Chapter 5: The Capture of Frustration

In a newly opened restaurant, Zhao Qian ate some delicious dishes with the greatest courage. She told herself that this was the last meal she had with Lu Xia, and even if she had to break her stomach and liver after she went back, she had to behave calmly now. The man in front of him is only the maximum 'ambiguity' he can give him.

Forcing herself to eat a whole plate of chicken wings, Zhao Qian instigated the oil juice on her fingers, and pulled out a napkin and clutched it in the palm of her hand. "Alright, I'm full, I'm going to take you somewhere."

Lu Xia nodded mechanically, wiped his lips with a tissue, and glanced at his phone, "Huh?" It's so late! That place is not far away? I'm afraid it's too late."

"That's enough!" Zhao Qian began to be impatient, beckoning the waiter to pay the bill.

But as soon as he walked out of the restaurant, Lu Xia began to hesitate again, and said to Zhao Qian with a deep step: "There is no sample in the mall, let's go and return the tie together, right?" ”

"Why are you still struggling with this?" Zhao Qian began to regret buying this tie, it seems that she is really still too emotional, a lamb to be slaughtered, what emotions do you talk to him? It's a good situation, and it's a dilemma.

"Soon, it won't be long."

"That'...... All right! ”

Zhao Qian had no choice but to agree, although she was very reluctant, but at the moment she didn't want to delay time with Lu Xia on this issue.

After completing the formalities in front of the counter, Lu Xia finally breathed a sigh of relief, and when she walked out of the mall, she casually asked Zhao Qian where she wanted to take herself?

Zhao Qian's eyes rolled, and she smiled mysteriously: "Where do you want to go!" ”

Lu Xia scratched his scalp and didn't know why, "What kind of place is that?" ”

"Hotel!" Zhao Qian was happy with her little wisdom, raised her eyebrows at Lu Xia charmingly, and took his arm.

In Zhao Qian's view, being able to bring herself into the hotel is a great achievement in itself, and it can even be said that the word "open a room" itself is tempting. It must be difficult for any man to refuse, let alone Lu Xia, who fell in love with him at first sight

However, Zhao Qian never thought that Lu Xia's attitude would go against the grain here. He paused suddenly, his brow furrowed from the terraces. "No kidding, I really don't have that kind of evil thoughts about you!"

"What?" Zhao Qian couldn't figure it out, was this person stupid or did she think I was just testing him? After thinking about it, maybe it is not normal for a girl to say such things shamelessly, and it may be okay to deal with those obscene men, but Lu Xia didn't even dare to accept a tie, can she not be scared when she puts it in front of her so cheaply?

"I didn't mean that" Lu Xia probably realized that he had said the wrong thing, and hurriedly corrected it: "You are very beautiful, I liked you very much from the first time I saw you, but I knew that I was not worthy of you." If I really like you, I should give you the best, but I rummaged through my pockets and couldn't find anything I could give you except to live up to it. ”

"Oh my God! Your low self-esteem is so bad! After Zhao Qian finished speaking, she glanced at Lu Xia angrily, and after going through this twist and turn, she was also impatient, "I'll just ask you, if you want to go with me." Do you want to show how great you are by saying so much? ”

At this moment, Lu Xia was also experiencing inner torture. How much he wants to be with Zhao Qian, but as he said, love is not possession, not imprisonment, and not a momentary affair. If it was before noon, he might still be able to swear to hug her and promise to be the most ordinary couple with Zhao Qian with longing and dreams, but a tie made him see his unbearableness and the distance from Zhao Qian, whether it was inferiority or pressure, he had fallen into the abyss and could no longer look at him.

"I ......" Lu Xia shook his head resignedly: "I'm just afraid that I won't be your boyfriend"

Zhao Qian's round eyes widened in shock, and there was a nameless fire in her chest, and she hated to beat this man severely.

"You're ridiculous, you keep saying you like me, but you won't do anything for me. It's one thing not to be able to do it, it's another thing not to do it, you know? ”

After Zhao Qian finished speaking, she shook her hand and left, Lu Xia wanted to stretch out her hand to keep but hesitated, so she watched Zhao Qian leave in a bad mood.

"Stinky man, I don't want to see you again!"

Zhao Qian muttered in her mouth, but she couldn't help but turn her head to look at him and look at him again. I felt faintly uncomfortable.

Back home, Zhao Qian only felt that she was ridiculous, when had the trapping of prey failed like this? Sadly, she couldn't figure out why she had failed. Just because I bought a tie?

Without waiting for self-blame, Zhao Qian's face began to turn pale, and beads of sweat rolled down her sideburns. She hadn't eaten the food she shouldn't have eaten for so long that the pain was unbearable at the moment.

Rolling on the sofa with her stomach in her arms, tears and sweat staining her face, how much she wanted to give herself a knife at this moment, death might be able to free her. It's not that she hasn't thought about giving up her life, what's the difference between living and dying without dignity like this? But it's easy to lose life, and how difficult it is to get it back!

The moonlight was so thick that everything in the house could be seen clearly without the lights on. Zhao Qian tossed and turned for half a night and finally survived, lying on the floor disheveled. Through the blurred tears of his eyes, he saw the picture hanging on the wall, it was a man in his 40s, with kind eyebrows and well-dressed eyes, hanging there, as if he was watching Zhao Qian, watching Zhao Qian endure pain and suffering. But that man had become a picture hanging on the wall, and his kindness had become a torture again.

"Teacher Zhou, is this the 'new life' you brought to me at the cost of your life?" Zhao Qian muttered and couldn't cry.

A year ago, Zhao Qian was diagnosed with stomach cancer, and the cancer cells had spread throughout her body when she was treated, and she had no choice in her life except to wait for death. Later, it was the man who used his life to find a way for her to survive, so this life is not all her own in a large sense, and she must live well.

The sky was getting brighter, there was no sun on this day, and the gloomy morning heralded the occasional torrential rain. Zhao Qian dragged her heavy body to get up, instilled a little chicken soup for the soul into herself, and began to wash and dress up. Choosing clothes, wearing lipstick, and hanging earrings, she is still the showy Zhao Qian, and her beauty can still overwhelm everyone.

Bring an umbrella and a water glass, and greet the neighbors in the hallway, as if last night's pain has passed away, and today she is still the positive and optimistic girl.

Coming to the subway station at 7.15, Zhao Qian suddenly slowed down, and when she glanced at the time on her wrist, she began to worry.

"It's always coming, why should I hide from him?" After Zhao Qian said this, she cheered herself up, and walked into the subway station without thinking too much.

was obviously afraid of seeing him again, but Zhao Qian, who walked into the subway station, still looked for him in the crowd. I don't know if I want to see him or if I don't want to see him.

"Hey!"

Sure enough, what is going to come will still come, Lu Xia suddenly appeared behind him, making Zhao Qian shiver coldly.

"Mmmm" smiled at Lu Xia, Zhao Qian was suddenly a little at a loss, and the two of them nodded to each other and smiled stiffly before walking away.

The carriage was crowded and chaotic, Zhao Qian couldn't help but sneak a glance at Lu Xia, and every now and then she would find that Lu Xia was also secretly looking at herself. The moment their eyes collided, they exploded like an electric current short circuit, bringing a pounding heartbeat to each other.

Arrived at the place where Lu Xia got off the station again, this time Zhao Qian didn't follow again, the two looked at each other through the subway window until the subway roared away.

Hunting is not an easy task, and food is even more difficult to find, and Zhao Qian walked around the city and did not find a suitable target. And she always felt that she had attracted the attention of the police, so she began to act cautiously and walk on thin ice.

may be out of weakness and her pickiness about food, Zhao Qian returned in vain on this day, and when she returned from the feathers, she saw Lu Xia in the subway station again. He seemed to be waiting for him at the subway station on purpose, and only when he saw Zhao Qian get out of the carriage did he suddenly turn around and pretend not to see it.

"Lu Xia" Zhao Qian called her, hunger tormented her mentally, and the fear of death also tormented her, here, she could not let go of any hunting opportunity.

"What a coincidence!"

"Hmm. Quite a coincidence."

The two walked one after the other, and they didn't have anything to say. At this time, Zhao Qian began to hesitate again, should she continue? Can I really do it to him?

When she walked past the billboard in front of the escalator, Zhao Qian seemed to see her evil shadow in the glass window again, and she said to herself with her teeth and claws full of murder: Do you want to enter the palace of marriage with him? Without food, you can only live for seven days, what is enough for you to do in seven days?

Zhao Qian looked at her inner self with frightened eyes, and she felt panicked and powerless.

"Lu Xia ......" She finally stopped him, hunger defeated all emotions, and she had no choice.

"What?" Lu Xia didn't go far, and when he turned around, he could almost touch her forehead.

"I said I was going to take you somewhere, did you forget?"

Lu Xia glanced at the time on his wrist, frowned and asked, "Is there really a place?" Or ......"

Lu Xia said and looked at a building next to him.

Zhao Qian followed Lu Xia's gaze, suddenly glanced at him and said, "What do you want?" It's not a hotel, it's a place. ”

Zhao Qian swept a shared bicycle with her mobile phone and led Lu Xia to the lakeside not far away. The city is developing, and the bustling business district may be next to a dilapidated urban village or a deserted swamp.

As night falls, the lights come on. The further you go, the more sparsely populated it becomes. Lu Xia was a little curious, where was Zhao Qian going to take herself? However, it didn't take long for the two of them to come to the reed beach on the south fence of the wetland park. In the midst of the reedy mud stood a small wooden house, shadowed among the dark grasses.