Chapter 26: The Knot of the Heart
After the three of them had eaten and drunk enough, they took advantage of the evening breeze to talk and laugh and walk back.
The night seems to be the main tone of the city, the lights are colorful, the songs are boiling, the traffic is busy, there is no heat of the day, there are more pedestrians on the street, three or two friends, by the breeze, tell the recent interesting things, the wind passes, the troubles also dissipate.
After receiving Gu Lei's call, Wu Gu let go of the hand holding Ju Ange, slowed down, followed behind the two, and whispered to the person on the other end of the phone to share today's life.
Ju Ange held Song Yali's hand, there was no match and no pair, thinking about the person in the car today, Song Yali felt that the two of them faintly seemed to have sparks: "Ange, the boy in the car today looks good, do you want to take him?" ”
"You said Zheng Zichong? I haven't met him a few times in total, how can you think like that? After hearing Song Yali's words, Ju Ange searched in his mind for all the memories of Zheng Zichong, and found that he no longer had any information about this person except for knowing his name, knowing that he was still studying, and knowing that his home was in Chongqing.
"I think you are quite fateful, you met in the same car on the first day you came to Chongqing, and you are not also single, Chongqing is not far from Guiyang, even if you talk, you can still see if you want to see it." Song Yali analyzed the situation of the two, An Ge is single, she doesn't have a boyfriend in the whole dormitory, she doesn't go out every day, she nests in the dormitory, how can this develop, she finally came out to play, and she happened to meet her acquaintance, isn't this fate? Zheng Zi is handsome, but he still looks quite trustworthy, and it seems that it is okay to develop it!
"You've only thought about me! How do you know he doesn't have a girlfriend, although, he's the type I like, but not the one I like! Zheng Zichong's face automatically appeared in his mind, Ju Ange felt that he had no waves in his heart, and he didn't even have any signs of throbbing, and he directly made it clear to Song Yali that he was not interested in Zheng Zichong.
"So you have someone you like?" asked unwillingly, Song Yali thought that there were so many boys in the class, what if Ju Ange secretly poked and liked one of them!
However, the truth is always unsatisfactory, Song Yali heard not even the name of the person, but the resolute and ruthless "No one likes it!" ”。
Ju Ange is also very eager that one day he will be very enthusiastic and pure to like someone, but unfortunately, from junior high school to high school, and then to college, Ju Ange does not have such a role in his life.
It is said that high school is the high incidence period of heartbeat, Ju Ange thought about it, high school seems to only have laughter with friends, or physics and math problems that can never be solved, throbbing this emotion, but it has never come!
Looking at the friends around him, some of them gradually belonged, Ju Ange felt very envious, as if everyone's life was moving forward, only he still stopped in the same place, no direction, no expectations, and lost the ability to like a person, so he could answer Song Yali so quickly and resolutely.
The wind tonight is very gentle, and when he asked the question that he had been avoiding, Ju Ange's heart was not too touched, and he would not be too demanding of whoever came, and it was not a big deal if he didn't, but it would be better to have such a person......
"But you deserve to be liked." After Song Yali heard Ju Ange's answer, she squeezed her hand and said casually.
In Song Yali's impression, Ju Ange always seems to be very resistant to other people's feelings for her, whether it is the public confession of others to her during military training, or the overly obvious care of her classmates in other people's classes later, Ju Ange always silently refuses with actions without saying a word, on the surface she looks optimistic and free, but she has an extremely hard shell.
After a long time, Song Yali began to find that Ju Ange refused to go home, and rarely called home, and occasionally called her father, never more than a minute.
I had never heard her mention the situation in her family, and slowly, Song Yali found that because of the family relationship, Ju Ange was very resistant to sudden but hot feelings, and even had a trace of inferiority complex in her heart, always feeling that she didn't seem to be worthy of blatant favoritism.
But Song Yali has always felt that Ju Ange is worth it, so after knowing the intentions of other students, Song Yali will always secretly follow the matchmaking, because she is afraid that it will be too much, so Song Yali will mention it casually every time.
After hearing Song Yali's words, Ju Ange did not answer.
Holding Song Yali's hand and starting to slide, it was as if the secret you had worked so hard to hide for many years was suddenly exposed, and there was nowhere to hide, you hope that you are the one you show in the eyes of others, and you don't want to be uncovered......
After noticing Ju Ange's momentary loss, Song Yali held her sliding hand: "You are very good, you are a good person, you can help anyone who is in trouble, you will help, and your personality is good." ”
Am I fine?
Am I really good?
Aside from my hypocrisy, detachment, and confusion, am I still fine?
"You're better." After turning her head and glancing at Song Yali, Ju Ange replied to her with a smile.
The street lights were yellow, the breeze was light, Ju Ange thought: I will still remember the scene at this moment after many years, the sudden sense of stability that was softly affirmed by someone, like being knocked on the heart, and there were bursts of echoes.
"You're good!"
It's a very simple sentence, but it gives people an urge to want up.
After Wu Gu answered the phone, he strode forward and grabbed Ju Ange's other arm.
Being led by others to walk firmly towards the destination, the pace is very slow, but Ju Ange gives birth to a sense of companionship, like you think that you only have a small part of what you think in your heart, but in fact, you can have more. For the first time, Ju Ange felt that he was not so alienated from these two rooms.
After arriving at the hotel, Ju Ange fell to the big bed, and he will definitely have a good night's sleep tonight.
After struggling to get up and wash, I instantly fell asleep again.
When I came to the balcony, I sat and watched the traffic and lights, as if everything was not so bad, there was always a light, which was belonging.
Even if belonging is only welcomed by one person, it will be our place to go.
Everyone you meet has a specific meaning, someone teaches you to lose, someone teaches you to identify with yourself, someone teaches you wishful thinking, someone teaches you to love, someone must teach you to be loved!
The world can be noisy, and there will always be someone who comes to you through a thousand different sounds, sooner or later.
Because you're worth it.
Because you're good too.
Because you are you!
So it's you!