoe on his shoulder, a smile of satisfaction on his face.

At the end of the road stood his wife and children, all happy in the bright sunshine.

This is one of the few paintings in which Song Rui did not paint eagles.

Perhaps, she yearns for the freedom of an eagle, but in fact, she envies the ordinary life of ordinary people.

The reason why she didn't draw this idea of hers before was because of Baili He.

It wasn't until the day before she left this world that she finally dared to draw it.

I don't know if Baili understood what she meant when he saw this painting.

Baili He may be dissatisfied with Song Rui in her heart, she didn't agree to be with him until she died, and she didn't say anything like him.

So after she died, she didn't want to see the students she taught.

Baili gently picked up the painting, slowly folded it, and put it in her arms.

After leaving the palace, she rented a carriage and went straight to Fulu Temple.

This road is full of people coming and going, and it is not festive to put up lights everywhere, Baili Wu smiled slightly, the palace and the palace are completely different worlds.

The palace is calculating all day long how to make others unhappy.

Outside the palace, the people only think about how happy they are.

She went to the street to buy paper and wax before continuing on her way.

Fulu Temple is located on the outskirts of the city, and it took an hour to arrive.

She paid the coachman and walked towards the temple with her feet up.

The temple is located halfway up the Fulu Mountain, and there are still a long steps to walk from the mountain down to the temple.

When I arrived at the temple, it was almost noon. She went into the main hall and lit three sticks of incense and worshipped, then went out of the temple gate to find an open place, lit candles and incense, and then took out the painting in her arms and lit it.