Zhen'er has been waiting for Qianxiu to cultivate.

When I opened Zhen'er's book, there was only one sentence written on the first page. I then flipped to the next page, and it was blank! And it's not just the second page that is blank, I flipped the book back and forth several times and found that the whole book was blank except for the first page. This is the first time I've encountered this. My head suddenly emptied, and I hurried to Roddy with a book. Roddy sat at the consultation desk, looking bored.

I opened the book stand in front of Roddy.

"What's going on?" Roddy has a lot more experience than I do, and I think he knows.

Sure enough, he did know the answer.

"Seeing how hot you are, I thought it was something interesting." Roddy held his cheeks, but looked lost.

"This book ......"

"It's very common." He interrupted me without saying a word.

I don't know why, I think Roddy is very indifferent at this time, although he is still smiling, but from this smile, I can't feel the kindness he should have, like the wanton cold cold in the name of the spring breeze, he just habitually has a smile on the corner of his mouth, and the smile covers all kinds of emotions in his heart. He held his cheeks, three points of coldness in his eyes, and seven points of disdain in the remainder. The tone of his voice felt a little cold. Maybe it's because he's always enthusiastic, but in comparison, he seems a little cold.

"The fact that the book is blank means that it has been transferred."

"Huh? What's going on? ”

"Of course, the original book was taken away. Now I guess it's on the black market......" He casually said things I didn't understand, but he didn't meet my eyes when he spoke.

According to Roddy, because the memories in the book are the memories of the book's owner during his lifetime, if they are rewritten, it may affect the person's personality and desires. But it is not a matter of tampering, the content of the tampering must be logical, in line with the owner's style of thinking and acting. If it doesn't meet these requirements, the tampering content is not counted. Some people find it profitable to resell the Book of Memories and take up the illegal business that is by far the most lucrative business on the black market. Although this is illegal, the black market is very powerful, and the Authority does not dare to meddle without evidence. I seem to understand why Uncle Aizawa said that this is not a paradise anymore.

"Roddy, how to solve this situation in general. Vera is still waiting for my answer. ”

"Tell her to go to the black market to find it herself, and ask someone to read her book when she finds it, and then give her clues."

"It's already on the black market, it won't be so easy to find, right?"

"Yes, but it's the surest and most promising way. But ......," Roddy stopped talking.

"But what?"

"It's dangerous for Zhen'er to go to the black market as an identity." He deliberately paused, selling the guanzi.

"Why?"

He looked at me with a puzzled expression, as if he had anticipated my reaction, and then burst out laughing, not knowing whether to be smug or mocking.

"Chaoge really doesn't know anything about this world, it's been three months since he came."

It's true that I don't know anything about the world and don't want to know about it. Not only this world, but also the world before I was born. Obviously, as long as you live in your own little world, you will be very happy, so why bother with anything else? But that's not really a reason, right? I didn't dare to fall in love with the world. I always have the illusion of perfection in the things I love, and when I find something flawed, I can easily fall into depression and sadness. What happens after falling into grief? I'm not the hero of a novel or comic, I can shout "I want to change the world" firmly and lightly, and I don't have the ability to change anything. At the end of the day, I'm just an ordinary little person, not enough to contend with injustice and imperfection, and even often into the quagmire of loneliness and not enough to contend with alienation. That's the real reason, that's why I don't care about everything around me, I don't have deep friendships with people, and I don't like anything. If there is no warm joy and hope for the things around us, pain and disappointment will not come like a torrent.

"Chaoge, maybe you like to close yourself off. But it's a new world, and you might be able to change something here. What you didn't dare to do before you were alive can be done now. ”

"Hmm. Good. I replied perfunctorily, suddenly realizing another question.

"Roddy, you said that the memories of life can be rewritten?"

"Yes."

"If, I mean, if someone's wish is impossible in this world, then we, the managers, are we going to tamper with it?"

Roddy smiled and didn't speak.

I finally knew why I felt like Roddy was a little cold. The Book of Memories is the most important thing for people in this world, but it is common for it to be transferred and sold. As a manager who helps others fulfill their wishes, he is free to change the memories and wishes of others. If you think about it, only the administrators can enter the entrance to the memory warehouse, so the people in the Authority are also inextricably linked to the black market. Oh, that's ironic. I can't help but resist this.

But is Roddy's apathy a numbness to reality or a dissatisfaction with the phenomenon? I didn't ask him, I had a hunch that he would divert from the topic and avoid my question. Roddy and I have only known each other for three months, and we usually only see each other at work, so I don't know him well. But I vaguely feel that Roddy at this time is the real Roddy, and his usual frivolous attitude is just superb acting skills, just to hide the real him. But it's too early to say this, I don't know him, and I can't judge him. Even after getting acquainted with him, I have no right to judge him. People are complicated...... People can't even see into themselves, let alone others?

"I'll go first, go talk to Phoebe." I turned around with Zhen'er's book in my arms. Roddy doesn't look much older than me, but he is much more mature than me, and I don't know what he's carrying, not just Roddy, Phoebe, Angelo, Uncle Aizawa and Zhen'er? Maybe I should make a little change, only a little, of course. I shouldn't be so indifferent to the people and things around me, and I shouldn't be so obedient to the world.

"Chaoge." Hearing Roddy's voice, I looked back at him.

"If you have any difficulties in the future, you can come to me." He showed his trademark smile and bowed. Roddy's appearance itself is very exotic, and his slightly bowed appearance really makes people feel like an elegant aristocratic gentleman.

"This is your latest way to hook up with girls?" I'm referring to his bow.

"Well, I've been reading knight novels lately." He nodded, "Do you think that's okay?" Will the success rate be high? ”

“……”

It's really not a paradise. But I didn't expect that the black market was just the tip of the iceberg. The sins buried beneath this seemingly gentle land are too numerous to mention. I was extremely disgusted by this, and my heart was full of hatred and depression, but there was nothing I could do. I never imagined that in the future, I would be willing to spend all my faith to fight against the world. In the future, I will lose a lot, the confidant who was born and died, the friend who gets along day and night, the elder who treats me like a father, and Roddy who always smiles at me and never leaves......