Chapter 138: I Know Your Suffering
When Yang Baodai heard this, she looked at Zhao Yuanzhi who was helpless in her eyes, she was particularly distressed, his husband was not high-spirited all the time, it was a proud and precious existence that made her feel proud and precious, she had never seen such a Zhao Yuanzhi after five years of marriage.
She said softly, "I like you too." As she spoke, Yang Baodai lowered her head and kissed the corner of his mouth.
"Those words, I was angry and said nonsense casually, Bao Dai, I have never done anything sorry for you, don't listen to the nonsense outside, I am heinous, I am not as good as a pig and a dog, but my heart for you will always be clean, I ······"
Yang Baodai listened to these words, looked at the listless man in front of her, and suddenly felt a sore heart, what emotions want to erupt from her throat and eye sockets, how did her most precious person become like this, or, when this person licked her wounds in the dark, where was she?
She was so well protected by him.
This is her husband who she wants to entrust for life, she should be with him through thick and thin, but she let him alone outside to shelter her from the wind and rain, she is distressed and doesn't know how to comfort Zhao Yuanzhi, she can only keep patting her husband's back, making herself temporarily his dependence: "It's okay, the teacher will bless you in heaven." ”
"After dawn, I, Zhao Yuanzhi, am the first shameless and disgusting person in the capital." Zhao Yuanzhi leaned on the stone steps, leaned on the steps in half a step, raised his hand to pick up the cup in his hand, and watched the snowflakes suddenly fall in, he lowered his eyes, and his long eyelashes fluttered slightly: "This time I am conceited to underestimate the enemy······ It is I who will save the teacher when he dies, and he refuses to confess to the person who slandered him because the dark line will involve me. ”
He paused, looked at Yang Baodai and smiled bitterly: "Over the years, I have indeed used shady means to get today's status, and there are a few people in the court who feel it, when I murdered the eldest prince and took the opportunity to frame the first queen, the cunning rabbit died, and the good bow was hidden······"
can be executed in the edict, without the promise of the old emperor, it can't be done.
Zhao Yuanzhi raised his face, met his wife's soft gaze, turned his face and took the wine into his throat, he raised his arm, his sleeve-length fingers slowly opened in the night sky, and his soft tone was mocking: "My hands, now I have touched all kinds of blood——"
He chuckled lowly and leaned against the stone steps: "I'm afraid it will be even worse in the future." ”
Zhang Gelao's revenge must be avenged.
He can support Empress Zhen and tear her off.
It's just that in this game, he still has to think about it.
Yang Baodai took the extra wine glass and drank it with him: "Yuan Zhen, our current life is enough, you see, we have come from poverty and hardship to today, it is really good, the teacher has worked hard for this court, not that he has not done a few black-hearted and black-lung things in private, but it is all for the emperor, but what about the end?" Yuan Zhen, why don't you ask for an order, let's go out for a few years. ”
“······ What did you say? Zhao Yuanzhi looked at his wife incredulously, he propped up and looked at Yang Baodai: "What is the difference between me going out and begging for death now, I have worked hard to get to this day, all I do is licking blood on the knife edge, I can't even sleep peacefully, but you want me to give away all the power and position I have obtained now?" ”
Zhao Yuanzhi looked at his wife next to him: "Are you afraid?" I'm not afraid of what you're afraid of, even if it really gets to the end where the sky falls, I'll die before you! ”
Yang Baodai listened to this, silently drank the wine in her hand, slowly turned the empty cup with her thumb and index finger, she looked at her husband in a daze, and said for a long time: "If you are alone, if there are only two of us, I will never say anything about what you want to do." ”
Yang Baodai stood up on her knees, her voice was calm and soft, but she could look at the trembling in her throat by the moonlight, and she was trying her best to hide a certain emotion.
"Your mother's body is sometimes good and sometimes bad, and her knees can't stand the cold in winter, Brother Mu said that it is because of water and soil, even if she is wrong, she is also your own mother, he brought you into this world, do you want her to die here?"
Zhao Yuanzhi: "What did you say?" ·····"
"Do you think my mother is safe? Her knees hurt too much, but she didn't allow anyone to alarm you, saying that you are the one who wants to do great things, and you can't be distracted by these, my sister's son's full moon wine that day, do you know that she endured severe pain without taking a step, she was afraid that the outside world would say that you were unfilial, and she was afraid that the family would make a big fuss about impeaching you. ”
Zhao Yuanzhi: "······"
"The Sheng family has just come back, because of you, how many people have been arrested by the Inspectorate? Sheng Heng is the father of two children, and now the future of the Sheng family is on his shoulders, Sheng Heng He doesn't want to cheat me, do you know how many people you ordered him to arrest in the Inspectorate, how their families swaggered my sister? Yuan Zhen, isn't it good to have a peaceful life for a while? ”
Zhao Yuanzhi: "······"
"My mother's health is not very good, do you really think it is due to hard work? It's the other family you don't know where you came from, and you hit my mother from the carriage in the night, and my mother is worried that you will hurt your own life if you have a seizure, so she will never say anything, Yuan Zhen, you look back and see if your family is okay! ”
Zhao Yuanzhi: "······"
"Every time you do something, can you think about it carefully, will it hurt the people around you who trust you, Luo Xuanxue went to the border for a year to master the supergang for you, isn't his son a son? And Gou Er, do you really think I don't know how Gou Er's injuries were caused! ”
It was mentioned that Zhao Yuanzhi was doing things along the way, and others assassinated and injured his heart, so he splashed this dirty water on the heads of Liu and Jiang Xiaoan for the sake of the overall situation.
After Yang Baodai finished speaking, tears rippled up.
Zhao Yuanzhi hasn't watched his wife cry for a long time.
Yang Baodai's suppressed heart seemed to have broken a small mouth, she was silently whimpering and choking, her shoulders couldn't help trembling, she raised her hand to cover her mouth and nose, and as soon as her eyes were closed, a few tears fell from her eyelashes.
"I'm also scared, I hope you can be well, I don't ask for any one-quality order, I know that you are powerful and ambitious, but, but you also think for me, every time you don't come back all night, I, how scared I am, do you know about the horror?"
Yang Baodai said and walked back to Zhao Yuanzhi, took his hand and put it on her cheek: "Yuanzhen, you are very powerful, you have spent three years of hard work, and you have walked a road that others may not be able to complete in thirty years, let's rest, the teacher is gone, Your Majesty is going to keep people for the prince, no one can shake your position, let's think about Gui'er, she is the teacher's only child." ”
Zhao Yuanzhi raised his finger to wipe his wife's tears: "I can't go, if I go, someone will try to kill me, and kill all the people around us, I have come to this day, it's not that I don't do it, the teacher's new deal is pressing on my shoulders, and the prince, the prince is for the prince, he can't cross the ······"
The teacher of the East Palace has always been Zhang Ge Lao, supplemented by Sheng Heng, and now that Zhang Ge Lao has fallen, he does not fight for this position, but he gives the second assistant, and the rights in his hands have to be washed again, even if according to Yang Baodai's meaning, go out first to avoid his edge, and wait to come back, he still walks the current road again from the beginning.
"In the future, I will tell you what I do, as for my mother, I will send it back to Qinghua Town in the spring." Zhao Yuanzhi touched his wife's cheek: "You understand me best." ”
"I know all your suffering." Yang Baodai knew that she couldn't change Zhao Yuanzhi, so she could only lean on his shoulder, tonight, she was destined to be sleepless.
The snow did not stop, Li Ming scalded two more pots of pear blossoms, and moved a small stove in the outer courtyard.
Yang Baodai silently accompanied Zhao Yuanzhi to drink.
Outside, Gou Er walked in wearing a thick cloak, and carried two pots of fierce knives in his hands: "The feeling is that someone is drinking with you." ”
Zhao Yuanzhi looked at the brother who came over, slightly stunned.
Gou Er sat down on the stone steps next to him, and made a four-way move: "Now I know that it is uncomfortable, I have already asked you not to float too much, now it is a calculation, come on, brother, I will drink with you, wait for the dawn, this capital is afraid of you scolding you, I don't know how much more······"
Snow was falling all over the sky.
Zhao Yuanzhi took the small wine jar and drank wine with Gou Er, looked at his brother coughing, and said, "I don't want to collect anyone's body tonight." ”
"I'm a fruit wine, and I can't get drunk and I won't hurt my body." Gou Er patted Zhao Yuanzhi on the shoulder: "This is the last time I will stand on your side, in the future, if you fall, we can only bury you······"
Zhao Yuanzhi lowered his head and drank wine, while his wife's head was nestled on his shoulder, probably sleepy, he had closed his eyes, and the brother next to him looked like he was going to die, and all he said was words that diverted his mind.
"Zhao Yuanzhi, we can see and understand your suffering, but you must know that you are not the only one who is bearing these hardships." Gou Er leaned on the steps and looked at the stove in front of him: "No accident, I want to walk ahead of you, she is the only one who can accompany you in the future, you are doing things so stubbornly and recklessly-"
"If you want to die, die far away, don't come and dirty my eyes." Zhao Yuanzhi interrupted him, pinched the wine jar and said slowly: "It'll be fine." ”
"I said back then, my life will be yours in the future, and I will bear your retribution for you, and it can be regarded as a complete brother's righteousness!" Gou Er said and pulled the wine jar in his hand and took a sip.
"Ahem, ahem! Fuck you! How strong! ”
Zhao Yuanzhi: "······"