I PUT THE MILK INTO THE FISH TANK, PUSHED OPEN THE WINDOW, THE DIRT OUTSIDE THE WINDOW WAS VERY FRAGRANT, MY NAME WAS LITTLE Z, I REMEMBER WHEN I WAS 14 YEARS OLD, I USED TO DRAG SUNSHINE TO THE RAIN. She likes the rain, and after she went to Sichuan, no one was willing to accompany me into the heavy rain, and even I didn't have the courage to walk into it again, because some worlds are like a road, and after going out, they can never come back, and that kind of hearty in the rain can only be experienced with the heart in that astringent era. I kept writing in my letters that I wanted to go to the rain with her, and she kept telling me that she was the same, but we both understood that even if we were still together, maybe we would only look at the rain and smell the fragrance, and no longer have the original enthusiasm, after all, all human feelings have a time to run out.

When I got off work today, Feiyang said that he was leaving tomorrow, and I only said goodbye. He asked me if I wanted to send him, I said no, "send you a thousand miles, there will be a farewell" why bother to make a teacher move, sometimes leaving is a must, in front of the must sentimental is a senseless sacrifice, worthless sentimentality. In fact, I envy Feiyang, he goes to work in the place he loves the most, there are people he loves the most, and there are dreams he has had since he was a child, these are enough.

In fact, looking back, it is hard to imagine that he will sit down quietly and read the manuscript when he was manic, will patiently write approvals on the manuscript, and will reply to the reader's letter, but when he eats hot pot, he will see the same vitality as before, and sometimes he will sigh how he would have soared if he had not followed us to change his studies, but after all, he chose the same life as us, maybe it was the former oath that brought everyone together, and when he said in high school, he would be admitted to the same university in the future, and many people didn't believe it. But that power really brought everyone together. I remember the night we got on the train together, Feiyang, Xiao Rong, Yan Yu, Taoxuan and I almost started the whole car to get up and party, Yan Yu, who was also very calm, actually drank Sprite and sang "Little Swallow, Wear Flower Clothes...... and there were tears on his face that he had never seen before, flying so calm that he was unusually calm, while looking at the map of City A, while holding a laptop to check the rent information, while planning the use of our funds, and even thinking about where we would go to work, how to bargain with the boss to take in us five lazy worms...... Taoxuan and I, Xiao Rong and I could only laugh that night, as if we had never laughed in our lives...... In the end, Feiyang also said: "Yan Yu, when the time comes, when we graduate from college, we will draw lots, and if we draw the same one, we will start a family, and we will help her choose one for the single one, and then the six of us will still live together, okay?" Yan Yu said: "Okay, save trouble!" ”

Now that I think about it, it really should be like that, save trouble, save Feiyang and leave. I also want to send him off, but he has always disliked me crying, and it makes him sad when he goes, and the three of them will go, and I will bless him in my heart!

I got up early the next morning, when the moon was still bright, I had already made breakfast, and there were 5 servings of toast, salad and milk on the huge crystal table, I remember that we ate these on the first day we moved in 5 years ago, and I also made them, but it was placed on a very small log table, and the five people still only laughed and didn't talk or anything, life was so beautiful. Feiyang was the first to come downstairs, looking at the table and trying to say something, but he just smiled, and waited until he had finished his last sip of milk before saying:

"This breakfast has been a taste for 5 years~~ I haven't grown!"

"You've been eating for 5 years, so you can't get used to it?"

"Okay, I said Taoxuan, you've been arguing with him for more than 5 years, what should you do if he leaves?"

"Hehe, little thief, I said Yan Yu, the two of us grew up together since childhood, I'm leaving, what are you going to do?"

"Look at it, I can't help but live, my vitality is tenacious!"

"Okay, you have to have a good time, and these three oil bottles, you have to take care of them, I won't have to think about them if I can't see them when I come back another day!"

"Hmmm! ……”

He hugged me as he went out the door, I don't remember how many times he gave me such hugs, just that every time I could stop crying.

"Smoke less cigarettes and learn to be strong on your own, okay?"

"Hmm."

"I'll come back during the holidays and take you to Tibet to sing."

"Hmm."

"Wear less headphones to listen to music and turn on the most, it hurts your ears."

"Hmm."

"Okay, don't talk about it, I'll E you if you have something."

"Hmm."

“……”

"That...... It's okay for you to E me, anyway, I have a lot of time! ”

"Okay, E you, E every day E you, E don't kill you!"

"Oh, okay, then next time you come back, come to the cemetery to see me!"

"Good. Certain! ”

I just sat at the table, looking at his cutlery, feeling the plane skimming over the roof, feeling a little twitch in my heart, thinking of the era when the stamens were flying apart and the flowers were fragrant, but I couldn't remember his face anymore. Is it that a life just fades out of my world, or does his life intersect with mine?

I went back to the room and opened the drawer, and a note floated out of it:

Little Z:

This time I left because I felt that I had found my paradise, and I felt that I would be happier there, because there was someone I loved and loved me, and you will never disappear, you will always be a part of my life, and in the top corner of your bookcase there is a book "The Story of Candy" on which is an introduction to candy all over the world, I remember when you were 16 years old you said that you wanted to open a candy store and adopt seven children, I think when you take seven children in a candy store, you must be like an angel, an angel in heaven, right?

- Flying

The next day, I quit my position as editor-in-chief, found a shop in the city center, and started looking for the candy in the book; In the afternoon, I went to the welfare center to fill out the application.

When he returned home in the evening, Yan Yu said that he had decided to learn French and become a translator; Xiao Rong said that she wanted to open a store with me and be a godmother to the child; Taoxuan said that she had submitted an application to the company......

Flying:

You okay? When will I come back and see, Taoxuan is already a manager. Yan Yu took the exam next week, and he said that he was ready to invite us to eat hot pot, I have now adopted two girls, very well-behaved and beautiful, and they often ask me if you can make pizza, because Xiao Rong often talks to them about you, she is very much like an angel now, but she almost makes up the wrong money every day.

Everyone is very happy, every day at breakfast will still put your utensils out, imagine your happiness, in fact, since you left, we are still together every day, living in the same place, breathing the same air, that place is called heaven, right? Everyone has heaven in their hearts, not that we can't find it, but we don't find it, right? I don't remember the last time I left home, it was as if it was blue, and I didn't cry as hard as I did in my dreams, I just knew that I would be there forever from now on, because everything that belonged to me was gone. And what I will have is the paradise that I have sought with my life......