Chapter 8: It's hard to say goodbye
Last time, I talked about the public phone booth, and the two discussed whether Chang Xia would stay in Shanghai?
(a)
There was no sound on either side like a nightmare, as if all the performances on the stage had ended; It's like a funeral, all the mourning music has stopped, and only the sound of falling ground remains.
The sound of the heartstrings breaking rang, and the heart was cold for a while, and the sound of falling to the ground kept rattling.
"You say the same, you say the same." Tears flowed down Chang Xia's cheeks.
Raised his head, pursed his lips, and sucked away his tears deeply, "I'll ask you one last time, will you let me pass?" ”
Chang Xia was silent, and a black flannel sucked up the sound of walking.
Chang Xia hung up the phone with a snap, her movements were abrupt and violent, she lost the control of her own will, and suddenly broke her neck like a running horse.
The grocery store owner watched in amazement as the girl held her and crouched on the ground.
"There was a 'pop' sound, like nails, from the top of my head to the back of my feet. The air around me was sucked away. It's like a person who has a nightmare, in which his body keeps falling into the abyss, as if he sees himself struggling with his hands and kicking his legs all the way down hopelessly. Open your eyes, open your eyes, and wake up. ”
At that moment, he almost lost her. Years later, when he talked about the past, he still had palpitations, clasped her hand, and muttered, "I almost lost you forever." ”
Just as the two of them met by a chance click of the mouse, her disappearance was also a phone call between the lines.
I couldn't wait for his answer, and at that moment, the other party's phone hung up, and there was a blind beep, and in that moment, he turned into a frozen stone, and sank straight into the deep water of the vacuum, almost suffocating with horror.
The drowning man stretched out a hand to the board with all his might, and one of his fingers touched the mobile phone key, and all his will to survive forced into this finger, and the finger slammed into it. Subconsciously reverse the phone.
What if Chang Xia has left the phone booth?
Almost instantly, the "bell" rang again. Chang Xia turned his head in astonishment, looked at the landline, but forgot to pick it up.
"It's yours." The young shopkeeper looked at Chang Xia with sympathy and handed Chang Xia the microphone.
The last-second phone call decided where Chang Xia would go in his life. Bai Xian said, "You come here, no matter what happens in the future?" Even later we ate pickles and drank porridge together. None of us will regret it. ”
For this sentence, what did Bai Xian pay in the years to come? A man's lifelong commitment.
It was almost noon when the grocery store owner saw the girl in a long floral dress in white standing on the side of the road waiting for the bus with a black suitcase.
There was a woman standing next to her, presumably to give it to her. The grocery store owner felt like he had watched a movie story.
"It's hard to say goodbye when we meet, and the east wind is powerless.
The spring silkworm is dead to the end, and the wax torch turns to ash and tears begin to dry.
Xiaojing but the clouds and temples have changed, and the night chant should feel the cold moonlight.
There is no way to go to Pengshan, and the blue bird is diligent to visit. ”
(2) At the moment before getting on the train, Chang Xia looked back at Aunt Han who saw her off, and she knew that Aunt Hong's eyes were full of hidden anger and regret.
Seeing Aunt Hong pursing her lips until the last moment, Chang Xia knew that Aunt Hong still wanted Chang Xia to give up, but she also knew that it was no longer useful to say too much, and she pursed her lips to show that she felt hurt in her heart that she had been let down.
In fact, Chang Xia's heart is also at a loss, and being away from Shanghai is like the yellow sand of the sunset.
Watching white-collar workers go up and down in the subway, wearing well-textured suits, walking on the busy streets of the city, that was Chang Xia's highest dream when he was in the town. Now, in the blink of an eye, she was about to give up.
She stayed in Shanghai, even if she worked as a clerk, at least she didn't have to worry about her livelihood. A person from a small place, who has just arrived in a bustling metropolis, can have such a place to stay, what else does she want? But she gave up like this, and ran forward to a more unknown future.
Chang Xia, who was crowded into the car with a black suitcase, felt like he had been dragged out of a room that he was unwilling to abandon, and the struggle of pulling and pulling on the ground with his feet repeatedly crossed in front of him.
Many years later, Chang Xia would occasionally think of her experience, what if she had stayed in Shanghai at that time? became Aunt Hong's third daughter, married Xiaomu, and lived a peaceful life of marriage and childbirth. Xiao Mu worked hard, and she worked hard to live the life of Shanghai's middle class. Maybe life ends there, and that's what most people live for, and there's nothing wrong with living like this.
Listen to the whole story, "You get off the bus and buy a ticket back." Zhao Yuan said without hesitation.
Graduated from the Department of Computer Science of Zhejiang University, the head of science and engineering is thoughtful and logical, "I can't watch a person sink in front of me." The words that came out of Pingshui's meeting were even more naked and real.
But Chang Xia still stayed on the train and continued along the tracks.
"There is a feeling that hinders the needle of reason in my heart, and in Aunt Hong's house, I will always be an orphan girl. I want to do my best to win Aunt Hong's love; In front of Xiao Mu, I have to follow Aunt Hong's instructions to cover up my broken history. I will always wear a mask of thoughtfulness. ”
However, compared to the difficulty of survival, isn't this little grievance like a bug on the wetland, and you can get rid of this aggrieved bug with a casual step.
Alas, I can't be such a woman in Chang Xia.
"But as soon as I arrived at Bai Xian's," she couldn't help but rejoice in her heart: "It's like putting a wooden basin in my heart, and the wooden basin is sprinkled with flower petals, and I sit down slowly." I soaked in the fragrant warm water.
I will be put in a basin of warm water in the atrium by Bai Xian's whole person. Although, we've only met once."
"It's this somewhat illusory feeling that forms the last barrier that prevents me from giving up on Bai Xian."
Lo and behold, she was distracted again. Zhao Yuan looked at her and sighed helplessly. Although everyone is the same age, how do you look at her, she is like a little girl who doesn't care about the world.
She was stunned, but she really didn't know where she was.
Looking at this little girl's stupid appearance, a middle-aged woman next to her smacked her lips: "This little girl is dating online, don't be deceived and sold." ”
turned to the three young people around Chang Xia: "Which of you should leave a mobile phone number for her!" What if something happens, can I still call? Zhao Yuan hesitated for a moment and wrote down his mobile phone number in Chang Xia's notebook.
When leaving the station, Bai Xian didn't know that Chang Xiaxia was followed by three well-meaning spies.
Bai Xian was wearing the blue shirt that Xia Xia bought for him during the "May Day". Chang Xia Xia smiled shyly at him and lowered her eyebrows.
Chang Xia wore a simple white shirt on her upper body, a long wrap skirt with lilac flowers on her lower body, and a shy smile was faintly hidden in her bright eyes and lips.
She lacks the sharpness and ability of a modern city girl, and she has a kind of elegant and elegant beauty of a small town jasper.
Bai Xian took Chang Xiaxia's luggage with one hand, grabbed Chang Xiaxia's shoulder with the other, then turned his head sideways, looked at Chang Xiaxia and smiled stupidly, while stroking Chang Xiaxia's hair that was about to hang on his shoulders with his hand.
"There are vines and grasses in the wild, and there is zero (falling) dew. There is a beautiful person, clear and graceful. Encounters and encounters are suitable for my wishes. ”