If it was placed in the past, of course Zhao Minli knew that she should pay attention to the mental health of children, and should not put too bloody and terrifying movies in front of Nian Cheng, but now she is really so helpless that she can't care about what it means to be a child, she has endless pressure to release.

After watching all the thriller and horror movies in the room that she didn't have the opportunity to watch in the past, her psychological endurance skyrocketed, and from the beginning she had to cover her eyes when she saw Sadako, and gradually escalated to the point where Gacoko could not beat her heart when she hung upside down from the ceiling.

This method can be called fighting poison with poison, but it is very effective, Zhao Minli only a few days, she felt that the hardships in the world were nothing more than that, she even overcame the deepest fear in her heart - afraid of death, and felt that it was not bad to be able to be a ghost to scare others, which was indeed self-defeating, but it was also a sustenance.

Seeing her situation in her eyes and anxious in her heart, Cheng Cheng didn't know how to persuade her, so she couldn't help but let Nian Cheng accompany Zhao Minli as before, hoping to let Zhao Minli see hope from an innocent child.

However, the original reluctance to Zhao Minli was like a different person, he shook his little head like a rattle, said that he would not go to accompany Zhao Minli anymore, and would rather choose to go to the hated extracurricular class to continue the early education course, rather than play at home in the open.

Cheng Cheng was puzzled, so he had to ask, "Could it be that Aunt Minli bullied you?" ”

"Nope." Nian Cheng shook his head and said thoughtfully, "I just don't like the current Aunt Min Li. ”

"But didn't you like Aunt Minli the most before? Aunt Min Li is sick now, and she can't make Nian Cheng happy like before, so can Nian Cheng sacrifice his time to accompany her. Cheng Cheng did not give up and earnestly induced.

Nian Cheng's eyebrows on his little face were wrinkled into eight characters, he was really young, so he didn't know how to describe the feelings in his heart, and he only gave a simple answer that only a child can have: "I think Aunt Min Li has changed, she doesn't need me to accompany her now, she should let her mother accompany her." ”

A simple sentence made Cheng Cheng stunned on the spot, she never thought that this layer would go up, what Zhao Minli needs most now should be to find a real relative.

Zhao Minli's psychology began to decline after being defeated by bumpy fate again and again, she couldn't get out of the shadow of everything not going well, like a wandering soul alone in the world, and it is very likely that she didn't know where she really came from, which is the root cause of her inability to cheer up.

After having this idea, Cheng Cheng began to act without telling Zhao Minli, and she went back to Zhao Minli's home under the pretext of a class reunion. casually made up an excuse to fool Zhao Guangzong, and she quickly got a photocopy of the correspondence between Zhao's mother and Zhao's father.

The letter has been a long time since now, but the address bar and zip code have not changed much, she carefully checked and classified, and found that Zhao's father is really a toss, and after less than a year of business, he has deviated from most of China, and there are his footprints in the north and south of the world, and I don't know what kind of business he is doing.

Checking the letters one by one at night, Cheng Cheng regressed according to the time of Zhao Minli's birth, and finally locked on a letter with a mailing address in the city, in which Zhao's father's impatience with Zhao's mother reached its peak, and it is very likely that he had a lover and a child at this time.

It's just that what's the use of locking the location, such a large area in the city, with a population of nearly one million, to find a person more than 20 years ago, it is really tantamount to looking for a needle in a haystack.

Seeing that Cheng Cheng hadn't slept so late, Qin Yan, who had been waiting in the bedroom for a long time, pushed open the study door and came in: "It's so late, are you going to let me stay alone in the empty room tonight, you only care about Zhao Minli recently, and I will be jealous if it goes on like this." ”

"You're so good at being jealous of a girl." Cheng Cheng teased as he handed him the copy in his hand, "Is there a way for you to find someone who stayed around there more than 20 years ago, Zhao Minli's father should be her mother who met there." ”

Qin Yan took it and couldn't help frowning when he looked at the words on the letter. He believes in the saying that words are like his people, and thinks that Zhao's father must be frivolous and irresponsible, and if a woman is infatuated with him, it will be the beginning of a tragedy.

After reading the letter, he became more firm in this idea, and then said thoughtfully: "I don't know this address very well, but I can ask the assistant to check it, even if it is a vast sea of people, but as long as you have been in this world, there will always be some traces, and sooner or later you will find the person concerned." ”

At this point, Cheng Cheng nodded with satisfaction: "I don't know how long Zhao Minli can live, and I don't know if she can have one thing that she feels satisfied with before leaving, but I hope she can find her biological mother and feel a little warmer, that person should love her more than Zhao's mother." ”

Cheng Cheng is a mother, she always has a surging and endless love for Nian Cheng, so it is inevitable to push herself and others, thinking that mothers in this world have all kinds of tenderness for their children, but they don't know that the difference between people is greater than the difference between humans and beasts.

Qin Yan, who has been in the mall for many years, has more say in this kind of thing, he always feels that Zhao Minli's biological mother may not even be as good as Zhao's mother, after all, one has been ignored for more than 20 years, and the other is suspected of abuse and oppression, but in the end Zhao Minli has grown so big.

Thinking about it this way, Qin Yan also felt that Zhao Minli might have really committed Lone Star, so that the kinship was so thin, but in order not to let Cheng Cheng's hopes be disappointed, he still agreed: "Then wrap it up on me, she will be fine." ”

In the days that followed, Cheng Cheng had been cultivating at home, she accompanied Nian Cheng and Zhao Minli, feeling like she was taking two children, and even Nian Cheng was better than Zhao Minli, but for this closest friend, she still continued to care for her without complaint.

If you start from Zhao Minli's heart, she doesn't want to drag Cheng Cheng down like this, if she can die in a place that no one knows, it would be really good for her now, but that would make Cheng Cheng very sad.

So, Zhao Minli tried her best to comfort Cheng Cheng, she wanted to pretend to be okay, but then she found that she had forgotten what normal distress looks like, her heart was completely shrouded in dark clouds, and she didn't see a little sunshine.

Let's take Cheng Cheng making afternoon tea at home, this is obviously an extremely ordinary trivial matter, but Zhao Minli still feels dazzling, she looks at the family of three who are talking and laughing, even if she is holding the first cake that Cheng Cheng handed to her, she still feels that she is just an outsider.

Happiness is someone else's, it has nothing to do with her, she can't insert into their world, and she doesn't deserve to be inserted, after all, they are a family, and she is just a wild seed of unknown origin.

After another failed effort, Zhao Minli finally gave up the idea of blending in with them, she didn't want to be sad to the point of coveting even false warmth, so she mainly put forward the idea of wanting to move away.

After packing his luggage, he took the initiative to find Cheng Cheng, Zhao Minli said: "I've been here for so long, and the flowers and plants at home are probably going to die of thirst, so I should go back to accompany them, so that you can relax and relax, and you don't have to take care of a big child." ”

"Where's that?" Cheng Cheng's smile was faint, she turned her head to look at Qin Yan, and wanted him to find a way to keep Zhao Minli.

But Qin Yan didn't seem to have received the signal, he nodded: "Then I'll ask the driver to take you home, remember to report Cheng Cheng's safety every three or five times, otherwise she will run to you from time to time, and Nian Cheng and I will become left-behind children." ”

"Don't worry." Zhao Minli showed the most open-minded smile in these days: "I won't rob Cheng Cheng with you." After speaking, she hugged Cheng Cheng gently, which was a wordless farewell.

It wasn't until she went out that she came back to her senses, Cheng Cheng's expression was a little dazed, she remembered the scar on Zhao Minli's hand again, and was worried that she would be alone when she went home, and she would have those thoughts of self-harm and self-harm. Thinking of this, she even wanted to chase people back before Zhao Minli went far.

When Cheng Cheng stopped people when he went to get his clothes, Qin Yan asked, "What are you going to do?" It won't be that you want to go to Zhao Minli's house to live, then I won't agree. ”

"You've disappointed me." Cheng Cheng shook off Qin Yan's hand: "It's not that you don't know what her situation is now, now that she is left alone at home, not to mention whether she can take care of herself, just those thoughts in her heart make me feel scared." ”

Sighing, Qin Yan calmed her down, and then explained: "But if you catch up, won't all this exist anymore?" Cheng Cheng, you should understand that she is actually not happy here, a person who has lost the ability to be happy will not be cured when he sees others happy. ”

Suddenly like a deflated balloon, Cheng Cheng sat on the sofa and said to himself: "I don't want to lose this friend, she really has to be a good partner and a good colleague." ”

Holding Cheng Cheng's hand in distress, Qin Yan said, "Don't worry, we will find the boat that can cross her out of the sea of suffering, the assistant said that her mother's affairs are already a little eyebrow-raising." ”

"I hope so." A little fire ignited in Cheng Cheng's heart, but somehow, she felt that things would not be so logical.

While they were talking, Zhao Minli had been sent to a rented apartment by the driver, and she thanked the driver, and then went upstairs with her luggage, ready to taste the loneliness of spending some time with her.

Loneliness is the normal state of life, and Zhao Minli feels that she should have understood this truth earlier, so as not to feel depressed again in the coming day when there is no family waiting to welcome the world. She had made up her mind that no matter what happened in the apartment after that, she would face it alone.