Chapter 100: Blissful Wonderland Chapter 12
Also, she is no longer the pampered eldest lady, but a dancer who has fallen to the Qinglou, the down-and-out scholar who died back then, is now the champion of the court, and in order to win him over to serve under his command, Zaifu of the dynasty not only married his daughter to him, but also deliberately brought him to the most carefree world to be a god in the Bliss Palace. Fate is so ridiculous, the difference between the clouds and mud in the past, she went with him without hesitation, but now when they meet, she has become a person he is afraid of. He is a promising champion, and she is a miserable and humble dancer. They are so close to each other, and their hearts are already close to the end of the world.
She danced sadly, others were amazed by her dancing, but only she knew that her every step was like stepping on a blade of pain, his dodging gaze made her heart like a knife, like falling into an ice cellar, every time she breathed, she felt that her heart hurt to the extreme, and she felt that she was really miserable and ridiculous and pathetic, she thought that her emotions would burst and she couldn't control herself to hate that person, but now she only feels that everything in the world is scattered with the clouds, and she can really understand what it means to have a heart like ashes.
She was immature enough when she was taken away, and even then she didn't have the heart to die, she survived the difficult birth when she gave birth to Qichuan, and she tried to live when she was tormented day and night in this hell, and she allowed herself to be trampled on for the sake of his only bone and blood. And the man she thought she could redeem her returned, but the knife that had been stabbed into her heart deepened.
She didn't blame the word fate, but she thought that there would be no more cruel punishment, but the suffering she had suffered was not enough for her to repay the mistakes she had committed in ignorance.
He wished she had stayed here forever. The scholar who shared the grave with her back then is no longer the person she loved desperately. Everything at his fingertips, his status, his money, his ambitions and ideals, will never allow anyone to stand in the way.
She used all her strength to dance, as if she had already decided in her heart that this was the last dance in her life, and the love she believed in and the hope she held on to were all crumbling at this moment, ethereal like a broken bubble in the air. She danced desperately and gorgeously, shocking the audience.
And the person who lost her gave her an inscription for her dance when she left: "The Lingyue fairy makes a flower shadow, and the snow of Anhui falls into the world." At the time, this sentence was considered to be a compliment to the dancer's outstanding dancing skills, and only Ah Niang knew that this was the greatest irony of her falling into this situation. The scholar knew that her mother was an extremely strong person, and ordinary women had already sworn to be broken jade for the sake of loyalty, but her mother fell to the fireworks and was willing to be humiliated. In his pedantic and old-fashioned mind of the three obediences and four virtues taught by the Four Books and Five Classics, he not only felt that his mother's body had long been defiled and lost her chastity was disdainful, but also that she was still alive, and it was also a manifestation of her betrayal of female morality.
When Aunt Cheng Bi said this, she paused, and her face showed resentment and unwillingness. She has accompanied her all the way over, and has seen her ups and downs, and the lover who she once had in her heart for her unyielding loyalty, raising the only bloodline for him, is the hope she has persisted until now, but that person does not believe her at all, does not help her out of this hell, but becomes the villain who falls into the well. Chengbi, who knew what was going on, was also very angry about this.
Qi Chuan's breathing slowed down by half a beat, and asked cautiously, "My aunt...... Afterwards...... She ......"
Aunt Chengbi sighed lightly and said slowly: "Your mother couldn't swallow this breath, so she jumped into the sea at night." ”
Qi Chuan's heart was lifted all of a sudden, although she knew that her mother was not dead, but she still felt shocked. My mother has always been so strong and straightened her spine and stumbled in the dark, how much pain she suffered to choose this extreme path. Yu Chuan suddenly remembered that he heard that his mother was also lame after being named Wanxue Qinghui that time, and this injury that ended his mother's career as a dancer was the time when his mother sought death.
She finally understood why her mother was so cold to her when she was young, and she was the child she endured and was born again, but now it has become a mark of her unclean shame. She couldn't empathize with how devastating her mother must have been. In order to allow her to also gain the strength to negotiate with the island owner, her mother made compromises, but she did not understand and sympathize with her mother's painstaking efforts at all, and she once resented her mother for her court, and her mother's hardships and hard work for her were unimaginable, how could she have such qualifications!
As for how her mother was rescued, how she gradually regained her senses, she has no way of knowing, that dark and desperate trough is the hurdle in her mother's heart that will always pass, like a falling disability, accompanying her like a shadow. And the big mistake that he inadvertently made when he was young, his mother paid the price of the last perseverance, she suffered humiliation, and did not hesitate to break the oath she had adhered to, and she was also determined to save Chuan from this cave at that time, only to pour out all her skills and pin her hope on her child.
"I'm already dead...... And there is a future for Qichuan. ”
Her eyes were always looking into the distance, to the place where the horizon of the sea level converged. It was the future that my mother said, a place that she was completely unfamiliar with and unaware of. All she knew was that her mother had used all her strength to get her flying there.
Ah Niang has always held hope in her heart, hoping that she will be able to return to the other side one day, but now she can only pass by the Sansheng Stone and step across the Nai He Bridge on the other side of the three roads, looking back at the homeland and the freedom she has always hoped to step back to. And her unscrupulous daughter, the child she had to defend and protect with her life, had been indulging in illusions, and almost gave up on herself, and it was her mother who paid the price of blood in exchange for her first drink.
Can the mother forgive her for her ignorance and ignorance?
Akikawa is determined to fight the monsters that this island has incarnated into.
When she learned of her mother's death from others, her heart was calmer than ever. The others cautiously looked at her face, and when they saw her unwavering face, their hearts were shocked and amazed, and whispered how cold-blooded she was, and even her mother died to save her. And Qi Chuan drew Qing Dai's eyebrows with his own hands, with red lips, and he didn't even shake his hands.
She had already made up her mind.