Chapter 39: Tears often flow when reminiscing about the past
"When Xiao Qiong was three years old, Wu Fan, who was the assassin of Wuzhou, invited me to go to Wuzhou City for a while, although I was disdainful of the deceit between these princes, but Jin'er advised me to weigh the relationship with the authorities, so I went to Wuzhou City for an appointment, and when I saw Wu Fan, he asked me for warmth and care, at first I thought it was nothing, but when I was half drunk, Wu Fan asked me like those princes and kings if I would like to be his military advisor, although I refused him in front of the celebrities of Wuzhou, But I didn't expect Wu Fan to hold a grudge! On the evening of the second day after the banquet, I happened to pick up Xiao Xin, who was temporarily living in Ruan Yu's house, and when I returned here, I found a team of horses parked at the door of the house, I thought it was not good, and after explaining to Xiao Xin, I rushed into the house, the outer house was very messy, which made me panic, so I ran towards the inner house in a panic, and I could hear the obvious chaotic sound! And Jin'er's heart-rending cry! Wait for me to push the door in! What I saw was a picture of Jin'er, who was covered in blood, holding Xiao Qiong, who was motionless and not crying, sitting on the ground and crying hoarsely! Jin'er's eyes of pain and despair are gradually losing their vitality! I'll never forget it in my life! It reminds me all the time, it's all because of me! It's because of my relationship that they died tragically! When Jin'er saw me, she used her last strength to squeeze out a reassuring smile, and then closed her eyes...... I was just holding the fallen figure of Jin'er with my bare hands, I couldn't make a sound in my mouth, I could only roar hoarsely, and the thought of never seeing Jin'er's voice and smile again was like being in a gray purgatory on earth, after all, Jin'er is the light that shines on my life! But I still can't understand Jin'er's smile at me when she died......"
"That should be an apologetic smile, because Mrs. Zhuge knows that they can't go on with you, precisely because she knows what kind of person you are, Mr. Zhuge , so she used the last moment of her life to tell you in this way, even if their mother and daughter can't accompany you, I hope you can live well! Because Mrs. believes that Mr. Zhuge must be able to understand her intentions! So you should live well for them! Li Chunyi said coldly, and he didn't feel tears as he spoke...... Maybe it's sympathy for Zhuge Xian's experience, maybe it's the loneliness that empathizes with Zhuge Xian, or maybe it's thinking of her grandfather Li Wuwei.
Xiangyan took a step forward and gently held Li Chunyi in her arms, her chin was clubbed on her head, her eyes were misty, she was Chunyi's sister, how could she make Chunyi feel lonely?
Although it touched the scene, Zhuge Xian was very calm at the moment: "Maybe it's just like Miss Chunyi said, but it's a pity that I didn't realize Jin'er's good intentions at that time, because Wu Fan's sentence was hit by more than a dozen knives and can still live until now, my whole person is crazy, hate!" Very hateful! That was the first time I had personally revealed my murderous intent! I wanted to kill Wu Fan, and I did! But I'm a literati after all, and Wu Fan is a martial artist! He plunged the dagger into my heart with a single step, I didn't feel the pain, but my consciousness was exceptionally clear! Gripping his collar tightly with his hand, this man who killed Jin'er and Joan! Even if I'm a ghost, I won't let him go...... But it doesn't help that I hate him, I'm weak, weak enough to be ruined by him,...... I could only watch my wife die and could not do anything about it...... When Wu Fan pulled out the dagger, my chest was bleeding profusely, and with my last breath, I crawled to Jin'er and Xiaoqiong, and held them in my arms, and finally I could only hear Wu Fan's departing footsteps and what he said was the end of disobedience to him. ”
"I didn't expect Mr. Zhuge to have such a past, as you said, shouldn't you be dead? Why are you still alive? Xiangyan asked.
And the answer to Xiangyan was Li Xin's voice from outside the door, and she walked in with a pot of tea: "I went to report to Uncle Ruan, and when Uncle Ruan arrived, although my brother-in-law was seriously injured and dying, his pulse was still there, and Uncle Ruan's accompanying doctor saved my brother-in-law...... But my sister and niece have been dead for a long time...... Woo woo woo ~ "Xiao Xin cried tears because of the hurt and the fact that she was still young at that time.
Zhuge Xian took out a handkerchief and gently wiped Xiao Xin's tears and said: "I don't know how long it took, when I woke up, I thought that the room in the underworld was so luxurious, it turned out that I was still alive!" A person alive...... And Jin'er and Xiaoqiong have already settled in the ground under Ruan Yu's arrangement......"
"At that time, I was decadent for a long time, what else was left without Jin'er and Xiaoqiong? I don't want to be alone, I want to go to them, so I think about suicide every day! Ruan Yu also can't sleep well every day because of this, and is always on guard against me, but! Later, I thought that if I died without revenge, wouldn't I have no face to see them! So I thought about revenge plans for a long time, until one day, when I took their spirit cards home to settle them, I happened to meet the master of Guan Zhai who came to me again......" Zhuge Xian's eyes looked at Guan Duanyi.
Guan Duyi was stunned for a moment, and said in shock: "It turned out that at that time! "He seemed to have something terrible in mind. It turned out that Zhuge Xian would promise him to enter the village at that time!
"Master Guanzhai, I used you before! I'm sorry, Hyun made amends to you! Zhuge Xian bowed down to Guan Duan and bowed three times.
"It's okay! It's okay! Isn't it good to talk well, you used to speak in a variety of ways, and I couldn't understand a lot of them! Hahahahaha, but thanks to the military advisor's willingness to help me, my Xingyuan Village can grow! The acquaintance and intersection with the military advisor is the luck of Guan Mou's three lives! How can you blame the military division. Seeing this, Guan Duyi said with sincere fear. He didn't blame Zhuge Xian for using him at all.
Zhuge Xian nodded to Guan Duyi again and then said: "When I went to Suizhou with the lord of Guan Zhai, I didn't tell anyone, so the people of Wuzhou thought I was missing, and Wu Fan also thought that I did die that night, and when I arrived in Suizhou, I originally planned to subdue Suizhou Jiuzhai first and then recruit troops to attack Wuzhou, but at that time, the owner of Xiangzhai appeared, and subdued Jiutongzhai with the power of one person, so I designed to lure the owner of Xiangzhai to come to Xingyuan Village, and then there was an agreement in Wuzhou. And so it came to us. ”
"We all know the general situation, but what is the situation this time?" Xiangyan asked again.
"It's just like the plan in the letter to capture Wuzhou City, but I miscalculated Lu Zhan's and Lu Yong's personal force that caused General Lu and the Guan Zhai Lord to be so seriously injured, I'm sorry." Zhuge Xian bowed his head again and apologized.
"This little injury is nothing, Uncle Lu, don't you say?" Guan said with a smile.
Lu Yong echoed Guan Duyi's meaning and nodded: "Mr. Zhuge doesn't have to be like this, although Lu Zhan is powerful!" But it's true that I'm not as good as others. "He's still very self-aware.
Xiangyan said angrily: "Are you mistaken? I'm not asking you this, I'm asking why you're still thinking about suicide! We sacrificed so many brothers to defeat Wuzhou, whose policy is it? It's you, right? You're good to go! After taking revenge, you want to commit suicide, have you ever experienced the feelings of those brothers who died in battle? ”
"My wish has come true, there is no point in living, I miss Jin'er and them, I want to go to them......" Zhuge Xian's expression was gloomy, if Xiaoqiong was still alive......
"Meaningless? Then I'll give it to you! From today! You don't just have to live for the promise between us! And live for the brothers who sacrificed their lives to lay down the city of Wuzhou for you! Xiangyan said loudly! Full of momentum.
"Brother-in-law...... I've already lost my sister, I don't want you to leave too, if you don't take good care of yourself, my sister can't be at ease in the spirit of heaven......" Li Xin cried again.
"Xiao Xin......"
"I didn't expect Mr. Zhuge to still be a lover, Mr. Zhuge has nothing to say about his wife's feelings, please take care." Chen Pan admired Zhuge Xian's talent and respected Zhuge Xian's personality, but he didn't expect that Zhuge Xian was such a fragile person.
"Strategist!" Guan Duyi stretched out his hand towards Zhuge Xian.
People with big nerves are often ready at the most critical moments......
"Mr. Zhuge ."
"Mr. Zhuge ......"
"Mr. Zhuge ......"
Everyone stretched out their hands towards Zhuge Xian.
Zhuge Xian was moved, and said softly to the spiritual position of his wife and daughter: "Jin'er, I may have to come to you after a while, Xiaoqiong, waiting for Daddy." ”
Then Zhuge Xian knelt down on one knee in front of Xiangyan and said, "Minister Zhuge Xian see the lord." ”
Everyone was relieved.
Xiangyan also smiled, and at that moment, it was like being in Suizhou Caolu, she saw a woman smiling at her, the smile was very bright and bright, as if she had untied a long-standing heart knot, and there was a little girl with braids next to her who was also smiling at her, and the little girl's facial features were very similar to Zhuge Xian!
Thank you, girl, Hyun will please you, my last wish has been granted.
Auntie and aunt, Daddy still needs you to take care of me, Xiaoqiong will cheer for you!
"Your wife is beautiful, and your daughter is lovely." Xiangyan said coldly to Zhuge Xian. Even she herself wondered why she said this.
"Thank you, I think so too." Zhuge Xian recalled the appearance of his wife and daughter and smiled.
In the study, when he was practicing calligraphy, an innocent woman suddenly lay on his shoulder, blowing his earlobes and gently calling him to eat, and a short girl next to him held his calves and giggled at him. He held his daughter in one hand and led his wife to the courtyard to eat in the other.
It's a routine he's ever experienced but never experienced again.
Looking back suddenly, he could only smile helplessly, he was the only one left in this shattered family.