Pan Rui's eyes enlarged little by little, he understood it, and Xia Zhi also understood.

She swallowed a jujube pit and blocked it in her esophagus. It was he who said that he wanted to buy a house in Taicheng, and he was the one who said that he wanted to set up a home to be her backing, did she misunderstand, or did he regret it? She waited silently for his response.

It took him a long time to open his mouth, and his voice was slightly empty: "No, Xia Zhi, are you uncomfortable living in my house?" ”

Sure enough, he made the arrangements again without asking her, and she was always the last to know. "I thought we had agreed to buy a house together and build our own little family," she said. ”

"This is our little family!" Pan Rui stretched out his arms and pointed to the room he was in, "The entire third floor is ours, and my parents originally renovated it for my marriage." ”

"This is your parents' property, not ours."

"Is there a difference? My parents' will be left to our brothers in the future! ”

Xia Zhi stood up from him with a "pout": "There is a difference, this is your parents', it may be yours, but not mine." I don't feel like I belong here. ”

Her voice was not loud and her tone was not heavy, but she looked at him condescendingly, causing him a sense of oppression.

"What kind of belonging do you want? Isn't it enough to have me there? Pan Rui also stood up, he was a head taller than her, and immediately pressed her momentum back, "What is a sense of belonging?" Is it OK to eat? ”

"Yes! The sense of belonging is that I can eat whatever I want, I can eat wherever I want, and no one cares about me when I want to get up in the middle of the night to eat. Xia Zhi tried hard to suppress her voice, and she desperately emphasized in her heart that they were not arguing, just discussing.

But in Pan Rui's eyes, he didn't see it that way, he felt that Xia Zhi was purely finding fault with nothing: "Do you have anyone to take care of you now?" Just tell my mom what you want to eat! You eat well and live well in our house, my mother treats you like a big lady, and none of our brothers and sisters have been so praised by her. Summer solstice, what are you not satisfied with? ”

He really thinks she's talking about food? She's just a metaphor! Realizing that they didn't seem to be on the same topic, she couldn't help but say, "I don't just say I can eat as much as I want, I mean I want to have the freedom to completely dominate a space, you know?" ”

"I don't understand." Pan Rui replied without thinking about it, "Just tell me directly, what are your dissatisfaction with my family?" What do you think my mom did badly? ”

"What's wrong with me? Did I say anything? ”

"You didn't say it, but you did. As soon as you come, you want our house to change the cutting board, and you have to pick out your underwear and socks to wash your clothes. ”

She worked so hard to focus the topic on herself, so did he have to expand the topic? Xia Zhi's lips trembled, her nose was sour, she inhaled, slowed her emotions, and tried to speak in a way that was easier for Pan Rui to accept:

"I didn't say anything bad about your house, this house has everything you are used to, I also have my own living habits, I will always be an outsider in your house, I need a space of my own."

"Wouldn't you just treat this place as your own space? If you don't like the cabinet door, you change it, you think there is a problem with the water heater, you fix it, and even if you think the decoration of the house is not in line with your petty bourgeoisie, you can also find someone to redecorate it again.

But what's the point? I really don't understand your so-called life mood sometimes, you always say that life is difficult and you have to save some money, and now you don't live in a good house, and you want to run out and buy a set by yourself, is it not wasted? Isn't it very in line with your philosophy of life that you use this money to go shopping, buy clothes, buy cosmetics, and drink coffee? Why do you have to toss? ”

Pan Rui said in one breath, completely ignoring Xia Zhi's pale face.

So her pursuit of life is a meaningless toss in his eyes? She sat in front of the computer with her back to him, holding the mouse and swiping meaninglessly from side to side, and after two strokes, tears fell on the table, she didn't bother to wipe it, so she sat silently.

Pan Rui also lost his voice, and after a while, he came up and grabbed her shoulder and said, "Okay, okay, it's me who is wrong, don't cry." ”

She bit her lower lip and remained silent. What's wrong with him? He is very good, she just has nothing to do to force him to buy a house, and she is a proper evil woman in the soap family ethics drama.

He dragged the bench under the dresser over and sat down beside her, twisting her body and still facing away from him, but not pushing away the hand he was holding on his shoulder.

His tone softened a lot: "I know, you want to buy a house, you want to have your own home, right?" But you see, the housing price in the center of the county is more than 3,000 square meters, which is almost a month's salary for me, and your income is unstable now, so let's live at home first, isn't it also good? ”

He pulled out a tissue to wipe her tears, but she snatched it.

"Do I want you to buy a house now? I'm talking about the future! But you don't even have that intention! You used this sentence to deceive me in Taicheng, and you don't care about it! ”

"Why did I lie to you?" Pan Rui's words were also full of grievances, "You wanted to buy a house in Nanzhou at that time, I compared it, I couldn't afford to buy a house in Nanzhou anyway, so I said buy in Taicheng, what I mean is that it is easier to buy a house in Taicheng than Nanzhou." ”

"That's not what you said, you said that you are going to buy a house in Taicheng in the future, and that is our home." The summer solstice is still remembered clearly.

"But we really can't afford it right now, can we? Let's save the money first, and then talk about it when we have the money, as for this house, it's up to you, if you want to redecorate, you can do whatever you want. ”

Xia Zhi sighed, she knew that Pan Rui was just perfunctory to her, of course she wouldn't really touch the house brick by brick, and their quarrel wouldn't bring any change to their lives.

She felt that the burden on her shoulders had become heavier, and the feeling of emptiness of fighting alone hit her heart again, but she could not do anything about it.

When she was feeling uncomfortable, there was a knock on the door, and she remembered that she had just made an appointment with Pan Lei to read her essay in the evening when she had just had dinner.

Pan Rui went to open the door, and Xia Zhi quickly dried the remaining tears in the corners of his eyes and threw the tissue into the trash.

"Sister Xia Zhi, the composition teacher gave me the highest score in the class last week! You see, this is what I wrote this week. ”

Pan Lei didn't notice that the two of them looked wrong, and happily spread the book in front of Xia Zhi.

Xia Zhi took a look, an argumentative article, the arguments are clear, the positive and negative arguments are sufficient, and finally the arguments come down, except that the topic itself is not very outstanding, and there is no big problem with the structure of the article.

Xia Zhi annotated it with a pencil, and changed it more smoothly, and raised his head after the correction, only to find that Pan Lei was not reading the composition, but staring at her face.

Is it that she didn't wipe her face clean, and Pan Lei can see that she just cried?