Volume 2: Losing Heart

This year's winter has been particularly cold. And I'm here for the warm south!

Our worlds are parallel, but I can't feel your warmth and hunger!

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On the morning of the 20th day of the lunar month. A ray of sunlight shone into the apartment, and the purple and blue flowers bloomed in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, and the ASUS was the size of a thumb, so delicate that it was the envy of the same bud.

Last night, I forgot to close the window, and the thin wind blew the curtains, undulating and swaying endlessly. On the floor, wine glasses and slippers are placed together; On the bed, the white sheets were stained with wine and vermilion, overlapping with the old stains, and it was as difficult to clean as a memory.

The sun was scorching, but I just turned over tiredly and subconsciously picked up the futon.

At this moment, the mobile phone wrapped in the quilt slipped off the bed and fell on the wooden floor with a bang.

After the phone landed, it turned on, and it was not unlocked, and a video that had been watched repeatedly last night was automatically played on the screen.

In the video, a man holds a rose in his hand and slowly kneels down in the morning light in the hinterland of Huangshan Mountain.

In front of her was a young girl with her hands over her mouth and tears. The sun shone on her face, and the happiness on her face rose in the morning light......

When I came to 41 in Guangzhou, I have watched this video countless times. Almost every tree, every stone seed, and every ray of sunlight in the video has become a code engraved into the depths of my memory. As soon as I close my eyes, I can still smell the dew in the air.

Since Xia Xue deleted my WeChat, it has been difficult for me to contact her! However, I don't have any reason to contact her now.

Time has passed, time has passed, and you have finally walked out of my life, and I am destined to stay away from your life.

But what about our memories and our beauty?

I've forgotten you countless times to myself, but those two words that seem cruel always bring me endless sadness. When you come back to your mind, those beautiful and painful memories will sweep wildly, making people's hearts ache and agony.

Sometimes I hate you!

So the love in my memory is cruel and cold-blooded, and you make me no longer believe in love, and I can't face love anymore.

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"Director Lu, you have a meeting at half past ten in the morning, please prepare accordingly in advance."

The intelligent voice sounded, and the secretary's hoarse and sweet voice echoed ethereally in the lonely room. It is as if a nanny is in awe and worried about the Lord.

I fumbled around the bed wrapped in a quilt and finally found my phone on the floor. Sleepy-eyed glanced at the time, suddenly felt awake in surprise, and hurriedly got up to freshen up and change clothes.

I was the only one living in the huge apartment! Even if there is a physiological phenomenon when you get up, you don't have to shy away from anything, it's no different from being in your own home.

The prosperity of Guangzhou is like a diamond set in a famous watch, and it is extravagant to look at.

And the luxury apartment that the company allocated to me is also superb, with a glass curtain wall on the whole wall, and you can overlook half of the Haizhu District when you open the curtains. On the other side of the Pearl River, the 'brute waist' is like a delicate princess, slim and elegant, and when the lights are on at night, the charming demeanor can always make people have a kind of fascination with the metropolis.

The company originally allocated me another car, and even a full-time driver to pick me up. But people like me are not used to Qingfu, and I find that the traffic jam scene in Guangzhou is more cruel than that in Hefei, I don't know how many times, so the 41 miles here are basically crowded subways.

However, I really like the crowded and noisy environment in the subway car, crowded and crowded, my brain is not cranky, and my life is full. ……

Walking along Line 3, in a towering building in Shunde District, where I first came to the headquarters to apply for the exam, I have now become a member of this group. They have their own office, their own secretaries, and their own scope of work.

However, I didn't feel the slightest sense of belonging or accomplishment!

When I came to Guangzhou, it seemed that the pace of life had become faster all of a sudden. Especially in the company, almost every moment is in a hurry and urgency, even when walking, you have to listen attentively to the secretary to broadcast a schedule.

"Director Lu, you met with Mr. Tan of XX Company in the No. 3 conference hall at 10 o'clock in the morning, rushed to Jinmanlou before 11:45 a.m., participated in the banquet of Mr. Li of XX Company, met with Manager Ma of Wuchang at 3 o'clock in the afternoon, signed the financial appropriation documents of XX District, and ...... at 5 p.m."

From the moment I stepped into the door of the company, I had already entered the state of work, without the slightest private space, even if I squatted in a large size, I had to carry a tablet to work.

The corridor of the company is twenty meters long, and you go straight to the office, which does not allow you to slack off at all, but to memorize the itinerary that the secretary reads to you, and then read it silently in your mind to prepare accordingly.

In Guangzhou, where every inch of land is at a premium, my office is more modest than that in Feishi. A desk by the window, a bench and a coffee table with a tea ceremony, and even a coffee machine are not available, but there is a special tea staff at the headquarters to make coffee, and if you want to drink, you can ring the bell and say a word.

My secretary is a big girl in her twenties, with short neck-length hair and a serious expression, and she looks very capable. But I like to joke around, and once to her: Can you give me a smile? I remember that in the secretarial induction training, there was a smile service industry! How did you fall short of such an important skill?

The secretary held the document and frowned. Lifted a strand of sideburns and hung it on his ears, as if smiling: "Director Lu, have you studied accounting?" ”

"I didn't study it, but my girlfriend did. She worked as a data clerk, and when she was promoted, I accompanied her to read books."

When I said these words, I seemed to recall the sweet life with Xia Xue again. At that time, I didn't think so, but now I look back and see that happiness is those simple companionships.

"Director Lu, you are so good to your girlfriend! The accounting tutorial is very boring, and you are willing to accompany her to learn it, which shows how much you love her. ”

The secretary smiled dignifiedly. When I came to the head office, I saw her smile for the first time, and her smile was simple and beautiful.

After the secretary reported to me about his work, he stood at his desk and didn't move.

As if sensing something, I put down the pen in my hand and asked, "Is there anything else?" ”

The secretary hesitated for a moment before he replied indifferently: "Director Lu, there is a matter that I don't know if it is a business or a private matter...... ”

"What's the matter? It's so hard to define! I put my fist on my chin, raised my eyebrows and asked, "Could it be that you want to date me?" That's not a business, you should talk about it after work. ”

The secretary didn't like to joke, looked at me with impatient eyes, and ignored my words: "Section Chief Han asked me to convey it to you, and then go to his house for dinner." ”