This is the author's first work to start writing under the pen name of Ming Leiluo.

The author really doesn't remember what inspiration he was based on, when or where he began to conceive such an absurd story. I only vaguely remember that when I started writing, the structure of this story was not yet fully formed.

The story is not written in one go, the writing is shelved, sometimes the inspiration comes to you, a few more strokes are added, and sometimes it is a trivial work matter, and the ink is not touched. In this way, the writing time of a novella of more than 80,000 words has been unreasonably extended for several years, and even the author himself is "out of condition" of the content of the novel after writing, because writing also requires the author to enter the perspective of the character and understand the emotions of the character. Once you get out of the role, it's too long to leave, and then it's a hassle to want to come back, so it's really a bad habit that is not good for writing itself.

From God's point of view, we human beings are really pathetic. Born ordinary, but unwilling to be ordinary, always thinking that he should chase the fiery dreams in his heart; Thinking about chasing dreams, but afraid of destroying vested interests, you can only settle for the status quo. I want to get more, but I am afraid of losing what I have gained, looking forward and backward, suffering from gains and losses, longing for success, and afraid of failure. So I stopped and stopped, went around and around, and finally walked my life with my proud head held high and ordinary steps.

The Buddha said that there are eight sufferings in life, and the author feels that the most bitter is "not getting it, and not being able to let go". For feelings and ideals, I'm afraid everyone has experienced this feeling to some extent.

This is probably the author's inspiration based on ordinary life and boring work. dreams, often made; Dreams, but very simple, there is only one. Déjà vu, nightmares, supernatural, and absurd, these key words point out a basic direction for the creation of this book.

Let's start with the sense of déjà vu. Whether there is this thing or not, I can't say one, two, or three at the end of the book. The coining of this term feels quite apt. In the author's own short life experience, occasionally this sense of déjà vu flashes and disappears, really, it makes people feel amazing at that moment. So I was curious and cranky, and I couldn't help but expand my imagination. If people really have a past life and this life, will this occasional sense of déjà vu be a fragment of our memories of our past life and present life? Otherwise, why do you say it happened, but you really can't remember. Saying it didn't happen always feels familiar. Sometimes it's so familiar that you anticipate what will happen in the next second, and it just happens.

Absurd! The absurdity made me feel creepy, and the supernatural feeling arose. So I thought, let's tell you an absurd story with a bit of a sense of supernaturalness.

The form of the story is the interweaving of dreams and reality, and the core of the story is the persistence of dreams. So how can dreams and dreams be connected?

They are all illusory.

The only difference is that dreams can come true through hard work. I don't know, I'm not a scientist, and I don't have the right to make such a conclusion.

People live a spirit, and I think the spirit of people is probably the interweaving of dreams and reality. If a person without a dream is a salted fish, then what kind of fish is a person who only has a dream and is not based on reality?

What about people who have dreams but don't have the courage to break the status quo and chase their dreams?

The author suddenly felt that he had a lot to think about.

I don't know if this kind of thing really exists, but it should just be an inspiration from the author. People say that the ghost presses, dreams within dreams, and mysterious things such as déjà vu, but the author himself has experienced them all. These things are not inexplicable, but the author will think that it is very "supernatural" at the moment of experience, and since everyone sometimes feels troubled, then take it out and discuss it.

Freud said that human mental activity has a strict causal relationship, nothing is accidental, and dreams are by no means associations formed by chance, but the satisfaction of desires. When people are sleeping, the superego relaxes, the desire in the subconscious bypasses resistance, and in a disguised way, takes the opportunity to break into the consciousness and forms a dream, and the dream is an expression of the desire that is suppressed into the subconscious when awake, and it is a secret passage to the subconscious.

The nihilism of dreams, the probabilities of dreams, these elusive and indispensable attributes, are undoubtedly a very useful card for creators.

The theme of the novel is naturally about the discussion of dreams, and we do not advocate dreams that are completely idealized in isolation from reality, nor do we advocate focusing on reality in everything, and regard dreams as the opposite of reality, as a castle in the air to see flowers in the fog. To paraphrase a lyric from Jay Chou, the dream may seem like a laugh, but it at least holds me up and tries not to let me fall. Regardless of the final conclusion of the discussion, there is a premise that must exist, and that is that people should have some dreams.

Some people say that the actor Zeng Jinghong is not only in love with Shen Yun, but also can't let go of Mo Qingyu, he is a big pig's trotter.

The author has three points to say about this. First, why does the actor have to be a completely magnificent image? Being born as a human being is a contradiction that combines strengths and weaknesses, good and evil, and other aspects. When you see excellent people, you will inevitably be distracted, I think this is human nature. What the heart thinks and what the mind wants to do, and what the body moves and does are two different things. Who can say that he has only touched one person in his life?

Second, the behavior of the characters is closely related to logic and plot. Shen Yun is a virtual person in the plot, but Zeng Jinghong is a real person. So logically, what do you do when you like a virtual person? Your mind is thinking about that person, but your person is still in reality. Since we live in reality, we must pay attention to the rules of reality.

Third, the author's two characters, Shen Yun and Mo Qingyu, are actually a symbol. represents a state of the protagonist Zeng Jinghong: he yearns for his dreams, but he can't let go of the fetters of reality. I have been struggling and wandering between dreams and reality. From this point of view, most people have the shadow of Zeng Jinghong.

Therefore, I just wrote Zeng Jinghong as an ordinary person, not as a saint. I write about his virtues in sticking to ideals, but also about his shortcomings in having an indecisive ordinary character. The author believes that such a person is a person who is closer to the image of ordinary people.

The technique of symbolism must be keenly understood by the reader in the reading, so that it can be given a special meaning in the plot. Then, from this meaning, I read and think about the main idea of the whole novel.

If Shen Yun represents an illusory and unobtainable dream, it has always attracted the protagonist; Mo Qingyu represents a real and touchable but uncontrollable reality, but it has been ignored. From this point of view, it seems that those plots that show the quality of Zeng Jinghong's "scum" have special significance. Instead of oscillating between two women, he struggles to choose between reality and dreams. When Mo Qingyu confessed to him, he was reluctant to let go of his dream; When Shen Yun wanted to take him to wander in his dreams, he couldn't let go of reality. I think that most people who have dreams almost have to go through such a difficult and struggling green years. As the lyrics say, ideals always tempt young friends, and at the same time, only ideals support those numb flesh and blood.

So the ending "The Reincarnation of Nightmares" also has meaning. It was not Zeng Jinghong who rescued Shen Yun in the nightmare, but he wanted to save his dreams and his heart that was about to sink. The author hopes that he will truly achieve the mean, that is, to reconcile with his own reality, and to stick to his original intention. When we can't be heroes, we should always put our feet on the earth and look up at the starry sky again.

What's more, even if reality and dreams are unified and opposed, they are also interdependent and mutually integrated contradictions. When dreams and reality are intertwined, who can tell which is the dream and which is the reality.

I'm afraid that in the end, the author himself will not be able to tell the difference. Perhaps, Mo Qingyu, who has been rushing to pursue Zeng Jinghong, is a dream, and Shen Yun, who met by chance in front of the cave, is in reality.

As for what the motivation of the whole story is, perhaps the author himself does not know. For example, if you want to write a story like "love through time and space", then the opportunity for the story to be formed is "time travel", because time travel occurs, so love through time and space can occur.

That is, the question of how the story works, what causes and what effects.

Is it the theory of "past lives and present lives", the theory of "the interweaving of dreams and reality", or the theory of "the plot of the book penetrates into reality"? I can't remember what my original intention was when I first conceived it. But later, the author feels that it is not so important, I just use a body to express a thought, and the thought can be expressed, and how many doppelgangers there are in the body, which of them is true, I don't care too much.

Because it has been written like this, let's let everyone see it and the wise see it. The author hopes to write an open-ended ending that can be interpreted from multiple perspectives for everyone to understand according to their own preferences.

Perhaps, to put it simply, as described in the story, it is a simple dream that occurs in a staggered time and space, which triggers the encounter between the hero and heroine.

Maybe it's a little more complicated, the first half shows the dream of the male protagonist, and the second half is a metaphor for the content of a novel written by Mo Qingyu, who is ordinary and has a "writer's dream".

Or perhaps, none of these. This is neither a harsh reality, nor an absurd fantasy dream, but a long and boring obscenity unfolded under the sense of déjà vu, one of the three major illusions of life, which is one of the three major delusions of life that happened to be encountered by an unintentional collision.

After all...... Hmph, man!

You know.