There is a dim yellow street lamp hanging on the wall of the alley for a long distance, and the light is like the cloudy eyes of the old man in the tomb, trembling and unable to open or close. In the streets of this small city, which is still relatively backward, there is not a single night pedestrian in sight, there are no street gangsters and thieves in the mouth of my aunt, and even the beggars lying on the side of the road during the day do not know where to go.

Yu Xi gritted her teeth and ran to the door of the toilet in one go, when suddenly a nocturnal cat flew under her feet from the corner, so frightened that she almost cried. The timid Yu Xi was almost unsteady on her feet, and she wished it was just a dream she had, and she could wake up as long as she turned over and dreamed. But this was not a dream, she leaned against the wall of the toilet and did not dare to move to listen to the movements around her, except for the strange sounds of things coming and going, there was no other sound around.

When she came out of the toilet by the wall in the dark, spread her legs and was about to run to her aunt's house, she bumped into a person. Yu Xi screamed in fright, and the man hurriedly reached out to cover her mouth.

"Don't call it, don't call it, I'm your uncle."

"Little... Little uncle? You... You... Why are you here? You... What are you doing? Yu Xi asked incoherently.

"I'm worried that you're scared to go to the toilet alone, I'll be your companion."

The little uncle suddenly hugged the frightened Yu Xi, and his mouth full of wine came to Yu Xi's face, and Yu Xi screamed in fright. The little uncle was probably not so drunk that he didn't know what to do, and he was worried that Yu Xi's cry would attract passers-by who walked at night and neighbors in the alley, so he had to let her go. Yu Xi hurriedly took the opportunity to break free and ran away, ran to the house and sat at the table, shivering and sobbing in a low voice. She didn't know what to do, and if it weren't for the fact that the public toilet was too dirty to stink, she would have liked to hide in there until dawn and get out of here.

After a while, the little uncle also returned, and after he bolted the door, he stood for a moment in the darkness, and then went into the bedroom without a sound and went to sleep. From the bedroom, there was the sound of the aunt's scolding and the uncle's impatient rebuttal. Probably seeing that Yu Xi was not in bed, the aunt got up and came out to look for her, and saw Yu Xi sitting at the dining table sobbing in a daze, the aunt asked, "It's the middle of the night, why are you sitting here crying?" Homesick again? Go to sleep. Yu Xi didn't get up, and the aunt called again, "Sitting here in the middle of the night and not sleeping, let your parents know and think we are not good to you, hurry up, go to sleep." Yu Xi couldn't resist her aunt's urging, wiped her tears, and followed into the bedroom.

Later, Yu Xi remembered those unbearable old things, and blamed himself countless times in his heart, why he didn't fight back at that time, or told his aunt about his uncle's bad deeds, or left his aunt's house early, and those things would not have happened. At that time, she was so cowardly and helpless that she made the situation more serious and became a shadow and nightmare for most of her life!

Yu Xi was really tired, and fell asleep after lying on the bed for a while. Long pants and long shirts, and then covered with Cousin Fang's thin quilt, this is the clothes that Yu Xi wears on her body every day when she sleeps, only in this way can she feel safer.

The wee hours before dawn are the deepest and darkest time of the day, and the scorching dog days have a hint of coolness at this time. There is only darkness in Yu Xi's dream, and there is no comfortable coolness. At this moment, a hand reached through the thin quilt that she was covering her body. The hand fumbled from the chest to the stomach, and then reached for the zipper of Yu Xi's trousers, the zipper opened, and the hand slowly stretched out from the zipper opening ....... Yu Xi suddenly woke up from the nightmare, rolled over, and slowly retracted his hand.

It wasn't a dream, that ugly hand was the hand of my little uncle. Yu Xi saw it clearly, the little uncle who had been lying on the inside of the aunt actually lay on the outside of the big bed and lay next to her. While she was asleep, while her aunt was asleep, he stretched out his hand of sin to her.

Seeing Yu Xi wake up, the little uncle turned over and hugged the little aunt beside him casually. Yu Xi was so frightened that he didn't dare to lie on that bed anymore, and sat on a small stool in the outer room until dawn. Fear and helplessness struck her like a net, like a night. But she never dared to open her mouth to tell her aunt everything, and she didn't even dare to cry out loud in front of people!

Early the next morning, Yu Xi left her aunt's house.

Returning home with fear and anger, Yu Xi thought that she would be safe when she returned home, and the shadow of those nightmares might slowly dissipate. Yu Xi wanted to tell her mother everything and get some comfort from her mother. But when I got to my mouth and thought about what I wanted to say, I was "blocked" back by my mother's disapproving attitude. The mother blamed her for not helping her aunt take care of the child without asking why, and ran back a few days later.

Probably because she didn't say goodbye caused the aunt's displeasure, and the aunt told her mother. A few days later, her mother blamed her for a long time: such a big person, she doesn't want to do this thing, she can't do this thing well, and she doesn't even say hello when she leaves......

Two days later, Yu Xi received a letter from Cousin Fang. Cousin Fang also asked her in the letter why she didn't say goodbye, so that no one took Xiaoye with her, so her aunt had to take him out of the stall every day. Yu Xi was full of grievances and had nowhere to confide, so she wrote a reply to Cousin Fang, saying that many of her little uncle's bad things were not good, and her words were unceremoniously. But the letter was taken by the little uncle and opened it without Cousin Fang's consent. The little uncle had a big fight with the little aunt and scolded the little aunt. A few days later, the mother who received the news reprimanded Yu Xi again: If you don't want to take care of the children for your aunt, don't scold your uncle, who taught you to be so big and small......

Yu Xi's grievances and emotions couldn't be suppressed, and he told his mother about his uncle's various behaviors. She thought that her mother would be very angry when she heard this, and she would definitely scold her little uncle. But the mother didn't speak after hearing this, and asked Yu Xi after a while: "Did the little uncle do anything to you?" Did it hurt you? Yu Xi shook his head and said, I woke up in fright, and I came home the next day, if I don't leave, maybe something will happen. The mother sighed and said, "If it doesn't hurt you, forget it, he is your uncle, don't tell others about this matter in front of your aunt, I will tell my aunt and let my aunt scold him." ”

Mother's understatement made Yu Xi, who didn't know much about the world, feel resentful, and the little dependence on his mother was gone. After a long time, her blame for her mother has gradually faded a lot, but this weak approach and education method that knocked out her teeth and swallowed blood really caused Yu Xi to suffer a lot.

The reason why Cousin Fang is safe and sound is because the little uncle is afraid of the younger brother of the uncle and aunt who is a policeman. And Yu Xi has not been very cherished by his mother since he was a child, a child who doesn't even care for his mother, who will really cherish it?