From the opening of the book in 18 years to the present, it has been two years since the two ends were hung, first of all, thank you for accompanying you all the way and meeting a lot of new friends.

Thank you very much for your support and concern.

The book started with a good grade, better than any of my previous books.

However, the side-by-side comparison with other authors is not good enough.

I also understand my shortcomings, and the most important thing is that the time is unstable.

When I first opened the book, I was working in a certain committee of the county party committee, I didn't have much work, the time was stable, the leadership and the same time were very pure, and there was nothing messy in my heart.

Therefore, both the writing time and the writing mentality are super good, and after finishing the work at hand every day, you can read a book, ponder the plot, and even write two or three chapters in the office.

During that time, there were four basic shifts every day, and there were five and six shifts if there were more.

However, on July 1, 19, he was transferred to a certain bureau.

Needless to say, the rest of the story.

There are a lot of strange things and strange people around me.

I just went to the new environment, I was easy to talk to, I would help whoever asked me to help, I would do whatever I wanted, and I would go with a phone call on Saturday and Sunday.

As a result, it's not that you don't get busy if you help, it's not that you don't have less work, and there are only zero and countless times of overtime on Sundays and weekends.

That's a lesson.

If you have a reader friend who wants to go down this path, you want to remember one thing and don't want to be friends with your colleagues, which is as unrealistic as letting a bitch be good.

To put it mildly, you don't want to do anything for others, but the person you help will not thank you, but feel that you are currying favor with her and currying favor with her.

In this kind of environment, there are many mistakes in doing more and more things being said in more mistakes.

Do your own job and it's over, even if other people's fire burns your eyebrows, you just look at it, don't care.

Many things are not really burning eyebrows, but he shows you the appearance of burning eyebrows, and asks you to help set yourself on fire.

The things you don't do are all troublesome, and you help do it, and this thing is the responsibility of the two of you, and you can't run away when you are held accountable.

I have been pitted many times, and then I slowly regained my taste, and I was half angry to death.

From the moment I entered a certain bureau, I basically didn't want to be idle in the office, and I couldn't be quiet at home, and my writing time and writing status plummeted.

The update speed is halved.,Three chapters a day.,Then it becomes two chapters.,Just these two chapters.,One day, I had to ask for leave when I encountered a dinner and a wine party.。

Sometimes, I'm also annoyed.

So after thinking about it again, I finally resigned when the Chinese New Year was approaching.

Thinking that I have touched the threshold in writing, no matter how low the manuscript fee income is, it is better than going to work, so why bother with that bird anger.

As a result, who would have thought that the epidemic would come just after resigning, and before the epidemic passed, a big event in the online literature circle came in April.

To be honest, when I quit my job, I planned writing as my future life path.

But I was shaken by this incident in April.

For the first time in my life, I began to reflect on whether this path was the right one.

In the past, my family was extremely opposed, and I never wavered, retreated, or doubted, but at that time, I hesitated.

At that time, I was paying attention to the progress of the matter every day, watching the analysis and explanation of this matter by people from all walks of life, and pondering the prospect of free and fee-based.

I also discussed it with my book friends in the book group.

The paid model, that is, the subscription, I didn't enjoy the benefits of this model, if it's free, I don't have any resistance, maybe it's free and I can live a more nourishing life.

However, for readers, most of the concerns are about charging for free, but for authors, there is more to consider.

Such as the prospects and future of this industry.

Writing, can it still be used as the direction of life?

I thought about it for a long time, and during this period, the state of writing became more and more sluggish.

From two shifts a day to one shift a day, and then to one shift every two days......

Sometimes it's not that I'm lazy or procrastinating, you can take a look, many chapters are updated in the early hours of the morning or after one or two o'clock in the morning.

It is only at this point that you can calm down and immerse yourself.

Therefore, the writing environment, writing mentality, and writing time have always been lacking in me, which is a big flaw for me.

I'm not a talented player, and the only one who can do it is persistent.

As for this insistence, it is also because there is no way back.

In the third year of high school from 07 to 08, he wrote his first book.

At first, I wrote it in a notebook, and then I saved more and posted it on the Internet, with the theme of American literature, which is my initial contact with this circle.

At that time, I met a lot of book friends and authors, but 99% of them had already retired or lost contact, and very few kept in touch.

In the summer of 08, I wrote a book of Xianxia at home.

At that time, my family was very opposed to writing, and my father, when I was writing the manuscript, he pulled the electric switch, and at that time I still used TXT, and thousands of words disappeared at once.

Then I have a computer at home, and my brother and I take turns using it, and he plays for a while when I write.

After writing the manuscript, there was no Internet at home, and then I saved it with a USB flash drive and secretly went to an Internet café to update.

That's how it was then.

At the end of the summer vacation, after going to college, the environment is a little more relaxed, no one cares, and you can enjoy the code words in the Internet café.

The only thing is that I don't smoke but I am sensitive to the smell of smoke, and when I smell the smoke, my eyes water, I can't open my eyes, and I fall asleep.

Every time, I always find a place with few people, sit in the corner, and there are few people in the place near the toilet, so I often sit there.

Then, once again concentrating on the code word, the person in the seat next to me secretly pulled out my USB flash drive, and the documents, manuscripts, writing materials, etc., everything, were gone.

And these are not the most shocking.

This book of Xianxia, with 420,000 words written, should have applied for signing 8 times, but it was rejected without exception.

At that time, the threshold for signing was still very high, and sometimes there were 100 people in the street group, and it was estimated that none of them signed a contract.

In addition to the code words every day, the most enthusiastic thing is to inquire about the information related to the contract, just like lottery players study lottery numbers.

Once a contract is signed, the whole group is a sensation, and countless people worship and learn from it.

Before I signed the contract for 420,000 words, I reopened the vest, modified the upload, and spent a few hundred yuan to buy recommendation tickets under the "reminder" of others to make my data look better.

In order to sign a contract, I really went crazy.

As a result, hundreds of yuan of living expenses were wasted, and I spent a month nibbling on steamed buns and eating pickles.

After that, the book was cut in the school's electronic reading room.,At the beginning of 09.,The second book was opened.,Fantasy.。

This book is a smooth mess, the background collection can rise a few times with a refresh, signed up, put on the shelves, the results are not good, the subscription is a double-digit at the beginning of 1, but it is also a breakthrough of zero.

In terms of care, this book is not even a tenth of the previous one, but it succeeds.

Looking back now, hard work is important, but the direction of effort is even more important.

After that, my family found out that I was writing at school-

I sent a small knowing that I had paid for writing the manuscript, and told his mother, and his mother told my mother again.

Then two phone calls a day, telling me to study hard and not write or anything in school.

I often make surprise calls on Saturdays and Sundays, and when I hear my confused voice, I know that I have stayed up late to write manuscripts again.

Later, I practiced that even if I slept in a daze, as long as I answered the phone, my voice would be no different from that of a sober person, and my roommates were amazed.

After the end of the second book, the third book was opened non-stop, and as a result, history repeats itself, with failed contracts again and again, a collection of 800 outcrops, and many friendship collections.

I couldn't see the grades, coupled with the resistance at home, and the pressure from school, so I was silent for a while.

And then it's time to graduate.

interned at Jiangxi Business Daily, was used as a free laborer for a long time, and then resigned decisively.

After looking around, I found that I was not suitable for the road to work, and it happened that the store at home was busy, so I did it at home.

Then I was urged by my family to go on a blind date, annoyed, and there were constant conflicts all day long, reaching the level of resentment.

Doing their own work at home, how can there be a salary, and classmates have no money for wedding gifts.

Then the idea of writing came to me.

Working during the day and writing at night, my dad vented all his grievances with me on writing, and there was hardly a day when he didn't scold.

The last time, as soon as I finished updating in the wee hours of the morning, he started scolding, and it didn't stop at half past three o'clock.

The next day, I bought a ticket and left.

With 1,000 yuan, I rented a house, looked for a job, and wrote a book outside, and passed a year.

Although it is not as tight as at home, it is better to be comfortable in heart and clean in ears.

For a year, my mom called me every day, urging me to come home, saying that my dad didn't object to anything.

I'm not a three-year-old anymore, how can I be so easy to deceive.

Even if you go home, it's good for three days at most, and after three days, it's still business as usual.

But at this time, my mother said that the family had to sign for the house to buy a house.

No way, honestly go home.

Then I didn't return my ID card for a long time after handing it in, and I couldn't leave if I wanted to.

After the creation of the website and the start of the DNF essay campaign, my heart immediately warmed.

At that time, I was playing at my fourth aunt's house in Shanxi, and immediately packed up and went home, and began to write and code.

This book "Creation" was written for more than two years and 4.2 million words.

It doesn't matter whether the grades are good or not, the important thing is the feelings, which will bring an end to the ten-year journey of Arad and give Arad's love story an ending.

I felt that I was no longer young, so I entered into marriage.

At that time, I was still writing a book, but my daughter-in-law thought that I was not doing my job, and it happened that the book was not doing well, so I became a eunuch again.

When you start a family, it's time to start doing things down-to-earth.

After that, I had a child, found a job, and started a dull life.

However, what is the use of the salary for work alone? Milk powder diapers are not enough.

On the parents' side, they don't help coax the children, and they don't mean to help.

I go to work, my daughter-in-law quits her job to take care of the children, and I can't afford diapers, not to mention the milk powder money in the back, school or something.

So, I started writing books again.

This is the origin of the birth of "The Main God of the Low-profile System".

Dreams and feelings have faded, more for the pressure of life.

I was thinking that when the book ended, a new book would be released immediately, and I could advertise the new book again to attract some popularity.

But as soon as the turmoil in April came out, I had no bottom in my heart.

I suddenly found that my previous self was too simple to see problems and think about things.

It's good to focus on one thing, but focusing too much can lead to a narrower viewing angle and a shorter viewing distance, which in turn can affect the pattern.

Get out of the matter of writing, get out of the starting point and look at the problem, and have a different understanding.

Look back at the new book you prepared.

It still seems to be unremarkable, with no potential for fire.

Maybe if you open a book, you will also have some results, and if you go all out, your grades will be a little better.

But now I am not satisfied with small progress and small achievements.

I don't want a few years from now, when I write a testimonial, I will say, "It's been 20 years, and I'm still a street fighter."

People have to do something different.

Also, come up with some different results.

Looking back on the past, I was always writing books with my head down, and the writing experience here on the Internet is like making a car behind closed doors.

In April, a book friend and author told me that his family objected to his writing and kicked him out of the house, and that he only had 10,000 yuan on him, and he rented a house for 2,000 yuan a month.

His situation reminds me of me for 11 years.

I ran away from home with 1,000 yuan in my pocket and went to settle down with my best classmates in college, and he was half cheated by him.

So I said, if you really want to keep writing, come to me.

In the past, there was a single room in the courtyard where my grandparents lived, which was renovated, the environment was not bad, the water and electricity were complete, there was air conditioning, refrigerator, TV, and a small courtyard, and I moved my desktop to him.

The rent is symbolically 200, the water and electricity are taken care of, and the cost of living and writing are reduced to the extreme.

The outline, the golden finger, and the plot line have all been discussed with him, and even made one for him at the beginning and asked him to write it accordingly.

Be diligent, it's still no problem to be on the shelves for a month.

But three months have passed, and the guy has written 0 words.

It's really 0 words.

In the fourth month, he was gone.

I haven't been contacted since.

Some things are very sensitive.

It's hard to ask.

I don't want to ask.

It's a vain question to ask.

Some people are limited by the external environment, but they have a heart to write but are bound everywhere, and they can't make achievements, and everyone says that they don't do their jobs.

And some people, just to escape life, work, and family in the name of writing, pretend to work hard all day long, but in fact they are willing to degenerate.

Sometimes, there are so many failures that you can't even figure out what kind of person you are.

I'm hesitant about the new book.

One is that if my time, mentality, and environment do not change, it will be equivalent to repeating the mistakes of the past.

The results of "The Main God of the Low-profile Version System" were very good at the beginning, but because of external factors, the quality declined halfway through, and it collapsed.

There is also my personal internal cause.

Lack of writing skills.

This is not something that diligence and hard work can compensate.

Skills can indeed be summed up in practice. But that's an innumerable practice.

And there is such a thing as skill, which is worthless for successful pioneers.

Listening to your words is better than reading a book for ten years, which is very reasonable.

I feel like I'm on the right track.

I haven't been able to make a road in 12 years, and I really should sit down and rest, summarize and reflect.

In the next time, I am still working hard and trying to improve myself.

Write the beginning of a new book, twenty or thirty thousand words, look at the big guys, correct the mistakes word by word, find out the deep-seated flaws and deficiencies, and then rewrite it.

I'm not afraid of failure, I'm not afraid of starting over, I'm afraid of the infinite loop of failure and restart.

As I wrote in this book, the nature of the world is repetition.

99.99% of people are repeating themselves day in and day out.

Only 0.01% of people are able to jump out of this cycle and get new every day, every day, and every day.

I want to be one in 10,000 too.

Silence is not for the sake of leaving, but for being reborn and reborn.

In order to be able to have the confidence to impact the altar and attain the Great Dao when he returns.

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Love your Daqin Xiaobing, 2020-9-3