Xu Feifei's confession:

Li Jingjing, hmph, when she was not at first glance, she was very similar to my mother when she was young.

I'm thinking, this is also the reason why I fell in love with her at a glance in the vast sea of people.

I was born in a city in the north, and when I was a child, I was especially envious of Ah Mao next door.

His parents both work in a food factory, although they are not good-looking, but their lives are ordinary and fulfilling, and the family seems to be happy at all times.

My father is the director of the Municipal Quality Supervision Bureau, and although the official is not big, he is full of manhood in the family.

My mother was a member of a state-run choir, she was good-looking, she sang well, and she was a pillar in the group.

Faced with my father's macho ideas, my mother certainly couldn't accept it.

The family I grew up in was always restless.

The two of them sometimes even fought over who was going to wash the dishes, and I was very scared of them fighting.

Seeing the tension between the two of them, I hurriedly washed all the dishes and chopsticks.

But that doesn't stop them from having a deep dislike for each other, and sometimes a war doesn't even know what to do.

Later, my mother was often away from home, and then my father, who was also doing the same, and was often away from home.

They each had someone outside, and I was sent to my grandparents' house.

Their marriage, which was wrong from the beginning, didn't make it to the end.

One of the things my mother often said in my ear was: "Fanfan, if it weren't for you, my mother wouldn't have been able to stay in this house for a minute." ”

I was annoyed: "If you can't stay, don't stay, it's better if you all go out of this house, and I'll be peaceful." ”

After they divorced, they didn't care much about me as a child.

Let's see you in the last one year!

Her father soon had a new home, but her mother did not, but in the years that followed, there was never a shortage of men around her.

Even now, she is still charming, getting along with a foreign man, and following that man to a foreign country.

My marriage to Li Jingjing was managed with my heart, and I don't want to repeat the mistakes of my parents.

Unexpectedly, my marriage, which I was running like walking on thin ice, did not give me a perfect ending.

Li Jingjing, this girl, exudes a temperament from the bones.

I've put up with her for so many years, and I'm really a wonder.

Joan, she's the only girl I've ever seen since I started working in the hospital.

The year she entered the hospital, my marriage with Li Jingjing was rotten to the extreme.

At that time, Joan's youthful and splendid appearance made my stagnant life seem to be a little slight.

But it was only a little bit of a glimmer, and I knew that the beautiful era of youth, full of infinite longing for love, was far away from me.

Joan, I just need to look at her unguarded smiling face in between working at the hospital.

The end of my marriage with Li Jingjing was also inevitable, before that, I forgave her again and again, hoping that our marriage would last forever, but that was just my self-deception.

In the stairwell of the hospital, I was overjoyed when I learned that Jo Ann had decided to end her two-year marriage.

I even think that this is God's arrangement, and when we both come out of the siege of marriage, does it mean that I have hope?

Coincidentally, Joan actually asked me to pretend to be her third party, and her move made the flame of my hope burn even more.

I even began to draw a blueprint in my heart, I was willing to walk with her into the siege again, and that city would be impregnable and unbreakable by any external force.

Hmph, reality quickly slapped you in the face.

Seemingly youthful and lively, simple and lovely Joan, it is not simple at all.

I had a showdown with her, saying that I had liked her for a long time, and asked her if she could give me this chance.

She refused without thinking about it, saying that I was not a person with her, and I was not her dish.

I am a man and know that it is not easy to pursue a girl, and I hope that after my efforts, she will give me a chance.

Joan is a heartless woman who won't give me the slightest chance.

It was her stern rejection that made me feel more and more that she was a rare good woman in the world, and it also aroused my determination to conquer her more and more.

But this kind of good wish was soon shattered by reality.

Officer Xiao, I told you, that night, I was on the night shift, and I heard Qiao An and Qin Chunqiu arguing in the locker room.

The aisles in the locker room are narrow and there are not many people.

They were arguing so loudly that I didn't want to hear it.

I don't want to say more about the content of their quarrel, anyway, it's just some unseemly deeds of two shameless men and women.

Only then did I realize that the girl in my mind in the past was not as pure as I imagined.

I just learned why she said I wasn't her thing.

Although it is already very good to be the director of surgery at my age, it is still a big gap compared to Qin Chunqiu's old bastard.

I sneered in my heart, is there still pure love in this world?

Love, detached from status and money, can't it be called love in today's materialistic society?

I have never been more depressed, what else can I believe in this world? Suddenly, I felt that life was completely out of color.

When I saw Jo Ann again in the aisle of the hospital the next day, she was still smiling and greeting me happily.

That smiling face full of youth became extremely hideous in front of me, pulling out several ugly shadows.

It shook so much that I wanted to throw up.

I quickly ran away from her, ran into the bathroom, retched for a long time, and didn't vomit.

Every time I saw her after that, it was a kind of torment, and all the unbearable and evil were buried under that innocent face, which made people particularly disgusting.

I've been thinking about how to make the shady affair between this pair of men and women show the world, and it is false to say that I have no selfish intentions.

Before I saw Qin Chunqiu's true face, I felt that he was worthy of his name as the vice president.

When his ugly side came along, I had some ideas about his position.

If he stepped down, there would be one of the few people in the hospital who could get into that position, and the most likely person would be me.

I've been planning how to make Qin Chunqiu completely unable to turn over.

This opportunity was not long in coming.

The day before the Lantern Festival, when I met Joan in the stairwell, she was not in a good mood.

I offered to invite her to drink, and the woman could do anything when she drank too much.