I'm afraid I'm not good enough to make you think love is nothing more than that!

One day, you may meet someone who loves you, and in your eyes, no matter how bad he is, he is also good. Gentle people always have low self-esteem.

At this time, there was a short silence, and the silent atmosphere made people feel a little depressed, Ben Qing quietly waited for You'an, waiting for him to tell his story, she was curious, and she was also a little expectant.

After all, she wanted to know something about him, but she also knew how cruel and painful it was for him to tell some things as a story.

Chen You'an has a complicated heart, let's say it's relieved, but his heart is still full of self-blame, because he has done a lot of unreasonable things, even now he thinks it's his fault, and her departure is a matter of course.

"I have a bad temper, at least I used to have a bad temper. Old bad guys. Chen Youan glanced up at Benqing and said self-deprecatingly.

"I don't think you've got a bad temper." Benqing said.

"That's because you don't know, in front of everyone, I am patient and good-tempered. But. He stopped talking.

"Did you leave your bad temper to the dearest people around you?" She asked.

After a long time

"Hmm!"

Chen Youan waved his hand and motioned for the waiter to step forward: "Please help me get some sake." ”

"A cup, or a pot?" The waiter asked.

"A pot."

"Want to drink?" Ben Qing said with a smile.

"It's a little annoying, I want to have some drink."

"Then I'll drink lemonade to accompany you if you don't get drunk and don't go home!" After speaking, Benqing raised his hand to clink glasses with You'an, and took a sip of himself.

Chen Youan fell into the memory.

"It was also a coincidence when I met her, I had a total of two relationships in college, and when I met her, it happened to be more than a year after I broke up." Chen Youan smiled sweetly, even if it was in the past, the memories were very beautiful! "I met her in the community, and I really didn't know some of her family conditions at the beginning, but I was simply attracted by her beauty.

"It turned out to be an uprising." Ben Qing giggled, "You men, are you all like this?" No wonder so many people like me. I'm so hard! ”

Chen Youan looked at Benqing and looked at it very seriously.

"Well, you're really beautiful."

"When I first met her at that time, it was also the saddest time for me to break up, there was no ambiguity and there was not much intersection, most of it was a club thing. One day, something happened to happen with her, and from that moment on, she appeared in my world. Youan said.

"What's the matter? You can remember one thing so hard! Ben Qing said.

"My ex-girlfriend approached her and reminded her that I wasn't a good thing." When Chen Youan said, he was a little embarrassed.

"Say you're a scumbag?" Ben Qing picked up the lemonade in his hand and gestured.

"That's right." Chen Youan raised his glass and drank it all.

"That's a good amount of alcohol! Plagued a lot of girls, right? Benqing quipped.

"It's someone else who is harming me, okay?" Youan suddenly remembered something, and her teeth were itchy with anger.

At the beginning, she was a little confused, but under the irrational and crazy output of her predecessor, she roughly understood something. She grinned and told her ex that she knew. My ex didn't give up, and showed him the chat history he used to have, telling her that if it weren't for her appearance, I would still be with me now. ”

Chen Youan continued

She didn't get angry and said lightly, why is she with me? Why do you feel like we're in this together? For a period of time, I kept telling her about me, hoping that she would leave, and finally I didn't say anything after I felt that it was really boring. ”

"When she found me, she told me some chat logs and things, and asked me what I was going to say?"

"I asked her, do you still believe it?"

"She said, she believes!"

"At that time, I really liked my ex very much, I gave up a lot for her, I learned a lot, I paid a lot, I was always afraid that I didn't do well enough, so that she felt that love was just like that!" When he said this, Youan poured a whole cup by himself and drank it all, and the sake was sweet but not greasy.

"Did your ex know what love was like at last?" Benqing asked.

"Maybe you know, I don't know." Chen Youan's mood was slightly depressed at this time. "When I left, I was sad for a long time, and I gave up on myself for almost a year."

"Unconsciously, the contact with Umbrella Mingyue is getting longer and longer, and there is always such a shadow in my heart, we are studying together in the library and in the classroom together, so happy, I thought I had finally come out. I patiently told the story of our love at that time, and she also listened patiently, sometimes comforting gently, and the two got along like this, one confided, and the other analyzed objectively. When Chen Youan said this umbrella Mingyue, his eyes began to slowly have some color, and his spirit became better.

"Later, my ex had a lot of boyfriends, Umbrella Mingyue asked me if I loved it so much, and my answer at that time was, after breaking up for so long, it was not love, but the person who once held it in the palm of her hand, and always hoped that she was good. If there is anyone who loves her in the future, she must not come back to me again. ”

"Scumbag! Narcissist! After Ben Qing heard this, he couldn't help but interrupt.

"Hahahahaha! Now that I think about it, it's a bit scum! Chen You'an responded happily.

"That's it, the more we talked, the more the umbrella moon appeared in my world, where there is her, there will be me, and where there is me, there will be her hearty laughter, which has always accompanied me."

"After graduating, I began to face the biggest test, and work, life, and feelings were entangled together. That's how our relationship has changed. Youan continued.

"Is that because she has someone better?" Ben Qing asked.

"Life crushed me, the original love was beautiful, but when we were together, the contradictions that continued to accumulate became more and more intense, plus my temper was not very good. Endless bickering began. Most of them were provoked by me, I was ignorant, my temper became more and more violent, I was impatient and said that I was too tired from work, and I bought a lot of electronic devices, which made my life worse, she comforted me, grew up with me, and she looked forward to our future. ”。

"Slowly, I learned to grow up and learn to be responsible, but instead of falling away from her, I finally disappeared into my world." After saying that, I drank another glass of sake.